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Sukuna doesn’t bother to look at him. His gaze stays glued to you, watching you laugh with Shoko, and a small, proud tilt curls at the corner of his mouth.

"Hard not to," Sukuna rumbles. "She looks way too damn good for a place like this."

"Right?" the stranger says, taking another slow sip of his drink, clearly taking that agreement as an invitation to keep talking. His gaze drags over Sukuna’s massive build, the plain shirt, joggers, and face tattoos, and a cocky smirk appears on his face, like he’s already decided he’s got the upper hand. “Hottest woman in here, hands down. Gorgeous, carries herself well, and that smile… I was just about to head over, buy her a drink, see where the night takes us.”

Sukuna finally turns his head, sizing the man up with calm, almost lazy interest. He’s objectively handsome—tall, impeccably groomed, his shirt tailored tight over a sharp, well-built frame. He looks like the type who’s used to getting whatever he wants and moves through the world with the confidence that says he’s never had to fight for attention.

"Yeah?" Sukuna rasps, amusement flickering in his eyes as the man keeps embarrassing himself.

"I mean, c'mon, look at her," the stranger continues, sipping his drink. "She looks like she’s got real standards. Probably has a great job, drinks the good stuff. She needs a guy who knows how to keep up with her and actually treat her right."

Leaning back against the bar, Sukuna crosses his massive arms over his chest, thoroughly entertained by the sheer audacity of it all. Listening to a complete stranger explain what kind of man his wife needs is absurd enough that he's more than happy to let him keep digging his own grave.

"Yeah, she’s something else alright," Sukuna drawls. "You really think she'd go for you?"

"Oh, I know she would," the man replies, adjusting his cuff with a smug grin. "I've got the job, the car, the looks. Women like her know a good thing when they see it."

A deep, amused huff rumbles out of Sukuna. If this idiot so much as crossed a real line, he’d snap his neck without a second thought. For now, though, watching this polished suit walk himself straight into a wall is way too funny to interrupt.

"You've got it all figured out, huh?"

"Hey, confidence gets results," the stranger says, grinning. “Tell you what—friendly wager.” He reaches into his pocket, pulls out his leather wallet, fishes out a crisp, high-value bill, and slides it across the bar between them. "This says I'll have her number and a kiss before the night's out."

Sukuna tilts his head, a wicked smirk slowly spreading across his face.

"Alright,” he says. “Mind if I go first?"

The stranger gives Sukuna one last once-over, lingering on the intimidating ink on his face, the back of his neck, and the lines wrapping around his wrists and biceps. To him, Sukuna looks like someone who got lost on his way home from the gym, or maybe a prison, though he’s a little too well-kept for that. He lets out a dismissive chuckle, already certain there's no way a woman like you would give a brute in joggers the time of day.

"Go right ahead, man," the guy says, waving him on. "Show me how it's done. No chance in hell you're pulling her."

"Watch," Sukuna says simply, pushing off the bar and walking across the floor, his massive frame cutting right through the crowded room.

Over by the bar, you're mid-sentence when a broad, warm palm gently taps your shoulder. You turn around, and the moment your eyes land on your husband, your whole face lights up.

"Hey," you breathe, the sight of him instantly making your cheeks flush warm. He looks stupid hot tonight, towering over everyone around him.

Sukuna steps in so close that your back presses into the edge of the bar, his body boxing you in until there's nowhere else to go. He pulls his phone from his pocket, unlocks it, and hands it to you, leaning down until his mouth hovers right at your ear.

"Can you look up that Korean place we went to, like, two months ago?" he rumbles, his voice low and soft against your ear, his warm breath sending a shiver racing down your spine. "I can't remember the name."

"Oh, so now you need me?" you tease, but your fingers are already flying over the screen. "Yeah, hang on…"

Across the room, the man at the bar narrows his eyes, watching you take Sukuna's phone without a hint of hesitation and immediately start tapping away. He smirks, swirling the melting ice in his glass, already convinced he's seen this play before. Classic move, he thinks, assuming you're just typing in a fake number to get the giant out of your personal space. He's already rehearsing his opening line for when Sukuna walks away empty-handed.

You hand the phone back to Sukuna, a triumphant little smile tugging at your lips. "Found it."

“Thanks, baby,” Sukuna murmurs, sliding the phone into his pocket.

His palm reaches up, fingers gently catching your chin, and he tilts your face up to his. Leaning down, he presses a soft kiss to your lips, sweet, unhurried, and so deliberate it makes your heart skip a beat. When he pulls back just a breath, his crimson eyes catch yours, gleaming with smug, mischievous heat. A knowing smirk tugs at his mouth as he shifts his weight, about to step away.

Across the bar, the guy rolls his eyes, muttering, “A polite peck? That doesn't count for shit—"

He doesn’t even get to finish the thought. The second Sukuna starts to pull away, your hands fly up, and your fingers twist tight into the front of his shirt. You yank him back down, but even then, you still have to rise onto your toes, stretching just to reach him. Your mouth crashes into his in a kiss that’s deep, intense, and filthy enough to strip away any composure he might have had left.

A low, surprised rumble vibrates against your lips before Sukuna's arm snaps around your waist and his other hand finds the nape of your neck, pulling you flush against his chest. He only deepens the kiss, his thumb digging into your hip while you cling to his shirt just to keep him close.

The stranger hasn’t moved at all, his jaw practically welded to the floor. His eyes are wide, blown out in pure shock, watching as the gorgeous woman he’d been so sure about just yanked a terrifying brute down for a kiss that leaves nothing to the imagination.

"What the fuck..." he mutters, staring in disbelief. "No way he actually pulled that off..."

Toji passes by on his way to the bathroom and hears the words. Without even slowing his pace, he just glances at the man’s stunned expression, lets out a dry, wheezing chuckle, and deadpans over his shoulder, “That's his wife, moron."

By the time your grip loosens and you drop back onto your heels, your breath is ragged, lips flushed and tingling, and you’re staring up at your husband with nothing but shameless, unfiltered adoration.

Sukuna’s thumb drags slowly across your lower lip, tugging it just a little, while a broad, utterly satisfied grin stretches across his face.

“Good girl,” he rasps, lowering his voice, and the praise sends a jolt right between your legs.

"Every fucking time," Shoko groans from the side. "One drink and you're attached to him again."

"You say that like I'm complaining," Sukuna chuckles.

"I fail to see the problem either," you chirp with a shameless grin.

Shoko shakes her head at you, then looks at your husband. "You know, I used to have a lot less patience for you. It's annoying how much harder you've become to stay mad at."

Sukuna just snorts at that.

"Anyway," he says, giving your waist one last squeeze before glancing at the rest of the group. "You girls joining us at the booth?"

"Yeah, yeah, we'll be there in a minute. Now shoo," Yuki says, waving him away. "We've got gossip to catch up on first."

Sukuna just lifts his hands in mock surrender, huffing an amused laugh as he turns on his heel and heads back toward the stranger waiting at the end of the bar.

“Easiest money I've made all week,” he drawls, picking up the bill. He gives the stunned man a small nod and walks toward his friends at the booth.

There were a few seconds of silence. “I thought someone died, kitten.” 

Your ears perked, and you jolted upward, glaring at Sylus. “I was told that I am especially moody during my periods, and that I am annoying to deal with.” You looked away from him. “If you don’t want to deal with my wrath, go away.” 

An amused smile formed across his lips. “How scary. My kitten is going to bite.” His fingers brushed against your cheek. 

You slapped his hand away lightly. “I am warning you, Sylus. You have no idea how moody I can get.” 

“Oh? I have a few ideas.” He stood up and faced you. Then, he placed his one arm beneath your legs and slid his other arm on your back, lifting you off the couch. 

You wanted to smack his chest and throw a tantrum. But you held yourself back. 

“You’re enjoying this, aren’t you?” You huffed, feeling him gently lay you on the bed. “Getting your way, annoying me.” 

“How cruel, kitten.” Sylus frowned dramatically. “Of all the things I enjoy doing for you, you remember nothing but my habit of getting on your nerves?” He chuckled. “Well, watching you get all worked up is a bonus.” 

You went quiet for a moment. 

After a few seconds, you saw Sylus’ eyes wander to your cabinet. You tugged his shirt softly, making him look back at you. “You’re really not going to leave, are you?”

Sylus’ lips curved into a small smile. “I’m not so cruel as to leave my kitten to suffer on her own.”

“What if I try to punch you out of my apartment?” 

“Hm? It’s rather amusing to see a cat try to scare me away.” He tugged the blanket, covering your limbs up to your stomach. 

“I might yell at you,” you said. 

You felt his fingers trace along your hair. “I look forward to hearing all your vocabulary.”

You softly gasped, and your eyes widened. “It would take hours!”

“Excellent. I have plenty of time.” 

You sat up and picked up the pillow beneath your head, and threw it at Sylus. He caught the pillow with one hand, smirking at you. 

