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"Yeah, let's do it."

"So the title of your album is 'All About You,' is that related to anyone in particular?" As an idol you can't say everything you want to say, people have a way of taking things they want to take it. You can't just come out and says it's about Min Yoongi and all the heartache you went through.

Damn it.

"I want to say it yes, but that could get me and the other person in trouble. No I'm kidding." You let out a nervous chuckle. "But it's not just for me, it's for anyone who wants to cry after a breakup." You look over at your manager behind the camera who gives you a supportive smile.

"Your title track song is called Blank and let me just say I cried so much listening to this song, like bro you had me all up in my feelings for a week. And no one can get over the lyrics, especially this one, 'Honestly I miss you, but now I'll erase you because erasing you is better than missing you. Can you talk to us about this?"

"The way I wanted to portray this feeling is that I'm in love with this person and even after the breakup I'm still in love with him and I miss him but it's not healthy. In order to stop missing him I need to finally erase him from my mind." Min Yoongi was always on your mind. His face was literally everywhere you went, on billboards, in cafés, everywhere.

"Could this song be about your relationship with Min Yoongi?" Did she really ask that?

"I have nothing to say about that." But the interviewer keeps pressing the issue.

"You never disclosed what happened between you two, can you tell us now?" You get up from your seat.

Too hell if this interview is live. It's over.

"This interview is over." You rip the mic off from your shirt.

"But we're live, you can't just leave-" You leave the stage before she can say anything else. The fact that you may have looked rude while walking out barely even crosses your mind. She had no right to press the issue.

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"Y/n you're not in trouble because of the interview, she was fired and everyone actually understands why you reacted the way you did. Just be careful with what you say and do." You were on the phone with your manager regarding the interview that happened earlier that day. "People want to see idols as honest human beings and what you did was being honest and they loved it."

"Thank you Jackson," a knock comes from your front door bringing your attention to it. "Someone's at the door so I'll see you later." You both hang up and it's the first and the last person you wanted to see.

"Hi Y/n." There was Min Yoongi, holding a bag full of take out from your favorite restaurant, looking as beautiful as ever. "I saw the interview, are you okay?" You give him a small smile.

"I'm okay, I was just annoyed." Yoongi nods. And it's then that you notice he's still outside. You motion for him to follow you to the kitchen.

"I'm sorry for dropping in like this but I know how you get when your annoyed, you forget to eat. Plus I need to talk to you." Your ears perk up. He remembers. And he wants to talk? You don't say anything. "Congratulations on the album, it's beautiful." He flashes you a smile that has your heart swelling.

"Thank you, it was really hard to produce honestly." You grab two cups from you cupboard and come back to your table with a some juice.

"Is it true? Was it all about me? Do you want to erase me from your life?" Yes. Yes. I could never actually erase you. I'm still in love with you. You can't even look him in the eye. "I guess it's true then. Did I just you that much that you can't look me in the eye? Please say something." Yoongi comes to kneel at by your seat. He grasps him your hand in his.

"It was all about you Yoongi. And you hurt me so much. But I'm still in love with you." Tears start running down your face. "I don't even know why you showed up here." You never move your hand from his.

"I should've never picked my music over you, it was a stupid decision and I wish I could take it back. I still love you Y/n." Yoongi grasps you head in his head and crashes your lips. It's messy but it's holds so much emotion. Neither of you know how you survived without each other, because nothing beats having his lips on yours. Nothing beats the feeling of you tugging on his hair, sighing in contentment when he starts exploring your mouth. Yoongi tries to imprint into his brain every single sensation; the way you curl your arms around his neck, the way you keep pulling him down to you as if he's not close enough, the way you squirm when he nibbles on your bottom lip.

"I love you." You whisper in between feverish kisses. He pauses finally letting you both breathe. You hold stars in your eyes, and those stars are for him to see. It's all over whelming though, so all Yoongi can do is lean his forehead against yours.

"Please give me another chance, I won't mess up again. Just come back to me" You nod your head. As he wraps his arms around, you bringing you into an embrace.

"Why do we always have to do the cringiest things while mcing?" You only chuckle at your older brothers complaint.

