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this is my last binge. i will no longer let food control me. starting tomorrow i will be a calorie counting, fasting, exercise machine. im so tired of feeling trapped in my own body and letting food determine my future. if im ever going to reach my ugw of 120 pounds.  i need to act on it as soon as possible. i make these promises to myself so often, but i thought that if i put this on the internet, it would help me stay motivated. i just want, more than anything, to be skinny. i will do whatever it takes to get there. im afraid my future is fat if i dont do something soon. i have to do this. for the sake of my sanity, my well-being, my health, and my mentality. 

this account was originally going to be about the last of us, but i’ve struggling with myself recently. i’m getting so fat. i need to get skinny fast. i wish i was able to share my cw, but i can’t put that out there because i’m so ashamed and embarrassed. honestly, i don’t even know what i currently weigh. i just want to be thin. that is all i’ve ever wanted. i’m serious about getting thin this time. it’s hard to look at myself in the mirror, which is why i don’t shower. i finally took a shower tonight though and i’m disgusted. my body is revolting. no wonder i have no friends. my mom told me that my appearance is the reason why people don’t talk to me anymore. i was offended when she told me that, but i’m starting to agree with her. if i was thin, i wouldn’t have this problem. i’m gonna start restricting myself like never before. i already don’t eat breakfast or lunch, i just have to get my binging under control. whatever it takes. this time next year i could be my goal weight. my goal weight is 110... i am no where near 110. i looked up a bmi calculator recently and it told me i’m obese. if i don’t start taking these things seriously, i’ll be a fatty for the rest of my life. no... i’ll kms before that effing happens. anyways, i need tips on how to control binging and how to get motivated to exercise. i know i can do this. i have to. 

rip to the hottest dilf in the world. 

i literally want joel miller to put me in a choke hold and strangle me unconscious. that would be enough. 

i wish it was 2011 and i didnt care about anything.