“I hate you. Give it back,” you hissed, gritting your teeth. 

“Come get it, kitten.” He playfully raised the pillow farther as he saw you lean your body closer, attempting to grab it away from his hand. 

You crossed your arms. “Fine then. I can sleep without a pillow.”

You leaned back, but before your head could hit the mattress, Sylus swiftly slipped the pillow under it. Before you could speak, Sylus placed a soft kiss on your forehead, immediately shutting you up.

“Stop worrying yourself with such thoughts, kitten. I am quite skilled in making cats behave.”

“I am not a cat.”

“Oh? Right.” He settled beside you, propping himself up against the headboard with one arm while stretching his legs comfortably across the mattress. “You’re much more troublesome.” 

Defeated, you just blinked and stared at him, as if still worried he would be annoyed with your constant mood swings.

His eyes found yours, and his lips formed a small smile. “If you think that your little tantrums will chase me off,” he paused. “I’m afraid you’ll have to try harder, kitten.” 

“What has gotten into you?” you demanded, trying to maintain your anger despite the flutter in your stomach. There was something undeniably thrilling about being manhandled by him, even if the timing was god awful.

Sukuna didn't answer. Instead, his eyes raked over you, dissecting every inch of your simple work dress as if he could already see the flesh beneath. The heat in his gaze alone was enough to make your nipples harden to stiff peaks against the thin fabric of your dress, the sensitive buds aching for his touch already.

Grabbing his helmet, he roughly shoved it onto your head, the sudden darkness and weight disorienting you. Before you could adjust it, he swung his leg over the bike and settled in front of you, the movement forcing you to slide backward as leather met your thin panties- the fabric useless as your pussy lips splayed open against the seat's surface.

“Closer,” Sukuna commanded, reaching back to haul you against his spine. You wrapped around his torso, your nipples immediately dragging against his muscled back through your dress. He peeled out, the sudden acceleration forcing you to plaster yourself against him, your pussy grinding against the seat with each movement.

Every acceleration pressed your swollen clit against the seat, every pothole and turn created friction that had you biting your lip to stifle whimpers. Your pussy grew wetter with each passing minute, thoroughly soaking through your panties until you could feel your slick coating the leather beneath you.. The friction was maddening- too much and not nearly enough.

When Sukuna abruptly veered off the main road, cutting down a narrow alley between two buildings, he killed the engine in the shadows, the sudden silence almost deafening after the constant roar.

You were about to ask why he'd stopped when he reached back and yanked the helmet off your head, tossing it carelessly aside. Before you could speak, he was off the bike, turning to face you with a grin you know all too well…

“Sukuna, what ar-“

He cut you off by grabbing your waist and pulling you forward on the seat until your knees bracketed his hips, the movement causing the seam of your panties to drag along your slippery slit, making you gasp. “Quiet woman. You think I didn’t notice...?” he growled, his fingers biting into your skin through your sundress, hard enough to leave marks that would bloom like bruises by morning- his favorite kind of flowers on your skin.

You blinked up at him genuinely confused and thrown off, “What are you talking about?”

"That little shit who delivered your package this morning before I left to drop off our brat." Sukuna's hand shot out, gripping your jaw and forcing you to meet his gaze. “Saw the way he looked at you- my wife, like he had a chance or some shit.” His thumb dug into the soft flesh of your cheek, making your lips part involuntarily.

Understanding dawned, and despite the dangerous look in Sukuna's eyes, you couldn't help the small laugh that escaped, “That's what this is about? Sukuna, he was just being polite and doing his job- it's called customer service.”

“It's called asking to die,” Sukuna countered, his thumb dragging across your lower lip, pulling it down slightly to expose the wet part of your inner lip. “And his job doesn't include eye fucking my woman…”

Pre cum beaded at the tip of his cock, a dark stain spreading across the front of his jeans as he ground himself against your spread thighs, “You're mine. And I think you need a reminder.”

You should be annoyed… He had just dragged you away from work and embarrassed you in front of a customer, all because of some ridiculous jealousy. But instead, your lips parted further without thought, tongue darting out to taste the salt on his thumb before he pressed down against it. Your pussy clenched around nothing, the empty ache inside you growing unbearable. Your body yearned to be stretched around his veiny cock, to feel every ridge and vein dragging against your gummy walls.

“Here?” you whispered when he removed his digit, glancing nervously at the mouth of the alley where people occasionally walked past, “But… someone might see..." Your voice came out breathier than intended, thighs trembling where they bracketed his hips, the thrill of possibly being seen making your pussy weep even as shame burned your cheeks.

A wolfish grin spread across Sukuna’s face, “Let them watch,” he growled, one hand sliding up your thigh, pushing your dress higher to reveal the wet stain spreading across your lace panties, “Maybe they’ll film it, post it everywhere. 'Innocent flower girl gets raw dogged by a criminal in an alley'- bet it'd go viral.”

His fingers traced the soaked edge of your underwear, “Christ, you're fucking dripping… Your clit's so swollen I can see it throbbing. All this from a motorcycle ride? Or were you this wet in the shop, thinking about getting fucked while serving that old hag??”

The crude words made you whimper, your hips unconsciously tilting upward, seeking more from him- cunt clenching visibly beneath the thin material, the outline of your swollen lips clearly visible through the translucent, soaked fabric. A strand of your arousal stretched between your thighs as he pulled the panties aside, exposing your dripping slit to the cool alley air.

“Sukuna,” you breathed, unable to form more coherent thoughts as he slid one thick finger through your folds, collecting the sticky sweetness that had gathered there.

“Such a mess,” he murmured, bringing his glistening fingers to his mouth and sucking them clean, his eyes never leaving yours “tastes like fucking honey. My sweet little flower, dripping all over herself at the thought of getting fucked in public.”

You heard the clink of his belt, then the rasp of his zipper as he freed his massive cock. The veiny shaft stood proudly against his stomach, the swollen purple head leaking pre cum that rolled down the impressive length in pearly beads.

Your mouth watered at the sight, your gummy walls clenching desperately around nothing. You'd never get used to the sheer size of him or how pretty his cock actually was- the way the thick mushroom head flared out, how the prominent veins snaked up the shaft, how the weight of him felt heavy in your hand or against your tongue.

“Please,” you heard yourself beg, hardly recognizing your own voice, “I need it. Need my husband to-.”

Sukuna's eyes darkened further, his grip on your waist tightening as he positioned himself at your entrance- dragging his swollen tip through your folds, gathering your slick to ease his way... “Need what? Use your words, and say it properly.”

“Your cock,” you gasped, past shame, past pride, “pleasepleaseplease- I’m going to go crazy if you don’t fuck me!”

The smirk that spread across his face was pure fucking sin, “Since you asked so nicely.” Without warning, he slammed into you to the hilt. Oxygen left your lungs in a harsh gasp as you were stretched wide around his girth.

A strangled cry escaped your throat as he bottomed out, the swollen head of his cock kissing your cervix, battering territory no other man would ever explore.

“Nngh- shit,” Sukuna grunted, his jaw clenched as your pussy strangled his cock, “Always so fucking tight. Like your cunt was made for me and only me.”

He pulled back until only the tip remained inside, your walls clinging to his length, reluctant to let him go. Then he slammed forward again causing the motorcycle to rock beneath you.

The sound of footsteps made your blood freeze.

Someone was walking down the alley… Coming closer and closer with each second. You tried to straighten up, to somehow make this look less fucky, but Sukuna's hand firmly pressed you back down against the bike.

"F-fuck- s’kuna-“ you babbled frantically, “Someone- hah- someone’s coming-“

“So are you,” he replied cruelly with a smirk, his fingers finding your clit and rubbing mercilessly. “Maybe we should stop?” His hips slowed fractionally, a cruel tease that had you whimpering pathetically.

“W-wait! Don't!” you cried out, beyond caring who might see now, “Don't you dare- AH!!! Please don't stop!”

A dark chuckle rumbled through his chest, “That's my dirty little wife. Wants the whole world to see how her tight cunt takes her husband's cock.”

A strangled moan escaped you as pleasure overrode your embarrassment. The footsteps slowed, then stopped completely. You could feel eyes on you now, witnessing your defilement... But who the fuck cares? Your husband felt too good, his cock addictive and making your brain turn to mush.

Sukuna didn't slow his pace. If anything, he fucked into you harder, each thrust making the prettiest wet noises as your pussy took him greedily.

Through the haze you were dimly aware of a strangled gasp that wasn't yours or Sukuna's- the unfortunate passerby who'd gotten more than he’d bargained for.

Your husband looked up at the intruder, his lips curling, and without breaking rhythm, he tangled his hand in your hair and forced your head to look in the strangers direction.

“Look,” he commanded, “show him who you belong to.”

You should be horrified, should be begging Sukuna to stop, to at least let you cover yourself. Instead, you found yourself moaning louder, your pussy creaming around his pistoning cock as your tongue lolled out.

