Jhu keeps going;

I just turned off the computer after sending a hundreds of job applications, both for me and for him. Gahd, I'm so exhausted in all sorts of levels but I need to keep going. Ehh...it's my url...Uhh..

Anyway, I just stumble upon this site because of a weird notification I got.

Uhm, well. This app is still in my phone. I don't know. I just really don't have the courage to, 'uninstall', it 'cause I feel like I'd be running into this place any time, soon. Or not.

The fire is still with in me. I mean, the motivation to get back on track, to write again, express and let it all out without any hesitations; it is still there. But, I don't have so much time it makes so upset. How could a mom of two, they're twins, okay, a-sort-of-a-wife (lol that was awkward it made me laugh), be able to find time, extra time, to do some other stuff aside from looking after two cute and hyperactive toddler and feeding a partner? How?

I know. I know. I'll regret staying up to this hour once they'll wake up 4 hours from now. I just want some time for myselfffffff 😭😂

I missed it here. A lot.

I got so excited the moment I typed in the url box to get back in this site! It’s been awhile!!!!! The last time I posted here, I was still pregnant but now, my twins are turning 6 months old! So many things had happened and as usual, I’m always, always looking forward to come back to tumblr  and post some stuff about my life.

It is my first day at work and I’m so overwhelmed because it is a much higher position than my previous job and I’m looking forward to new experiences. My shift starts at 9pm and ends at six, so I might be able to post here from time to time. Yay!

She just asked me what are my plans; what are our plans, especially for the babies. At that moment, we still didn't know that they were twins by the way. She was just worried for me, for his apos, and the future of these two. I told her that of course, they are our utmost priority and we'll double the hardwork to provide their needs. Mom asked John about his side and assured her that he'll take responsibility of us.

Last month, John's family went to our home to officially ask my mom's permission. It was a simple meeting and I'm very glad about it. Everything may happen way too fast for the both of us, but, everything will be alright. I believe.

I'm now 20 weeks and I'm half way there to see them. I'll find time to blog what happened in the past weeks so I'll have a remembrance in this beautiful journey. We'll maybe know their gender in the next following weeks and I'm dead excited about it! I already have names for them! They're already very makulit inside me and responds whenever I talk to them through their kicks in my belly. Jusko, kanina nga, nagsabay pa. Nag-unat ata kasi kagigising ko lang. Sabay atang tinadyakan ang tagiliran ko.

Puro kasi ako trabaho, pag-aasikaso sa pagbubuntis ko, pag-aalaga sa partner ko; mga priorities ko sa buhay kumbaga. Ngayon lang din nagsi-sink in na, ohh...eto pala talaga reyalidad ng buhay. Magkakaroon na ako ng sariling anak, ng sariling pamilya, working out on my career at iba pa. Tumatanda na talaga ako. Lol.