A box full of sugar

Can an Introvert and Extrovert exist in one person?  When i'm outside I like talking to people, making sure there's no dead air or whatsoever. I try. I may not always be good or successful at it but I try. I'd sometimes think that at least I made them feel a little less stressed out or comfy or at least connected in someway. that they wont feel so left out when working with us. it nice sometimes, and i'd start to think that maybe we could be friends after this. but the truth is, they all just wish to do what they came here for. to do their duties. Why do i say this? because when I'm starting to feel lonely and alone, and when i feel like i want to talk to someone, i end up staring at my friends list and not know who i can tell my problems to.  It's not easy. thinking i was friendly but doesn't really have friends.  I've pushed a lot of people out of my life and I've seen people pushed me to the side as well and i think at some point i just gave up. 

I used to think that doing make up is as easy as painting with watercolor. I was wrong. :|