"Sounds like a problem that's not mine." Chanyeol turns to glare at you, but not before getting his eye poked by the makeup stylist. Your brother yelps in pain before apologizing to the stylist for moving. "That's what happens when you complain." You hear a small chuckle from the doorway and see Kim Seokjin from BTS. He was mcing with chanyeol for the show.

"You really are siblings, I just can't seem to figure out which one is older from the way you act." Jin takes a seat next to you on the couch.

"Hey! We all know Y/n's the baby of the family. She even looks like one." You smack the back of Chanyeol's head.

"At least she's not old like you." Jin decides to join in on teasing Chanyeol

"I'm only a couple of days older than you!" You and both end up laughing. "I'm Jin by the way, but you can call me Worldwide Handsome." Jin winks at you.

"I'll stick to Jin." He starts to pout. You make eye contact with Chanyeol while he's fake gaging. "Please refrain from flirting with my sister."

It wasn't much later when it was time for them to go on stage. You enjoyed watching them and the friendship between them. After the show Chanyeol invites Jin to eat out with you guys. You both remained close friends with each other. A few months after being friends you realized your feelings for him. Of course being cliche, you didn't think he had feelings for you. You believed he acted the way he did with you with everyone. It was until he took you out one night that he finally asked you out.

"Look Y/n we are both very good looking individuals, so why don't we become the most good looking couple Korea as ever seen?" You really didn't expect him to ask you out. You especially didn't expect him to ask you out like that. Of course you agreed and you have never regret it.

Getting stuck in your daydream you ended up burning some pancakes. After breakfast was all set you tiptoed into your shared bed. You straddle his hips and pepper his face with kisses. "Seokjin, wake up."

"Stop, let me sleep."

"But it's your birthday and ai want to spoil you." You place the last kiss on his lips. This seems to wake him up a little more, he deepens the kiss and flips you onto your back. Expecting him to continue kissing you, you did not however expect him to crush you by laying on top of you.

"Jonnie, I can't breathe." He finally rolls off of you and gazes into your eyes. "Happy birthday."

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After eating breakfast you made the rest of the BTS members came over and hung out with Jin. They of course all brought gifts, but Jin would open them when your surprise present came. The boys were all in the living room goofing off while you were putting the finishing touches on the cake. Your phone goes off with a text message.

[Jin's mom 6:50 pm]

"We parked down the road, heading to the house:)"

[Y/n 6:51 pm]

Come in the back door, I'll open it for you

The cake was finally done when you heard a small knock on the door. You made sure that Jin was still in the living room before opening the door for his parents and brother. Jin has expressed to you how much he missed spending his birthdays with his family and you saw this as an opportunity to get him a special gift. After hugging his family you hand his mother mother the cake and lead them to the living room.

"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy dear Jin, happy birthday to you." Jin's eyes well up with tears as he sees his family infront of him. He quickly blows out his candles and rushes to hug them. "This was all Y/n's idea, you got a good one little bro." Jin looksboverbto you and brings you into a hug also.

"Thank you for bringing them. I love you so much. Which is why I want to do this." Jin walks in the kitchen leaving you confused for a moment, but the moment he walks back and gets down on one knee leaves you speechless.

"Jin."

"Y/n, you've made me the happiest person in the whole entire world. You bringing me my family over made me realize that there is no better moment then this. Infront of my bestest friends, my brother and my parents. I wanted to wait for the right moment and this is it. I want everyone to see just how much you mean to me. You stuck with me, even though I can be cocky and loud-"

"And annoying." Everyone laughs at Jungkooks remark.

"You've been there for me even with my busy schedule and I can't express how much I love you exactly. I wish there were better words. I want to spend the rest of my life with you and have a family. Will you marry me?" You nod your head as tears come down your cheeks.

"Oh my God of course." Jin slips the beautiful ring onto your finger and pulls you into a kiss.

“I can grab you guys both someone to eat, if you want. You guys can stay here and relax.” You look at Jimin, thinking it through.

“Mommy I wanna go.” You feel Minnie tug on your arm. You look at her.

“I can take her for you. There’s a small shop just outside of here. She can get out for a few and you can just relax. You worked hard to day.” Did you trust Jimin? Yes. Did you trust him to take care of your daughter? Yes. But did you want to send her outside with an idol without you? Not really.

