Look, it's Joe!

I’ve parked my car in the parking lot of a park here in my town, but it’s packed and i feel like it’s too many people out on the trail for social distancing. I’ve been here at this park before during the busy weekends so I know it’s too many people. There’s actually less people out in the parking lots than the trail so I’ve decided to just chill in my car with the windows down and soak up the sun and enjoy the breeze coming through my windows. I do want to go walking but not now. As we’ve gone through this COVID situation for over a month I’m still going to take precautions, but I’m outside cause I miss it. Any ways am i happy? No. I’m not happy, but I’m not depressed. I’ve been people watching and i notice a lot of people are smiling and chatting and having fun. I feel like I’m not happy with stuff... I think that is all I want to say about that for now. I miss going to the gym. I miss going on the rower and the cycling machines and doing weights. I miss hanging out with friends and going out to bars. Here’s a pic of me in some PPE at work. Work has been good. Been precepting a new nurse which is almost to an end, so I’ll miss doing that. Been charge nurse on certain days handling chaos and what not. Looking back I feel like I made a good choice going into orthopedics. Can’t wait for all the elective surgeries and less Rona patients and patients that usually belong on other floors.

- As I was skimming past some pics of awesome places I want to visit it was thinking I need to get myself in “adventure mode” or getting back into shape as in being able to walk all day without complaining of shit. The last time I went to Korea a few years ago I was able go jogging early in the mornings and do some solo sightseeing. I want to be able to do that and more on my next adventure.

- Still so far away from getting anything done with a lot of my goals. Gotta keep chipping away at everything.

I’m in my last week of one of my online RN to BSN classes. Sadly many more classes to go.

2018 was an okay year. Got to travel a little bit (Costa Rica, California, Georgia, and Tennessee), got to work at a new hospital and everyone I work with are cool people, and got to buy new toys for myself, but had less time to play with them.

I need to workout more this year. Last year I didn’t work out as much as I did in 2017. Also based on my doctor visits I gained weight. I’m a big fatty.

I need to do more hiking, camping, shooting. Last year I went hiking only a handful of times. I only got to camping once. I got a new tent and some new camping gear. So I definitely need to go make use of my purchases. I went to the gun range only 3 times this past year even though I bought 2 more new guns. I need to do more fishing, too. I think less outside time is affecting my happiness.

Also, my boss and coworkers at work think I’m responsible so I’ve been voluntold to take part in committees and now I have to do more work. So more adulting than before.

Phrases I’ve been thinking about for this year:

“Dominate relentlessly until I die trying.”

“Fake it til you make it.” I’ve accomplished a lot in regards of nursing, but I still feel like I’m faking it.

Well I started this earlier and saved it as a draft, but it didn’t save 😡

Take 2. I need to either buy more tape or invest in some gloves that have padding at the fingers versus at the palms. I have have workout gloves, but they ain’t the kind I need at the moment. While doing my rowing workouts bare handed it would cause pain at the finger tips due to pressure on the nerves? And the development of blisters. Fuck blisters. The last thing I need is a hand full of blisters and then sting like a motherfucker every time I use the sanitizer at the hospital.

Today, I got pooped. Tried to do another ½ marathon on the machine, but my quads started to cramp too early in the game. Had to call it quits around 15km. Lame. I know. I need to eat better.