His teeth found the sensitive junction where your neck met your shoulder, biting down hard enough to leave marks as he continued to pound into your weeping cunt. The slight pain was the final push you needed, sending you hurtling over the edge into a blinding orgasm- eyes locked with the shocked stranger who’s eyes were fixed on your bouncing tits and where Sukuna’s cock continued to disappear into your ruined hole..

Your walls clamped down on his cock milking him as your vision whites out- making a mess around him, soaking the seat beneath you, your thighs, his jeans- everything within reach of your squirting cunt.

You could feel your face burned with humiliation, tears of pleasure and shame mingling at the corners of your eyes. The stranger -a businessman with a hard on- stared for one frozen moment longer before hastily turning and practically running away.

“That's right, run,” Sukuna called after him, laughing darkly, “she’s mine.”

Sukuna panted, his thrusts becoming uneven as he chased his release, “Gonna paint your cervix white, fill you up nicely. WHo knows, maybe you'll get lucky and find yourself carrying my brat again."

"Yes," you sobbed, "GOD YES!!!"

With a low, almost pained guttural groan, Sukuna buried himself as deep as possible, his cock pulsing as he emptied himself inside you. You could feel each hot spurt painting your inner walls, the warmth of his seed bathing your cervix just as he promised.

For a few minutes, neither of you moved, both catching your breath as you came down from your highs. Sukuna remained buried inside you, savoring the warmth, his cock giving occasional twitches as your walls continued to flutter around him.

When he finally pulled out, his cum immediately started dripping from your used hole, mixing with your cream in a sticky mess down your thighs and onto his once clean bike.

“Fuck, that's pretty,” he murmured, eyes fixed on the mess between your legs, watching as his seed dripped from your ravaged entrance onto his leather seat. Your pussy lips remained parted and swollen, unable to close properly after the thorough attention they'd received from their favorite cock.

Despite the roughness of moments before, his touch turned gentle as he gathered you against his chest. One large hand cradled the back of your head, pressing your face into the crook of his neck where you could breathe in his scent that always made you feel safe, no matter how rough he'd just been.

“You alright?” he murmured against your hair, his voice softer than anyone else ever got to hear it.

“Mmm,” was all you could manage, still floating in post orgasmic bliss. You felt him chuckle before he carefully rearranged your dress.

“I'm not apologizing for being jealous,but I'll make it up to you. Run you a bath, cook you dinner." His smirk returned, “Then ruin you all over again in our bed.”

The heavy glass doors of the 24-hour student lounge hissed shut behind him. Satoru was still vibrating. It was 11:45 pm, and the chlorine was stinging his eyes; his skin still radiated from the post-practice heat that usually kept him awake until dawn. His practice bag felt like it was filled with barbells, the strap digging into his hoodie, but he didn't head for the elevators. He didn't head for the room where the ceiling fan would just spin in circles, matching the frantic pace of his thoughts. Instead, he turned left. Toward the back corner.

He’d been doing this for exactly five weeks. It was a ritual he hadn't admitted to anyone, not even his teammates, who thought he was just a "late-night grinder." He rounded the corner of the oversized, peeling leather sofas, and there you were.

The lamp on your small circular table was the only thing cutting through the dim, blue-tinted shadows of the lounge. You looked exactly the same as you had on Wednesday: headphones clamped over your ears, a mess of lab data across the table, and that one stray lock of hair that kept falling over your face every time you leaned in closer to your laptop.

Satoru didn’t say anything. He never did.

He dropped into a plush armchair three tables away, close enough to feel the gravity of your focus, far enough that he didn't look like he was waiting for you. He pulled his own hoodie over his head, leaning his temple against the cold white brick wall.

The rest of the world felt loud. His coach’s voice, the ticking of the scoreboard, and the pressure of the upcoming season all usually felt like white noise in his brain that he couldn't turn off. But here, watching the steady, rhythmic way you tapped your pen against your chin while you calculated something on your screen, the noise started to fade. He closed his eyes for a second, letting the hum of the vending machine and the soft, frantic click-clack of your typing wash over him. He wasn't here to study. He was just here to finally, for the first time all day, catch his breath and have his quiet.

The blue-tinted shadows of the lounge haven't shifted, but the air feels different tonight.

It’s 12:20 AM. Usually, by now, you’re in a rhythm, that steady, focused hum where the rest of the world disappears into your laptop. But tonight, you’re leaning back in that creaky wooden chair, rubbing the bridge of your nose with a tired sigh.

He’s watching from his usual spot, the dark fabric of his hoodie pulled low. He notices the way your shoulders are hunched, tighter than they were a couple of days ago. He notices your empty plastic bottle sitting sideways on the table, bone-dry and forgotten. He’s exhausted, his own muscles aching from three hours in the pool, but seeing you look that drained pulls at something in his chest. It’s that strange, hidden yearning he’s been carrying, the one where he feels like he knows you just by the way you hold your breath when you’re frustrated. He doesn't want to be bold. He doesn't want to break the quiet bubble you’ve both existed in for weeks. But he can’t just sit there and watch you hit a wall. He stands up, the movement slow and heavy.

He walks toward the vending machine, the linoleum cold beneath his shoes. He doesn't look at his phone. He doesn't look at the exit. He buys two of the things he’s seen you reach for before, a specific brand of peach tea and a small pack of crackers. He walks back, but he doesn't go to his chair. He takes the long way around, passing your table. He doesn't stop, and he doesn't look you in the eye. He just reaches out, his hand damp and smelling faintly of chlorine, and slides the tea and the snack onto the corner of your desk, right next to your light blue pencil case.

"You've been staring at the same line on your spreadsheet for twenty minutes," he says, his voice low and a little rough from the cold air outside, he thinks, totally not because he’s nervous. "You’re going to go cross-eyed if you don't take a break."

He doesn't wait for an answer. He keeps walking, heading toward the trash can to throw away his own empty bottle, his heart doing a weird, frantic kick-flip against his ribs. He’s finally said something. He’s finally let you know that, in this big lounge, you aren't just a ghost of a stranger to him.

The peach tea is cold through the plastic bottle when your fingers finally brush against it. You don't look up right away. You can’t. Your heart is hammering against your ribs so hard you’re sure he could hear it when he’s walking away. You keep your eyes fixed on the line of data that has been mocking you since midnight, but the numbers are all a blur now. All you can focus on is the fading scent of chlorine and the low, gravelly vibration of his voice still echoing in the quiet of the lounge.

​You have been staring at the same line of data for twenty minutes. He has been counting.

You finally let your gaze drift toward the exit, catching only the broad set of his shoulders and the dark hem of his hoodie as he disappears into the hallway. You sink back into your chair, the cool weight of the tea in your hand acting as an anchor.

He thinks you’re the one who hasn't noticed. He thinks he’s been a shadow in the corner, just another exhausted body taking up space in the blue-hour haze of the basement. But you know the exact sound of his shoes on the linoleum. You know that he arrives forty minutes after the athletics center closes. You know that he prefers the armchair by the window, and that he always sits with his head tilted back, eyes closed, as if he’s trying to memorize the silence of the room.

You’ve been noticing from a distance, too. In the gaps between your equations, you’ve found yourself wondering if his hair is always that messy and white or if it’s just the way the water leaves it. You’ve noticed the way he looks when he thinks no one is watching, less like a star athlete and more like someone who carries the weight of the whole world on his back. You’ve spent weeks pretending to be buried in your work just so you had an excuse to stay in the same room as a stranger you’ve never even shared a "hello" with.

Well, not exactly a stranger. You know exactly who he is, not personally though.

But it’s impossible not to know who he is. His face is everywhere; it’s on the giant vinyl banners hanging from the lamp posts on the quad, on the digital screens in the dining hall announcing "Athlete of the Month,' and splashed across the university’s swimming Instagram after every meet. You’ve walked past his image a thousand times, usually frozen in a mid-stroke action shot, looking like a machine designed specifically to cut through water. To the rest of the campus, he’s a set of records and a broad-shouldered hero in a varsity hoodie. He’s the guy people whisper about when he walks through the quad, the "local celebrity" whose name is practically synonymous with the school’s winning streak.

But those versions of Gojo Satoru, the ones plastered on the brick walls of the athletic wing, don't look anything like the boy who sits three tables away from you in the middle of the night. The campus knows the champion, but you’re the only one who knows the tired slant of his shoulders when the adrenaline finally wears off. You know the way he tries to hide his yawns behind the collar of his hoodie and how he looks almost vulnerable when he’s just staring out the window at the empty streetlights or at his notebooks. You’ve seen the version of him that isn't for the cameras or the swimming pool; the quiet, restless version that can't seem to find peace anywhere else but this student lounge. It’s a strange, heavy secret to keep. Every time you pass one of his posters, you feel a sharp tug of something that feels like guilt, or maybe just a quiet kind of possessiveness. Everyone else is looking at the banner, but you’re the only one who knows what he looks like when he thinks he’s invisible.