“I understand your hesitation, but we’ll both wear a mask, hats and whatever else you want. We’ll have Sejin with us also. You don’t have to worry.” You look back and Jimin and slowly nod your head. It would give you a chance to talk with Hoseok about changing parts of the routine to flow better. “Great, and don’t worry I’ll pay for lunch.”

“You really don’t need to, but thank you. Please be careful.” Jimin nods as he helps Minnie put on a face mask, her sunglasses and a hat.

“It’s no problem.” They both wave to you as they walk out of the practice room. You walk over towards Hoseok and talk to him about the parts that don’t flow right.

“I was thinking of doing it more like this.” You go through the routine with the changes you thought would work better.

“Woah, that actually looks better hyung.” You look up as you finish the routine to see Namjoon smiling at you.

“Thank you.” You smile back. Hoseok and Sungdeuk really liked the changes and agreed it fit better into the song. This was how it was all day. You danced to your hearts content. Going through the routine with Jimin and watching Namjoon and Jungkook dance.

Namjoon struggled. That was obvious, he grew frustrated. You’ve all been practicing for the last 2 weeks. He worked hard through it all, you found it to be… endearing? Kim Namjoon who couldn’t dance as well as others worked… maybe even harder then the ones who could. You decided that you wanted to help him out, you were a dance teacher after all. Maybe you could get him to relax. After practice you go up to him.

“Hey, how are you holding up?” Namjoon looks up at you through his sweat matted hair. He quickly shows you a smile.

“Ahh I’m good. I’ll learn the moves… eventually. It just takes a while.” You crouch down to his level. He was taller than you, hell he was taller than everyone. Another thing you liked about him. He could sit on his butt while you crouched and he was almost at the same height as you.

“That’s great. I was actually wondering if you wanted, I don’t know, some help. I mean yeah you’ll get it. But you know I could help you ‘control’ your body.” His smile only widens at your offer.

“That would be great. I appreciate it. Whenever your free is good for me.”

“I know tomorrow is your day off but we could meet at my studio, around 11? Minnie will be with her dad and I could use a distraction from her absence.”

“Tomorrow works for me.”

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“Good morning Minho.” You step aside for Minho to walk in. Turning your back to him you grabs Minnie’s backpack she’ll need for her week with Minho.

“Here’s the thing Y/n. I’m flying out tomorrow to China, I’m going back on for the ‘Return of Superman’ and there traveling for vacation or something and they wanted Minnie to come with me.” He talks so casual about this. Like it’s not a big deal. He never mentioned taking Minnie to China. He leans against the wall next to the door. Arms crossed watching you.

“China? You couldn’t mention this sooner? She isn’t even packed for a trip.” He simply just rolls his eyes at you.

“She has clothes with me. You could’ve come with me, but no all you did was nag me about this and that, and end our relationship. We could’ve had a great time like we did last time. Remember the last night we were there? You were begging me for my cock. To mark you up. To fuck you senseless.” He steps towards you, close enough to feel his breath on your cheek. “I remember it clearly.”

“Maybe if you weren’t such a dick we would still be together.” You step further away from him. “But please be careful with her. Have her call me every night.” He rolls his eyes and nods his head.

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You walk into your studio. Walking towards the reception desk to tell Bee about Namjoon coming over. You quickly discard your jacket and leaving you in your black adidas sweat pants and a crop top. You plug your phone into the speaker, blasting a random song on your playlist. 'Do you’ by Namjoon was the first to come on, not wanting to change it you go along and just let your body let loose. When you dance nothing matters. Nothing exist except you and the music. Minho doesn’t exist and as much as you hate to admit it the responsibility of being a single mother. You had Minnie when you were young. You wanted to wait until you got married to Minho to have a child but here she is. She really was a blessing though. You were only 20, still in college. Thankfully you had your parents to help while you were in school and Minho was working. You continue to dance to Namjoon’s old song, finishing it all the way through.

“Nice song choice.” You look into the mirror and see Namjoon standing by the door.

“How long were you there for?”

“Just a minute. I was impressed with what I saw.” You both smile at each and he comes walking towards you. Namjoon look good today, wearing all black for today’s practice.

“Your staring.” You look up at Namjoon’s face. He was only a little more then a foot away from you.

