future's gonna be okay

“you’re such a ray of sunshine!” thanks! one day i chose to act happy and then i kept choosing it over and over and over and over until the neurological pathways formed like desire paths in the thicket. i dug and clawed my nails into the grooves of my brain and carved out joy. i retouch it every day.

going on a guilt trip do yall want anything

if you really cared about me you wouldn't have to ask

Just imagine that it continuously gets better from here

bothered. unmoisterised. unhappy. out of my lane. unfocused. withering

I know it is a privilege to feel things deeply but what the fuck

no one appreciates that i could be a million times worse

My hope for whoever is reading this is that your life starts making sense and coming together. I hope the good days are right around the corner for you.

there's not a single casual bone in my body. everything means something to me

what doesn’t kill me leaves a pit in my stomach that never goes away

me vs me vs me vs me vs me

i love you. im glad we exist in the same slice of time and space.