You had spent months convinced that this was a one-way street. You were just another student in the crowd, one more person who knew his face from the banners and his name from the school newspaper, while he was the sun that the rest of the campus orbited around. You thought you only knew of him; it had never once occurred to you that he might actually know of you, too. Until now.

You look down at the crackers. They’re the ones you always get when you’ve had a long day, the salty ones that feel like a small reward for a finished project. He didn't just see you. He saw you.

A small, shaky breath escapes your lips. You reach out, pulling the tea closer to your laptop. 

The air in the lounge feels charged tonight, the silence no longer empty but heavy with the weight of what happened two nights ago. You’re sitting in your usual spot, your laptop open, but your focus is anywhere but the lines of data on your screen. You’re waiting for the sound of the heavy glass doors. You’re waiting for the faint, clinical scent of chlorine to cut through the smell of the basement.

When he finally walks in, he looks even more drained than usual. His hair is still damp, sticking to his forehead in clumps, and his varsity zip-up is zipped all the way up as if he can’t quite shake the chill of the pool. He heads for his armchair, his movements slow and mechanical, but you notice the way his eyes flick toward your table for a split second before he sits down.

He thinks the environment is still the same. He thinks he’s still the only one watching.

You wait ten minutes. Or the amount of time it takes to convince yourself that you won’t pass out after doing this. You wait until he’s leaned his head back against the leather, his eyes closed in that restless way of his. Then, you stand up. Your heart is a frantic beat in your throat as you walk toward the vending machine. You don't buy a peach tea. You buy the vanilla cookie latte, a bottled coffee that contains way too much sugar, the one that he always has tucked in the side pocket of his gym bag, the one you've seen him nursing at 1:00 AM more times than you can count. You walk back, your sneakers squeaking softly on the floor. You don't go to your table. You stop right beside his chair.

He opens his eyes, looking startled, his gaze jumping from your face to the bottle in your hand. Up close, without the distance of three tables between you, he looks less like a campus icon and more like a boy who hasn't had a good night's sleep in years. You don't say a word. You just set the espresso on the flat arm of his chair.

“You seem tired,” you mumbled, “Fair is fair.” The corner of his mouth twitches, a ghost of a smile that you’ve never seen on any of his posters. He reaches out, his fingers brushing against yours for a fraction of a second as he steadies the bottle.

"Thanks," he whispers, his voice a low, honeyed vibration that makes your toes curl.

"Don't go cross-eyed looking out the window," you retort softly, echoing his own words back to him. As you walk back to your space, you can feel his gaze on your back, steady, warm, and no longer hidden. You’re halfway back to your table when you realize that fair is fair isn't just about the snacks, it’s about the fact that you’re both still playing a game with no names. Well, an utterance of his name coming from his lips and not from the posters around campus. You stop, your hand hovering over the back of your chair, and you turn back around.

He’s still looking at the bottled latte gripped in his hand, looking like he’s trying to memorize the packaging. You say your name out loud, the words feeling surprisingly steady despite the way your pulse is racing. He looks up, and for the first time, he doesn't look like he's trying to hide. He shifts in the oversized armchair, the heavy fabric of his zip-up rustling. He looks at you with a focused, soulful intensity that makes the rest of the room feel like it's fading to black.

"Gojo Satoru," he says softly. He doesn’t add ‘the swimmer’ or ‘the guy from the banners.’ He says it like it’s a secret he’s finally allowed to share.

"I know," you admit, a little bit of a tease entering your voice to hide your nerves. "Your face is six feet tall in the Student Union, Satoru. Hard to miss."

He huffs a small, self-deprecating laugh and shakes his head, looking down at the floor for a second. "Yeah, well. That guy looks a lot more put-together than I feel at one in the morning." He looks back up at you, his eyes searching yours. "I didn't think you'd know. I figured you were too busy solving the world's problems on that laptop to notice a guy sitting in the dark."

"I noticed," you say, and the honesty of it hangs in the air between you, heavy and sweet.

"Good," he replies, and the way he says it, so simple, so sure.

You finally sit down.

The next time you’re at the lounge, it feels different. The air on campus is heavy with the kind of rowdy, restless energy that only hits on a weekend when the weather is starting to turn cold and when the stress is too much to ignore. When you get to the 24-hour lounge, your heart sinks. A group from the architecture department has taken over the central tables, accompanied by massive foam boards and spray adhesive, laughing loudly over the sound of a portable speaker. 

You’re sitting in a cramped chair near the vending machines, trying to focus on your lab report assignment, when the glass doors hiss open. Satoru walks in, and he looks exhausted. There’s a faint bruise-like shadow under his eyes, and he’s moving with a stiff, heavy gait that tells you he spent the last four hours doing nothing but power laps. He stops at the threshold, his shoulders slumping as he takes in the chaos and the noise. He looks for his armchair, but it’s currently being used as a coat rack for three different coats. He looks lost. And for the first time, he doesn't look like the untouchable athlete from the posters; he just looks like a boy who needs to sit down in the dark. His eyes find yours across the room. He doesn't move, but there’s a silent, weary question in his gaze. What should we do?

You think about your room. Your roommate's side of the closet–for the first time ever–is actually shut, her bed is perfectly made and empty, and the only sound in the dorm right now is the quiet hum of your desk fan. You’d been so unlucky with the random roommate assignment that your dorm had become a place you only went to sleep at. You think of your roommate, the constant, high-pitched chatter into her phone, the smell of cheap perfume, the endless parade of people in and out of your space at all hours. You’d spent the semester fleeing the noise, seeking out the cold silence of the 24-hour lounge just to hear yourself think.

You find a bitter irony in the way this night is unfolding. You’ve spent the entire semester fleeing to this basement to escape your roommate. Now, your usually silent haven has been ambushed by students who are exactly like her, their loud laughter and buzzing energy turning your sanctuary into the very thing you were running from. And your dorm, which was usually filled with the buzzing energy of your roommate, was filled with cold silence.

But as you look at the disruption and then back at Satoru standing by the door, a strange thought takes root. Maybe this isn't just bad luck. Maybe this is fate, a subtle, calculated push guiding you toward something. The noise of the lounge is forcing you to stop hiding behind your laptop and actually talk to him. You stand up, beginning to pack your laptop into your bag.

You walk over to him, stopping just close enough to catch that familiar scent of chlorine and cold air. "My roommate's gone for the weekend," you say, your voice barely a whisper beneath the noise of the architecture students. "It’s actually quiet. And the chairs are comfier."

Satoru looks at you, his eyes widening slightly. He’s spent weeks imagining your life from a distance, and now you’re just letting him in it. 

"You sure?" he asks, his voice low and cautious, as if he's afraid he might break the spell. "I don't want to-I don't want to intrude on your space."

"Satoru," you say, using his name, "you've been intruding on my thoughts for the last few weeks. A dorm room isn't going to make it any worse."

A slow, genuine smile spreads across his face- the first real one you've ever seen. "Okay," he breathes. "Lead the way."

As you walk down the narrow dorm hallway together, the silence between you is heavy and electric. When you finally turn the key and open the door, the room is bathed in the soft, warm glow of the string lights you left on. He steps inside, and he’s suddenly very aware of how large he is in such a small, personal space. He sees the you he couldn't see in the lounge: the stack of rom-com novels on your nightstand, the polaroids of your friends from home, and the absolute mess of biology textbooks on your desk.

"It’s perfect," he says softly, still standing by the door.

"The floor is the best spot," you say, kicking a couple of pillows toward the rug. "More room to spread out."

He drops his heavy gym bag and sinks onto the floor beside you. For the first time, there are no tables between you. Just the two of you in the quietest room on campus.

​You’ve been working for maybe an hour. The room is cozy, the yellow light of your lamp making everything feel soft and hazy. You’re deep into your textbook, explaining the life cycle of extremophile bacteria to him, but his responses have started to get shorter.

"Satoru?" you whisper.

He’s leaning against the base of your bed, his long legs stretched out across the rug. His head has dropped back against the mattress, his eyes closed. His breathing has changed; it’s deep, steady, and for the first time since you met him, the restless tension in his jaw is completely gone.

You stop talking. You just watch him. He’s the most famous person on this campus, a guy who is constantly surrounded by teammates, coaches, fans, and cameras. You realize then that he doesn’t just come to the lounge to see you. He comes because the world is too loud sometimes, and somehow, in your presence, it finally goes quiet. He’s fallen asleep in a room he’s been in for sixty minutes, with a person he’s only just learned the name of. And as you reach over to grab a spare blanket to tuck around his shoulders, you realize that maybe he isn't just comfortable with you. He feels safe.

The shift back to consciousness is slow, a heavy and warm fog that Satoru hasn't felt in years. Usually, he wakes up to the harsh, pre-dawn glare of his phone alarm or the echoing shout of his roommate. But this is different. The air is still, filtered through the low, rhythmic purr of a desk fan that seems to pull the tension right out of his bones. He opens his eyes, and for a confused second, he doesn't recognize the ceiling. Then, the scent hits him, not the sharp bite of the remnants of chlorine, but something soft, like old books and a faint hint of vanilla.

