johnemiya01

I'm grinding a lot on FFXIV lately. I've been doing the Zodiac Weapon quest, and despite it being a real grind, I'm kinda enjoying it. It's funny how I enjoy the FFXIV grind more than a lot of the games I've played lately. Maybe it's a mix of it being kinda cozy and the community being the best I've ever experienced in an online game. Eorzea is a world where I truly feel like gaming still has a purpose in my life after years of predatory gacha games and toxic PvP behavior. It's truly what I need in this sad moment of my life.

Life is tough

Socializing is tough

Eating is tough

Sleeping is tough

Not sleeping is tough

It's tough

Hi Tumblr, how's it going? Hope everything is fine with you.

Life has been quite challenging lately. Something happened that really hit me hard, and I'm recovering from it.

To cope a bit, I started playing Final Fantasy XIV again with a new character, and I squeezed 100 hours into less than a week. That's just how desperate I am to not think about everything, I guess.

Don't get me wrong, I'm having fun. It's just that...

Things are getting too big and too hard, and I seem to be unable to truly enjoy anything.

I won a local Riftbound tournament last week. I spent a lot of time testing and tuning my LeBlanc to give her my best at the event, and despite my success, I'm not feeling the joy in what I'm doing.

It's becoming harder and harder to convey my emotions, and talking with people seems like an endless riddle that I'm just not able to solve.

Will I ever be enough? Will I ever be able to face this life, or will I give up trying?

I ain't feeling bad lately, won the Riftbound pre rift yesterday and started playing Once Human!

Life is still tough, but I'm doing my best to keep smiling!

I liked her since her first appearance in the main story and her event is such a blast, I HAD TO pull her.