“No I wasn’t.” Your cheeks start to heat up. You were checking him out.

“Whatever you say.” He chuckles and shows his dimples. My Lord, how you wished you had dimples like him.

“Okay, first we stretch. I already did but the more you stretch the better.” You both begin stretchinh out your bodies. You got so lost into doing your normal stretches you didn’t notice him staring. Namjoon thought you looked beautiful today. He has been seeing you around at the Bighit building a lot more and he’s only found more reasons to like you. Your funny, but also professional, your as kind as you are smart. And so much more.

“Now your the one who’s staring.” Namjoon quickly shakes his head and blushes.

“How can I not, your beautiful.” You look away from him. He’s sweet. Really sweet.

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“Uh hold on, let’s try something first.” You and Namjoon have been practicing for the past hour, but he still seems so stiff in his movements. “I’m going to play a random song and I want you to do the first things that come to your mind. No planned choreography, I want you to relax, just follow the music.” You press pick a random playlist on your phone and watch Namjoon. The first song is senorita. Namjoon looks lost at first, trying to figure out what to do. You wanted him to relax so you decided to jump in and start off. Like always you let the music control your body. You move towards him grab his heads putting it on your waist and leaning to the side. You come back up and turn to talk into his ear. “Just relax and have fun.” You look into each other’s eyes as he begins guiding both your movements. You follow his lead as he continues to grow confident, spinning you out and pulling you into his arms.

“Your doing good Namjoon, wow.” Namjoon loves hearing you praise him. He’s likes it’s more than Jimin or Hoseok praising him. He enjoys seeing you proud of him. You and Namjoon finish the song. His dark brown eyes star into yours.

“Have lunch with me.” You shake yourself back into reality. What could go wrong with lunch?

“Okay.”

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“So tell me about yourself Y/n. Something that no one really knows about you.” You and Namjoon were at a small restaurant, seated across from each other.

“Um, I don’t know. Um I really hate watermelon.” He flashes his dimples and chuckles.

“Noted, but come on. There has to be something more then that.”

“I really don’t know, everyone basically knows everything about me because of the articles about Minho and everything and anything surrounding our relationship. I guess you would understand that.” He simply just nods his head. “Oh wait, not a lot of people know that I can give a good haircut and I don’t mean to toot my own horn but makeup is another skill of mine.” For dramatic effect you check out your nails and he chuckles.

“I want to ask you something, if it makes you uncomfortable then please tell me.” You nod for him to continue. “What happened between you and Minho?” Why are you not surprised? No one really understands what happened between you two, given the fact neither of you told the press why.

“A lot happened actually. I was in love with him, he loved me but was in love with his career. I 'nagged” You hold your fingers up making air quotation marks and roll your eyes. “him about spending time with me and Minnie, we were good before I got pregnant but after Minnie came he changed. I also wanted to get married to him but he… didn’t. You would think a baby would bring a couple closer but that wasn’t the case with us. One night we were supposed to go out just the two of us and celebrate my grand opening of my studio, he made a dinner reservation at this really fancy restaurant, I waited for him there. He never showed up. He was at a bar with his band mates. Claimed he forgot. I had enough, I packed my stuff along with Minnie’s, when he got home I ended things and stayed with my parents.” Minho crushed your heart in more ways than one. You often wondered if you would have waited to have children if things would’ve been the same as it was before but you don’t regret your daughter. She was your light. Namjoon’s expression is one of sympathy and sadness. He wondered why someone would treat you that way.

“I would never treat you like that.” That took you by surprised. You were oblivious to Namjoon’s crush on you. You never noticed the way he started at you. How he would blush every time you complimented him.

“Thank you, but sometimes I wonder if I did nag him too much. Maybe I pushed him away by wanting to spend time together. I just wanted a family.”

“Hey don’t start crying now. It just showed you cared. He didn’t deserve you.” You didn’t even notice that tears were coming down your face. Namjoon reaches across the table and wipes them from your cheeks.

“This may not be the best time to do this,” Namjoon looks deeply into your eyes. “ But I really like you and I enjoy your company and everything about you is amazing and- oh god I’m rambling.” He looks down and chuckles nervously. You thought it was cute.