He’s on your floor.

He shifts slightly, his muscles feeling a rare, profound looseness. He looks over at the desk and sees you. You’ve fallen asleep in your chair, your head resting on your arms, the screen of your laptop still glowing faintly against your cheek. You look small like this, tucked away in your own sanctuary, and a sudden, sharp ache of protectiveness hits him so hard it makes his breath hitch.

He checks his phone: 3:14 AM. He has to go. He needs to get back to his side of campus to grab his gear and his suit before the 6:00 am practice session, but the thought of opening that door and stepping back into his world feels like a physical weight. He doesn't want the noise. He doesn't want the banners or the expectations. He wants quiet. He just wants to stay on this rug in the amber light of your desk lamp and listen to you breathe.

He realizes then, in the absolute quiet of your room, that he hadn’t just been watching you for the last few weeks. He’d been searching for you. He’d been looking for a place where he could finally stop being The Campus Swimmer and just be a person who was allowed to be tired. He stands up, moving with a fluid, liquid silence, careful not to let his joints pop or the floorboards groan. He looks at your roommate’s empty bed, the silent proof of the luck that brought him here, and feels a surge of gratitude for the fate that turned the lounge into a circus tonight.

He spots a stray stack of pink Post-it notes on your desk. He picks up your pen, the plastic still warm from your hand, and feels a surge of nerves that he hasn't felt since his first national championship. He scribbles the note, his handwriting more jagged than usual because his hands are shaking just a little. He sets it on your keyboard, right where you'll see it the second you wake up. He folds the blanket you draped over him, then he lingers for one more heartbeat, his gaze memorizing the way the shadows fall across your room, before he slips out into the hallway.

The door clicks shut with a soft, final thud, and as he walks down the dark corridor, he feels like he’s leaving a part of himself behind in that room. He’s already counting the minutes until he can come back and reclaim it.

You blink against the stiffness in your neck, realizing you never actually made it to your bed. You’ve been asleep in your desk chair, your cheek pressed against the cold wood of your desk. For a second, the room feels exactly as it always does, tucked away from the rest of the campus.

Then, you smell it.

​It’s faint, but it’s there. A clean, sharp scent of chlorine mixed with a hint of fresh laundry. Your head snaps up, eyes darting to the rug by your bed. It’s empty. The cushions are still slightly indented where a heavy weight had been resting, and the spare quilt you’d draped over his shoulders is gone from the floor. You look over to see it folded, not perfectly, but with a deliberate, clumsy effort, and placed at the foot of your bed.

The silence of the room suddenly feels heavy, almost making you miss the pitch of your roommate’s voice (almost). Now the room was vibrating with the ghost of his presence, starting to miss how he occupied a third of your room. You rub your face, wondering if your mind finally snapped from the stress of your essay and created a hallucination of the university’s star swimmer sleeping on your floor.

​Then, you look down at your laptop.

​There, stuck right over the trackpad so you couldn't possibly miss it, is a small, square pink Post-it. It looks like it was written in a hurry, the ink pressing deep into the paper.

I haven't slept like that in years. I didn't want to wake you, but I have 6:00 AM swim practice. Your room is exactly how I pictured it. So you. Thanks for letting me stay. See you at the lounge? Got you with a peach tea -Satoru

You pick up the note, your thumb tracing the way he looped the "O" in his name. A strange, fluttery heat rises in your chest, settling right behind your ribs. You thought you were the only one who felt the gravity of the night, the only one who felt like the air in this room had changed the moment he stepped inside. But he had felt it too. He hadn't just fallen asleep; he had found a version of peace and quiet he couldn't find anywhere else. You look at the empty space on the rug and then back at the note. You realize that for the last few weeks, you’ve been looking at his face on banners and screens, thinking of him as someone who belonged to the public. But this note? This messy, 3:00 AM confession? This belongs only to you.

You don't throw the note away. You don't even put it on your corkboard. You open your most difficult textbook, the one you carry every day, and tuck the square deep inside the pages, right next to the section about extremophile bacteria you were trying to explain to him. You’ve spent your whole life trying to be the student who doesn't get noticed. But as you look at the folded blanket and the scent he left behind, you realize you don't want to be unknown anymore. Not if it means Satoru is the one who’s trying to get to know you.

The biology open lab is a maze of glass beakers, heavy microscopes, and that sharp, sterile scent of rubbing alcohol. You’re tucked into a back row, focused on a slide under the lens, trying to ignore the way the air conditioning seems to be blowing directly onto your neck. The open lab is bustling with the usual afternoon energy that midterms bring, and you’re so deep in the zone that the sounds of the heavy swinging doors and the chatter of students are just background static.

Then, you hear a familiar laugh.

You look up, blinking against the strain of the microscope, and see a group of guys by the front supply cabinets. They’re tall, broad-shouldered, and wearing matching student athlete hoodies with their names on the back. Satoru is in the center of them, leaning against a lab bench while he waits for one of his teammates, a guy from the medley relay who’s apparently a biology major, to pack up his equipment.

He’s just there as a visitor, a casual distraction for his friend, but his eyes are doing that restless sweep of the room. He looks bored, his hands shoved deep into his pockets, until his gaze hits your row. The change is instantaneous. He stops mid-sentence, his teammate's joke left hanging in the air. He doesn't wait for his friend. He just starts walking, his heavy sneakers thudding softly on the linoleum. When he reaches your station, he doesn't say "hello." He just looks at your hands, which are currently fumbling with the focus knob of the microscope because your fingers are numb from the cold.

"It’s like a refrigerator in here," he says, his voice a low, private vibration that seems to instantly quiet the chaos of the room. "How are you supposed to see anything when you're shaking?"

"It's the biology lab, Satoru. The samples have to stay—"

"I don't care about the samples," he interrupts softly. He shucks off his team hoodie in one fluid motion. It’s heavy, ‘Gojo Satoru’ stitched in bold white letters across the back, and before you can protest, he’s shoving it in your arms. The heat from his body is still trapped in the fabric, and for a second, you’re overwhelmed by the scent of him, that clean, cold-water freshness and a hint of something like cedar.

​You try to pull the hood over your head, but as you move, you accidentally knock your Biology textbook. It’s propped open on the table, used as a makeshift stand for your lab manual. As the pages flutter, a small, square pink Post-it note slips out from the crease of the binding.

It lands face-up on the black lab table, right between the two of you.

I haven't slept like that in years-

The air in the lab suddenly feels very thin. Satoru’s gaze drops to the note. He freezes, his hand still hovering near your arms. You scramble to reach for it, your heart hammering against your ribs, but his fingers are quicker. He doesn't pick it up; he just rests his fingertips on the edge of the paper, pinning it against the table. He looks from the note to you, and then to the textbook. He realizes then that you’ve been carrying it with you. You’ve been keeping his 3:00 am confession tucked inside the very book you’re studying.

"You kept it," he breathes. Up close, under the harsh fluorescent lights of the biology lab, he looks completely floored. A slow, lopsided smile spreads across his face, one that feels entirely meant for you and no one else.

"I-I just didn't want to lose it," you mutter, the heat in your face probably visible from across the room.

"Satoru! Let's go, man!" his teammate calls out from the front of the lab, looking confused as to why his friend is hovering over a random student in the back row. Satoru doesn't look back at them. He reaches out and gives the sleeve of the hoodie, the one that’s way too long for your arm, a gentle, lingering squeeze.

"Stay warm," he says, his voice a soulful, quiet promise. "I'll see you at the lounge next time. I want to see what else you're keeping in that book." As he walks away to join his friends, you sink into the warmth of the hoodie. His hoodie. You look down at the note and then think about the fact that the back of the hoodie has his name printed on it. You’ve spent the whole year trying to stay invisible, but as the girls at the next table start whispering and pointing at the hoodie on your shoulders, you realize that secret is officially out.

​The night air is crisp, but you don't feel the chill. You’re too aware of the weight of the fabric hanging off your frame and the way the sleeves swallow your hands. As you walk toward the 24-hour lounge, you feel like a walking neon sign. Every person you pass on the quad seems to glance at the bold white letters across your back—Gojo Satoru—and then at you, trying to piece together the math of how the quiet student from the science wing ended up in the star swimmer’s jacket.

When the glass doors hiss open, the lounge is back to its usual cold blue, silent state: quiet, dim, and smelling of floor wax. Satoru is already there. He isn't in his usual armchair; he’s sitting at your table. He has two peach teas waiting, the fluorescent light shining on the pink plastic packaging. When he hears your footsteps, he looks up, and the look that crosses his face is something you’ll want to bottle up and keep forever. It’s a mix of relief and pride so sharp it’s almost visible.

"Hey," he says, his voice dropping into that private, soulful register.

