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Stupid heatwave... nhguhguhg

oh fuck i've given him another Complex

anyways. the eyelids are new. boy i sure hope that those won't eventually symbolize something

don't you hate it when you have a dissociative episode/panic attack so long that everyone just decided to leave you alone and go to bed?

and did you guys really think I would let there be an actual conflict with a satisfying resolution? in the starting chapter? hahaha! no it'll just build up and get repressed of course

text during his inner monologue if anybody’s curious: “I knew it I knew it they don’t want me here why would they they want me dead they never wanted me back he’s going to kill you again why shouldn’t he you failed them you let them abstract you failed them you failed them YOU FAILED YOU FAILED THEM YOU FAILED THEM YOU FAILED YOU’RE A FUCKING FAILURE–“

and then the red text: “SHUT UP. Shut up. Stop thinking. Remember what you decided. They will never love you. Not like this.”

also!!! physics project is over! unfortunately AP testing starts this week... so don't expect very many updates until my school year ends.

“If you miss the train I’m on”