“Are you asking me out, Kim Namjoon?” Namjoon looks back up, a blush sweeping across his cheeks.

“That would be exactly what I’m doing Y/n Kim.”

“I would love to go on a date with you.” You and Namjoon made plans to meet that night. You didn’t know what you felt about Namjoon. You found him to be an adorable dork. He was really sweet to you and your daughter. He would often give her snacks while he waited for his turn to practice. You knew you found him highly attractive. That was for sure. Maybe tonight would set your feelings straight with him.

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Namjoon only told you to dress warm and comfortable. It was getting pretty cold out now that your were reaching the end of October. The doorbell rings to your apartment. You quickly glance at your outfit again, you were wearing your favorite pair of jeans that hugged your curves just right and a black and white sweater. Hair your was down, letting your wavy hair let loose.

“Hello beautiful.” Namjoon grins, handing you a small bouquet of yellow roses with red tips. Which he told you were fake roses because it was getting to cold for flowers to bloom.

“I like the color, its different from the red roses you see someone bring on a first date. I also like how they are fake. I don’t have to worry about them dying.” You both laugh.

“This might sounds dorky but I thought you would like them because it means friendship and falling in love. Taehyung helped me pick them out, said they’re your favorite.” He did his research. That was cute.

“They are, thank you.”

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“It’s beautiful Namjoon.” Your date consisted of hot chocolate and watching the sunset. It really was beautiful. You’re glad he didn’t go over the top with with your first date.

“You know I was totally going to take a nap as soon as I got to the dorm because you exhausted me, but I was to nervous, so I did this instead. Of course with Jin hyungs help.”

“Aww Joonie.” You sat there for an hour until he ended up spilling the rest of the hot chocolate on you and the blanket. You enjoyed it a lot, despite having warm chocolate on your sweater and pants. Namjoon was great company and you didn’t feel the need watch what you say around him. He offered to walk you home like a gentleman and to buy you a nice sweater but you wouldn’t do that to him. He had his arm wrapped around you the whole time you walked, keeping you warm.

“Thank you for everything Namjoon.” You finally made it to your door. You had already unlocked the door and were now waiting to bid Namjoon goodnight. Except you didn’t want to. You wanted this night to go on as long as it could.

“Can I kiss you?” God yes. Please. You nod your head. He pulls has mask and cap off, leaning down to kiss you. The kiss was everything you thought it would be. It was amazing. He had soft, thick lips. You didn’t want THIS to end. All you could think of was this kiss and how you wanted more. You had him once that drunken night, you wanted him again. You both break apart breathless. You weave your hands into his soft brown hair. He guides the both of you inside, never breaking the kiss. You both end up against the now closed door. You light tug on his hair, earning a groan to come from him. Arousal was already pooling in your panties.

“Jump.” He grabs the back of your thighs lifting you up. He almost looses his balance, causing you both to laugh.

“Bedroom?” You point to your room down the hall. Upon entering your room he lays you on the bed and gets on top of you. He leaves open wet kisses on your neck, tugging your shirt over your head. He continues to trail his kisses down to your navel. He begins to unbutton your pants.

“God your so beautiful.” He had taken off your pants, gazing at your body. You have stretch marks from your pregnancy, you were never embarrassed of them. They remind you that you gave life to a beautiful girl. Namjoon begins kissing all your stretch marks, leaving his own red marks on your body. Pulling your panties off the lower he goes.

“Take your clothes off.” Namjoon is quick to obey. Stripping off his coat and remaining clothes. You slip out of your bra, gazing at the beautiful man in front of you. Namjoon was fit, he had mentioned that he would go to the gym, he had some abs he was working on. As soon as Namjoon pulls his underwear off. His cock springs up, bouncing against his stomach. His cock was big and red, leaking precum. Namjoon climbs on top of you, looking into your eyes.

“Are you sure you want this?” You nod your head. He searches your face for an doubt hidden. You become impatient and grab his hand that was on your hip and bring down to your pussy, guiding his fingers around your clit.

“Please, I want you.” That’s all it takes for Namjoon to plunge two fingers into your pussy. He goes slow, teasing you, your body squirming beneath him as his lips mark your skin. Namjoon loves hearing his name roll of your tongue. “Ah fuck me already, Namjoon.” He continues nipping at your skin all over, quickening his pace. He brings his thumb to rub your clit.