"Hey," you reply, feeling your face warm up. You immediately reach for the hem of the hoodie, your fingers fumbling with the fabric. "Here. I don’t want to keep it too long and have people think I- you know."

You pull the heavy hoodie off and hold it out to him, folding it neatly. Satoru doesn't reach for it. He doesn't even move his hands from his peach tea bottle. He just leans back, his eyes tracking the movement of your hands and then settling on your face.

"You don’t like it?" he asks, a playful, lazy tilt to his head.

"N-No, it’s not that. I like it, of course. I mean- like I appreciate it. It smelled like- well, like you. And pool chemicals.​

"I liked that it smelled like me," he murmurs, and the blunt honesty of it makes your heart do a slow, heavy roll. He looks at the folded hoodie in your hands and then back at you. "Put it back on."

"’ Toru, I can't. It has your name on it. People in the biology lab were already whispering, and I’m pretty sure your teammates think I stole it."

"I don't care what my teammate thinks, or anyone for that matter. And I don't care about the whispering." He reaches out, not for the hoodie, but for your wrist, his fingers warm and steady against your skin. He pulls your hand and the hoodie back toward you. "I’ve spent weeks watching you shiver in this basement because you’re too stubborn to leave your work. I think I like seeing my name on you a lot more than I like seeing it on me."

"But it's yours," you protest weakly, though your grip on the fabric is already loosening.

"It’s just a hoodie," he says, his gaze turning intense. "But when you wear it, it feels like the first time since I met you that I don't have to worry about whether or not you’re warm. I’ll know you're warm, and I’ll know you're okay." He lets go of your wrist and gestures vaguely to the tea. "Keep it. At least for tonight. If you give it back now, I’ll just have to find another excuse to come find you in the lab tomorrow."

You look at him, really look at him, and realize he isn't joking. This isn't just about a hoodie. It’s about the fact that he’s done with looking at you while separated by the lounge tables. He wants the world to know you’re the one bringing him peace, calm, and quiet. You slowly pull the hoodie back over your shoulders. The warmth returns instantly, and so does that feeling of being safe.

"Fine," you whisper, sitting down across from him. "But if I get stopped by the athletics department for theft, I'm giving them your number."

Satoru grins, a wide, beautiful expression that lights up his whole face. "Good. I've been waiting for you to ask for it anyway."

​It’s 11:45 PM on a Friday. Your roommate is out, likely at that dive bar near the stadium where the music is loud enough to rattle the windows, having a night out before she returns to her hometown again for the weekend. You’re sitting on the floor of your dorm, surrounded by a chaotic spread of laminated anatomy charts and a massive, annotated Ecology textbook that feels heavy enough to be a weapon. Satoru is sitting across from you, but he isn’t looking at videos of past swim meets. He’s got a notebook full of terrifying-looking equations, physics.

"If the torque at the shoulder is…" he mutters, his voice low and strained as he stares at his own handwriting, "then why is my displacement value coming out negative? I’m swimming forward, not backward.”

You don't even look up from your diagram of the nervous system. "Because you probably forgot to set your reference frame at the starting block, ‘Toru. You’re calculating against the water resistance, not the pool wall." 

He pauses, the scratch of his pencil stopping mid-air. He looks at his notebook, then at you. "How do you know that? You’re currently memorizing the cranial nerves of a shark."

"It’s basic mechanics," you say, finally looking up. "And I’ve seen you do it a thousand times. Every time you dive, you’re literally a physics problem in motion. You lean too far into the y-axis on your entry." 

Satoru drops his pencil and just stares at you. There’s a flicker of realization in his eyes, the fact that while the rest of the school is watching him for the win, you’ve been unintentionally analyzing the literal physics of his body ever since he started inviting you to his meets.

"You’re a nerd," he says, but his voice is soft, and the lopsided smile on his face makes it sound like a compliment. 

"And you're a jock who's failing at triangles," you retort, reaching over to grab his notebook. "Move over. Let me see the diagram." 

He shifts, sliding across the rug until his shoulder is pressed firmly against yours. The heat from his body is immediate, a sharp contrast to the drafty dorm air. He’s so much larger than you that he practically takes over your workspace, but you don’t pull away. You spend the next twenty minutes scribbling in the margins of his physics notebook, explaining vectors in the context of a butterfly stroke. He stays quiet, watching your hand move across the paper. He isn't even looking at the math anymore; he’s looking at the way you focus, the way your brow furrows when you’re trying to simplify a concept for him.

"You're better at my major than I am," he whispers.

"I'm better at everything than you are," you joke, handing the notebook back.

"Except sleep," he counters, nudging your shoulder with his. "I'm a pro at that. Especially here." He leans his head back against the side of your bed, his eyes drifting shut for a second. The room is silent except for the hum of your desk fan and the distant, muffled sound of a car siren. You realize that this, this messy, quiet overlap of biology, physics, and swim is exactly why you stopped going to the lounge. You didn't need the basement for the quiet; you just needed a place where the two of you could exist. 

It’s late on a Thursday, the night before his biggest meet of the season. The air in your dorm is thick with the usual scent of peach tea and the quiet scratch of pens. You’re hunched over your lab manual, trying to memorize the pathways of the circulatory system, while Satoru is sprawled out on your rug, ostensibly staring at a physics chapter on fluid dynamics.

But he hasn’t turned a page in twenty minutes. He’s restless. You can feel the nervous energy radiating off him, the way his foot keeps tapping a rhythmic beat against the floorboards, the way he keeps adjusting the weight of his shoulders. Usually, this is the part of the night where he’d be half-asleep, but the Championship weight is finally catching up to him.

"You’re going to burn a hole in that page if you keep staring at it," you murmur, not looking up from your diagrams.

Satoru sighs, a heavy, jagged sound, and closes the textbook with a definitive thud. He sits up, resting his elbows on his knees, and looks at you. The amber light of your desk lamp catches the sharp lines of his face, making him look older, more tired.

"The finals are tomorrow," he says. His voice is a little rougher than usual.

"I know, Satoru. It’s literally on every digital sign in the dining hall and campus. 'Support our stars, “ you tease, though your heart gives a small, sympathetic squeeze.

"Yeah, well." He rubs the back of his neck, looking down at his hands, the hands that the entire university expects to touch the wall first tomorrow. "I know you've been coming to the last few." He shifts, crawling forward a few inches on the rug until he’s closer to your chair. " And I know you have that big exam coming up. And I know you hate the noise at the natatorium… It’s the opposite of everything you like."

He pauses, picking at a loose thread on the rug, looking uncharacteristically shy.

"But it's the final one," he says softly. "And honestly? The quiet in here is the only thing keeping my head straight this week. If you’re there- even if you’re just in the back row with your nose in a textbook as always. I think I’ll still breathe a lot better."

He looks up at you then, and you don't see the star swimmer from the screens and posters. You see the boy who crashes on your floor because he’s too tired to be famous. He isn't asking as a celebrity, he’s asking as the person who’s become a permanent fixture in your life over the last few months. "You don't have to stay for the whole thing," he adds quickly, as if he's afraid he's asking for too much. "Just the 200m. That's all."

You look at him and realize that your random roommate who drove you out of your room and into that lounge was the best thing that ever happened to you.

"I'll be there, Satoru," you say, reaching down to nudge his hand with yours. "Top row. Right side. I’ve already got the chapter on respiratory systems bookmarked for the heat intervals, and it’s long enough for me to stay the whole time."

The relief that washes over his face is more meaningful than any trophy he’s won all year. He lets out a long breath, his shoulders finally dropping from his ears. "Top row," he repeats, a small, genuine smile breaking through the nerves. "I'll look for the student who's definitely not cheering."

"Don't count on it," you retort, but you're already thinking about which of his hoodies he’s been lending you're going to wear to keep the loud world at bay.

​The atmosphere inside the Aquatics Center is the literal physical manifestation of everything you usually try to avoid. It’s a sensory assault, the air is a humid, suffocating blanket of chlorine and body heat, and the sound is a deafening roar of whistles and frantic splashing that echoes off the tile walls like a hammer. You’re exactly where you promised you’d be, the very top row of the bleachers, tucked into the far right corner where the shadows are deepest. You have your Biology textbook propped open on your knees, a deliberate shield against the world, but you aren't reading a single word about the respiratory system.

Your eyes are fixed on the starting blocks. When the announcer calls for the 200m freestyle, the university section of the crowd goes absolutely feral. You see him step up, his tall frame cutting through the humid haze. He looks like a machine, focused, rhythmic, and entirely untouchable. His shoulders are impossibly broad, a thick shelf of muscle that tapers down into a narrow waist. He does the usual routine, adjusting his goggles, shaking out his arms. Under the harsh, clinical glare of the stadium lights, every cord of muscle in his back ripples like a topographical map. His skin is slick with a fine mist of water and sweat, catching the light and highlighting the rhythmic rise and fall of his chest. He looks powerful, intimidating, and perfectly symmetrical.

