Jordy Ams

Is actually terrible

I’m nervous and sweaty the majority of the time

This was not a good option.

I’ve somehow accept a job at a call center

To most people that’s not problem

Im a introvert with major phone anxiety

The first thing I check for are

School projects and presentation

Guess what? All of my classes require them 

Pray for me

I know it doesn’t seem like a big deal

But for a introvert like me,,,

It is.. I just much rather send emails

But you have to face your fears some day

Currently still sweaty and shaky

How great it is to be alone

No, It’s not boring or lonely 

It’s simply being content with being by yourself

I can still in silence for a very long time

I mean I partially didn’t want to go and I’m kind of relieved 

I was just being a good friend and going with the flow 

I only truly get upset if I really really REALLY wanted to go 

And even then...I’ll just go by myself

I do great when I practice  

But when it’s time for the actual interview 

I get super nervous and sweaty 

I start to stutter and get flustered 

And I forgot words 

But I’m very diligent 

Let’s just skip the interview process

I need time to prepare 

Let alone make the decision to even answer 

I’m very prepared to be overwhelmed with questions

Although I’m very comfortable around my family 

It can be a bit much with the constant questions 

And I’m a little awkward  

It’s super hard at first….I get it 

But when you don’t...people take advantage of you 

It’s very rewarding when you start living for yourself 

I know what I want to do and achieve 

But I’m in the wrong head space to go for it 

Wanting to make new friends

But not wanting to leave my house 

Especially when it’s hard for you to say no

Like I don’t want to disappoint or make anyone unhappy 

But learning to say no is such a relief 

It’s not about them, it’s about how you feel

And then get slightly frustrated when the person doesn’t stick to the script

Like I had this entire conversation planned out in my head

And now you’re going off script!?

Working from home

Never having to actually make phone calls

Emails only all day 

While playing Sims in bed

Like I know it may never happen 

But it’s fun to think… maybe this could happen 

I guess i’ll just keep those thoughts in my head 

I instantly have anxiety

My heart shatters a little every time

I know exactly how things are going to end up