“I didn’t hear a please.”

“Please-” Namjoon adds more pressure on your clit, electing more moans from you. “Please, I want to feel you inside me.” Namjoon grunts into your ear, turned on by your pleas to have him in you. Namjoon sits up on his knees, stroking his shaft with the hand that was pleasuring you. You grin up at him, he looked so good stroking himself. His jab was jutted out, his hair was was all over the place from your hands running through it and pulling on it.

“Your staring, babygirl.” You didn’t think you could get any wetter.

“It’s hard not to.” Namjoon smirks and scoots closer to your entrance. You raise your hips as a hint for him to enter you.

“Are you going to fuck me or what?” Namjoon’s eyes darken, and his smirk only widens. He slaps your clit with his cock and you moan out loud. “Oh my god-” another slap.

“Do you really want to continue being a brat?” You shake your head and he comes down and begins kissing you, finally sinking into your entrance. “Fuck,” he curses, “you feel so good. So fucking tight for me babygirl.” He groaned, loving the way you clenched around him at his dirty words.

“Your fucking me so good, Joonie.” You run your hands down his back, causing Namjoon to his but he loved it. Knowing he was fucking you so good. Suddenly a familiar sound goes off in the distance. It was your phone and you recognized it as your Minho’s ringtone. You totally forgot Minnie and him were supposed to call you. “Ah wait, wait-” Namjoon only thrust into you harder.

“Just leave it.” As much as you want to just continue letting him fuck you, you can’t. You push at his shoulders to get off.

“Wait, it’s important.” Namjoon finally pulls out of you and this is the first time since he started fucking you that you got a look at his face. He had sweat rolling down and his cheeks were red. He sits back against your headboard watching you get your phone out of your pants. He had his cock in his hand lazily stroking it. You quickly pull on a random t-shirt and answer the phone.

“Hi baby! How are you?” Minnie’s face pops up on the screen. Smiling brightly.

“Hi Mama, I’m great! I wish you were here. I miss you, daddy misses you too.” What? Since when? That’s the last thing you expected to hear about Minho.

“I miss you too. You’ll be back soon, don’t worry.” You did miss her, she was your everything. You walk over to your bed and straddle Namjoon’s thighs. Minnie turns her head and you can almost here Minho ask her something.

“Daddy wants to talk to you.” Before you can say anything Minho has the phone.

“Go watch some TV.” Minho’s attention is on you now. “Can we talk?” You look over at Namjoon and he just nods his head, singling you that it’s fine. But your still turned on and obviously he is too by his hard member. You look back at Minho.

“Now’s not a good time, I have to finish something. I’ll call you in the morning.”

“Aish… How about when I get back I take you and Minnie out and we can talk?” You really just want to get back to Namjoon so you agree. Telling Minho to tell Minnie you love her and he finally hangs up. You toss your phone onto your nightstand and attack Namjoon with kisses.

“You look so good in my shirt, but I would love to see your whole body.” You didn’t even notice you had his shirt on. You quickly discard of it though. “I want you to ride me baby.” You grab his cock and slowly slide down until he’s balls deep. This position feels so much better, he can reach deeper inside you. Namjoon soon gets impatient and begins to quickly thrust up into you.

“Oh my god I’m gonna cum.”

“Yeah baby? You look so pretty taking my cock. I bet you look prettier coming.” His thumb soon finds your clit again and your thrown over the edge. “Good babygirl, cover my cock in your cum.” Namjoon’s pace starts to falter.

“Fuck, where do I cum?”

“Inside, I’m on the pill.” After a couple of more thrust he’s releasing into your spasming pussy. You both sit there for a few minutes before Namjoon pulls his cock out. Allowing you to move beside him.

“Wow.” You both say in unison.

“I’m sorry about interrupting.” He pulls you into his chest and cuddles you.

“It’s fine, gave me an excuse to stay with you longer.” You lean up and plant a kiss on Namjoon’s lips.

“I feel gross, wanna join me in the shower and save some water?” Namjoon’s looks down at your face and smirks. In swift movements he’s picking up you bridal style and carrying to the shower. Let’s just say you didn’t actually save water.

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