But then, just as the official calls for silence, he does that thing again. He doesn't look at the scoreboard or his coach. He tilts his head back, his gaze sweeping the very highest, darkest corner of the arena. You don't move. You don't wave. You just sit there in one of the oversized hoodies he gave you, your heart hammering a frantic rhythm against your ribs. He finds you. Even through the fog of the pool and the distance of a hundred feet, you see the subtle, barely-there shift in his jaw. A grounding breath. He isn't looking for a fan, he’s looking for his quiet. 

You watch him, you don't look at your book. You stand up. You don't scream like the people around you as the buzzer goes off, but you’re leaning forward, your knuckles white as you grip the metal railing. And then, he dives.

He hits the water with the kind of explosive power that makes the pool look like it’s shattering. You stay standing, watching the way his muscles bunch and release with every stroke. You realize then that everyone else is looking at the speed, but you're the only one who knows the weight of the body that’s doing the work.

When he touches the wall first, the building shakes.

The "Star Swimmer" has done it again. You wait for the chaos to die down, expecting him to be swallowed up by the team and the cameras. But ten minutes later, you see a familiar, damp head of white hair moving through the crowd at the base of the bleachers. He’s ignored the reporters, still dripping wet in his team hoodie, heading straight for the stairs. He climbs the metal steps with a heavy, exhausted gait until he’s standing at the very top row, right in front of your seat. He’s breathless, his skin smelling of cold pool water, his chest still heaving from the effort.

"You’re here," he says, his voice a low, raspy vibration that cuts through the lingering noise of the arena.

"I told you I'd be here," you say, trying to stay casual, though your hands are shaking. "You did the entry exactly like the diagram. Your y-axis was perfect." Satoru huffs a small, tired laugh and just leans into your space. He doesn't care that he’s damp or that the entire student body is probably wondering why the hero of the night is talking to a student with a textbook in the nosebleed seats. He just rests his hand on the bench next to your leg, his thumb brushing against the fabric of the hoodie he gave you.

"I wasn't thinking about the diagram," he whispers, looking at you with a soulful intensity that makes the humid air feel even heavier. "I was just thinking that if I finished fast enough, I could get back to the dorm." He looks at your open book, then back at you.

As you walk out together, leaving the trophies and the shouting behind, you realize that for all the fame and the noise, the only win he actually cared about was the one that let him go back to being quiet with you.

The cool night air feels like a shock after the suffocating humidity of the pool. The campus is unusually quiet, the distant echoes of the post-meet celebrations muffled by the brick buildings of the quad. You’re walking slowly, the hem of the hoodie brushing against your thighs, while Satoru walks beside you, his gait heavy and loose. His hair was damp enough to leave dark spots on his collar, and his gear bag was slumping against his hip.

Neither of you speaks for a long time.

When you reach the heavy door of your room, he doesn't follow you in. Instead, he stops, leaning his back against the door frame, staring up at the ceiling for a long moment before his gaze drops to you.

"I didn't think about the race once," he says, his voice a low, gravelly confession that breaks the stillness.

You tilt your head. "Liar. You broke a record, ‘Toru. You had to be thinking about something."

"I was thinking about the rug," he countered, a tired, honest smile tugging at his lips while he looked at said rug on the floor behind you. "I was thinking about how much my head hurts from physics, and how much I just wanted to get back on that floor where no one is looking at me. Where it’s just you."

He takes a step closer, closing the distance until you can feel the faint heat radiating from him. He looks down at you. You look at the boy who knows your study habits and your favorite tea.

"I spent all semester trying to find a place to hide," he whispers, his eyes searching yours with an intensity that makes your heart skip. "I thought I was just looking for a quiet space. But I realized tonight, standing here in your dorm. I wasn't looking for a space. I was looking for the person in it." The air between you shifts, turning thick and electric.

You reach out, your fingers catching the drawstrings of his hoodie, pulling him just an inch closer. "You're not very good at hiding, 'Toru," you breathe. "Your face is everywhere."

"I don't care about everywhere," he says, his hand rising to rest gently against the side of your neck, his thumb tracing your jawline. "I only care if I'm with you."

He leans down, hesitating for a fraction of a second, giving you a chance to pull away, before his lips finally meet yours. It isn't a victory kiss. It isn't fast or explosive like his races. It’s slow, deep, and tastes faintly of the mint he uses to get the chlorine out of his system. It’s the feeling of months of yearning finally finding a place to land. It’s the sound of the world finally going quiet. When he pulls back, he doesn't let go. He rests his forehead against yours, both of you breathing the same cool night air.

"Nap?" you whisper, the word barely a breath.

Satoru lets out a soft, breathy laugh, the tension finally leaving his frame as he closes his eyes. "Sleep," he corrects, his voice a murmur. "I just want to sleep somewhere where you’re near." The door to your room clicks shut, and for the first time all day, the silence feels absolute. You don’t turn on the overhead light; you just reach for the small desk lamp, letting that familiar, warm amber glow wash over the room.

Satoru doesn’t even make it to the rug this time. He drops his heavy gear bag by the door and sways on his feet, the sheer exhaustion of the meet finally crashing down on him now that the adrenaline has evaporated. He looks at your bed, the one place he’s always respected as your territory, and then back at you, a silent, tired question in his eyes.

"The rug is too small tonight," you whisper, reaching out to take his hand.

He doesn’t argue. He’s too far gone for pride. He shucks off his hoodie, leaving him in a thin white t-shirt that clings to the broad, aching lines of his shoulders. When he climbs onto the bed, the mattress shifts under his weight, making the small space feel occupied in a way it never has before. You crawl in beside him. The bed is narrow, standard dorm-issue, which means there’s no room for the three-table distance of the lounge or the polite space of the floor. You’re pressed against him, your head finding the hollow of his shoulder, while his arm winds around you, pulling you in until your forehead is tucked under his chin.

He smells like the faint, clean scent of the soap he used to scrub the pool away and the warm, skin-to-skin heat of someone who has nothing left to give the world.

His voice is a low vibration you can feel in your own ribs. "Everything is finally quiet." He doesn't try to talk about the records he broke or the physics homework he still has to complete. He just exhales, a long, shaky breath that signals the exact moment he lets go. His grip on you softens, his breathing deepening almost instantly as his body realizes it’s finally safe.

You lie there for a while, listening to the steady, rhythmic beat of his heart, the same heart that just powered through the most important race of his life, now beating only for the person in the quiet room. You think about the banners on the walls and the shouting crowds, and you realize they’ll never know this version of him. They have the champion, but you have the boy. As you close your eyes, lulled by the hum of the fan and the steady rise and fall of his chest, you realize you aren't the stranger in the corner anymore. You're the person he came home to.

And for the first time all semester, you don't just fall asleep. You drift off knowing that when the sun comes up, the note on your desk won't be the only thing he left behind.

His name, you learn from scouring the internet, LinkedIn pages, and a lot of embarrassing research (a Myriad of student organizations and Instagram mutuals), is Satoru Gojo. He’s a second year, like you, but in the physics department. He has an unreasonable number of followers for a college student. He once won a regional swimming tournament at eighteen, and there are photos. Lots of photos.

A person with dignity would share none of this with their friends, but because you have none, you share all of this with your friends. 

Not long after, the group chat is buzzing about your parasocial relationship with Satoru. Aya sends a screenshot of him from the university’s physics department website.

aya: your future husband looks confused in this photo you: he is NOT my future husband.

…

you: yet

The group chat is then filled with wedding ring and at least 10 kissing emojis.

You put your phone down on your bed and try to study for the exam you have tomorrow. But you have no self-control, and pick it back up thirty seconds later.

To preface, you’re minding your own business, sitting in the back corner of the 4th floor in the library. Your headphones are in, and your notes are spread sporadically across the table. 

You were minding your business until he sat down across from you. Satoru Gojo is so close that when you glance up from your screen, you are looking directly at him. He’s got a yellow pad open and squinting at whatever problem he’s trying to solve.

He never looks up. You spend the next thirty minutes reading the same page of your textbook, you barely pick up your pen to write notes, and if you did, they are completely illegible. 

To your dismay, he leaves before you do, yellow pad tucked under his arm, but on his way out, he glances over at you and gives you a friendly nod... and then he’s gone. 

You text the group chat immediately.

you: i need you guys to know that i am not okay

You spent the entire winter break convincing yourself you’re over Satoru Gojo. Pining over a man for a whole semester when he doesn’t even know your name is useless. He’s just a person… A very tall person with a handsome face and an unfair laugh, and definitely not an angel… A person. 

You’ve been back on campus for the spring semester for only four hours before you see him crossing the quad with a latte in each hand, handing one to the boy next to him, all while telling a story that makes the entire group around him laugh. He’s wearing a black puffer, sunglasses perched on his head despite the gloomy January sky, and he looks so unreal that you’re paranoid you made him up-

You walk directly into a trash can. 

It makes an embarrassingly loud noise that makes a few people look over. You keep walking. 

You are not over it.

It’s snowing lightly, but the kind that doesn’t stick. You’re in line at the convenience store on campus, holding a cup of instant ramen when he walks in.

You become extremely interested in the nutrition label on the cup. Sodium content, fascinating. The fat content? Riveting. 

You hear him line up behind you. You are so normal. You are going to be so normal about this, so normal that you’re going to keep reading the ingredients list on a cup ramen at 11 oclock at night. 

“Those are good,” he says.

You look up. Satoru Gojo is pointing at the cup in your hands, and he’s also apparently talking to you.

“Yeah.” You croak.

“Spicy miso,” he says, nodding, “good choice. The beef one is depressing.”

You let out a sound that might be a laugh, you’re unsure right now. He smiles, then the line moves, and you pay and leave before your face can betray the feelings you’ve had for him for the last six months.

You stand outside in the cold, under the snow, and pull your phone out.

you: he talked to me you: 12 words you: im going to hurl aya: TWELVE????? oh we’re framing this

The campus bar closes at eleven. You know this because post-exam celebrations have been here enough times for you to memorize the way the lights get a little brighter at around 10:45, the owner’s subtle cue that it’s time to start wrapping up.

But the corner booth still has your friends piled into it, Rei’s pink cheeks and happy on her birthday, Sora giggling at Suzu belting the song playing over the speakers, and the table scattered with empty glasses and crumpled napkins. 

You’re unsure when he got here.

Aya spots him first; she always does. It’s her superpower, you think. She essentially gives you warning signals not to do something embarrassing. This time, she kicks you under the table without saying anything. You look up. 

Satoru Gojo is at the same bar as you are, with a few people you don’t recognize, a half-finished beer in front of him, leaning on one elbow and talking with the confidence of someone who has never once felt out of place in their life.

Someone says something funny, and he tips his head back, laughing, and the bar lights catch the white of his hair and the line of his throat just like it did back in the early fall. 

You’ve thought about this way too many times. In a joking way, a fun way, the way you text the group chat about him and make it into something light, poking at your own parasocial tendencies. But sitting here right now, watching Satoru Gojo exist from across the bar at 10:40 a tonight, it doesn’t feel like a joke. 

“You okay?” Rei asks quietly beside you.

“Y-Yeah.” You hum.

She follows your gaze and doesn’t say anything, which is somehow worse than if she said her usual, absolutely not. 

You look away. Then you look back. To your dismay, he’s still there. He’s still going to be there until the lights completely turn on and the servers start collecting cups, but you’re going to sit in this booth and do absolutely nothing about it, which is exactly what you’ve been doing for the whole school year, and that is fine. You are fine. That was always the plan. 

The song overhead starts to play something older and slow, and you hear him even from the other end of the bar, starting to sing along. He has always been unselfconsciously himself, from obnoxiously laughing in the quad, nodding at you in the library, and making small talk about cup ramen. Satoru Gojo has never apologized for being himself. 

Aya leans over. “You should go say something.”

“I did once. We talked about ramen.”

“Babe.” She looks at you with an expression that is both fond and sad. “That is not the same thing.”

“I know.”

She doesn’t push. She fills your shot glass instead, Sora starts a new story, your booth gets loud again, and for a moment you’re back in it, laughing at something, leaning into the warmth of your friends, forgetting all about Satoru Gojo. 

The bar gets louder after the last round of drinks is called. Someone in the back booth cheers, Sora knocks over a glass (it thankfully doesn't break), and Rei's birthday sash ends up around her neck like a scarf. 

It’s the type of loud that makes you feel invisible. It makes you slip out of the booth quietly to get air.

The bar door swings shut behind you, and suddenly the sound of the music is muffled, the street is cold and dark, and you let out a long breath, watching it fog up in front of you.

You feel your phone buzz in your pocket.

aya: GO TALK TO HIMMM aya: NOWWWWW

The door opens again behind you. You don’t look up; you assume it’s Suzu or a stranger needing air. But then they stop next to you and lean back against the wall the same way you are, and you can’t help yourself from looking over.

Satoru Gojo.

He’s got his black puffer on now, hands in his pockets, looking straight ahead. He’s looking out at the street, squinting slightly at nothing in particular, like he also just needed a second, like maybe he also felt invisible. 

You put your phone away. For a moment, neither of you says anything. The bar noise bleeds faintly through the door, and somewhere down the block, someone is laughing. 

"Needed air?" he asks, still looking at the street.

"Something like that."

He nods like that's a reasonable answer. "Fun night in there."

"Yeah." You glance over at him. "Your friends seem fun."

He turns his head then, just slightly, enough to look at you from the corner of his eyes. "You know who I am."

It isn't a question. Your face goes warm despite the chill.

"Campus is small," you say, which is kinda true, and also not really an answer.

Something shifts in his expression. “How small?"

"Don't make it weird."

"I'm not making it anything." But his voice has that rhythm to it now. "I noticed you, too, you know. In the library."

You look at him then, because you can't not. "The library..."

"You had your headphones in. You were highlighting everything on the page." A pause. "I don't think you were actually reading anything."

Your mouth opens. Then closes. "I was reading-."

"Sure."

"I was." 

He's fully smiling now, and you are going to combust on this sidewalk, right here, outside this bar, in front of everyone. The door swings open behind you, and a group spills out, loud and laughing, popping the bubble of quiet you've both been standing in.

You both shift slightly apart without meaning to. And then Aya's head appears in the doorway, her eyes finding you immediately.

"We're heading out," she says. "Rei's calling it."

You look back at him. He's watching you with his hands still in his pockets.

"I'll see you," you say.

"Yeah," he says, quietly. "You will."

You follow Aya inside. She grabs your arm the second the door closes and makes a sound directly into your shoulder.

"I know," you say.

"DO YOU?" she hisses.

Things happen after that night. Small things.

He texts you (you still aren't entirely sure of how he got your number, and when you asked him, he just said, I asked around like that was a completely normal thing). The texts are causal, nothing things, observations, and the occasional questions. But they come at odd hours, and he responds fast, always, and you've stopped pretending that it doesn't mean anything.

He finds you in the library again. Same table, same corner. But this time, he sits next to you. You spend two hours not really studying. He steals your highlighter and doesn't give it back, you don't complain.

Aya asks almost daily if you've told him.

You haven’t.

You’re at the same bar, the one that closes at 11. Two months later, a different birthday, but the same corner booth, and the same low lighting.

Satoru invited you. He texted four days ago.

satoru: suguru's bday friday, you should come satoru: invite your friends too!

You'd stared at the text long enough that Aya took your phone and typed we'll be there before you could overthink it. You've been equal parts grateful and furious with her since.

The two tables pushed together hold everyone easily, his friends folding into yours. Suguru is being roasted every twenty minutes. Rei has already swapped jackets with someone she met an hour ago. Aya and Suzu complain about a class they have together.

Satoru is beside you again. He talks to everyone, laughs loudly at the table, but he keeps coming back to you between all of it, small whispers, things meant only for you. 

By 10:30, the table has spread itself around the bar, Suguru pulled toward the birthday shots, Aya deep in conversation with someone you don't know, Rei on the dance floor, and it's just you and Satoru in the corner, and it's just been the two of you for long enough now that it doesn't feel awkward. It feels like the most natural arrangement in the world, which is its own kind of terrifying.

It's almost 11. The lights haven't gone bright yet, but the energy in the bar has lowered. You slip away from the booth toward the back of the bar, and the line for the bathroom is longer than it should be for a Tuesday night. You join it nonetheless, checking your phone, and thirty seconds later, someone slots in behind you.

You don't have to look to know.

"You're following me," you say, without looking up.

"I also have to use the bathroom," Satoru says, unbothered.

You look up at him over your shoulder. The hallway is narrow, which means he's closer than he would be anywhere else, which means you are suddenly extremely aware of the exact (or lack of) distance between you.

"Hi," he says.

"Hi," you say back.

His eyes stay on yours, and there is absolutely nothing casual about the way he's looking at you right now, and you should say it... right now. You've seen his face a hundred times. You have tattooed it to your memory, in stolen glances, in your peripheral vision, in the glow of a physics department webpage you visited way too many times for someone who doesn't take physics. 

Up close, in the narrow red-lit hallway, he is genuinely unfair. The angles of his face make you feel lightheaded. His jaw, the line of his throat, all of it lands on your heart like a bomb.

You are so down bad. You have been so down bad since the first time you saw him. You are down bad in the bathroom line of the only bar open on campus on a Tuesday, and he is looking at you like that, and you think, with the last functional part of your brain... say it.

"Satoru-"

"I know," he interrupts.

And then he kisses you. 

His hand finds your jaw, and he kisses you like he's been working up to it for longer than tonight. When he pulls back, you're pressed between him and the wall, and you can't quite remember how that happened.

"You could have said something," you manage.

The corner of his mouth lifts. "So could you."

You’re going to drop dead... you think.