Originally posted: 11.7.21 on jesslynbluetarot.com
Photo Cred: IG @kevinliangphotos
Reading tarot cards? Oracle Cards? Pendulums? Astrodice? For friends and family in living rooms and kitchen tables and project apartment floors to Jesslyn Blue Tarot?
This website? Reading tarot for a major tech company in California? Doing personal readings on Zoom and pop-ups and event bookings? Everything?
Tarot was, simply put, one outlet.
Ever since I was a child, I knew there was more to this world than what we could see. There was more than the physical... I was experiencing unexplainable things at a young age, unsure of what was even happening to me. It felt familiar, yet confusing. Fun, yet uncontrollable. My hunches in college always turned out to be right. The rest of our friends did forget their I.D.'s in a haste to leave the dorms and now they can't get in, therefore we all came in the same car and now we all leave in the same car. I never ordered one drink. Something told me we weren't staying very long.
The only thing I could think of was the esoteric, spiritual, and ancient. It must make it make sense. I was green, but I was on the right path. The online information I found felt jumbled and inconclusive, possibly too mature for my young mind, also realize, it was the time of dial-up internet. My sights turned to library books and any books I could find at Barnes & Noble, thrift stores, and occult-specific shops.
One lucky day... I found a small, pocket-sized tarot deck. It included a concise guidebook. That day swung a door wide open within me that could never be closed... The pursuit of the unknown. Most of the knowledge I have accumulated on spirituality, psychic abilities, the craft, and divination tools have been through personal experiences, reading, consulting other psychics, reiki healers, tarot readers, spiritualists, and seeking many answers from within myself.
It's no joke when people say: all answers are within.
Through meditations, trances, and shroom journeys, I have only enhanced my overall wellbeing, spiritual understanding, and spiritual gifts.
My parents were raised to practice the Christian religion. My mother, a devout churchgoer every Sunday; a part of the community, constantly a helping hand. She would take my pentacle necklaces off. Warned me of what I may be dabbling into. It was such ignorance and miscommunication.
But I felt at home in my new studies with my tarot cards. They were a constant companion.
There was a period of solitary study before anyone was aware of my tarot deck.
When stepping into anything esoteric... that differs from the Judeo-Christian-Islamic religions that people were raised in, it is a shift in one's perception of the world around them. You are entering a new world. You may still be in the same world, but it is not the same anymore.
The more aware I became... practiced my tarot, built my confidence, purchased more books, spoke with older readers... the more I shouted to the rooftops what I could do with tarot. Offered tarot readings after my poetry features. Offered tarot readings on our lunch breaks during acting gigs. On breaks at modeling gigs. People formed lines. I met amazing individuals. Got follow-up DMs. Phone calls. Texts. It was a sense of serving a purpose that filled and motivated me.
I told anyone and everyone that I was offering tarot readings. When entering a poetry event or a film festival cocktail hour, I mentioned my tarot services. Mentioned how I wanted to help. Give these divine messages. Give this guidance. I enjoy reading tarot, connecting to the divine, and being of help to someone's journey.
When an audition came along for a tarot reader in December of 2020, I hopped on it. Enough said. They were impressed and I was booked for Mongo DB's virtual "Reinvent." My gratitude to them and Malka Media! Ashe! That experience pushed me forward. Think bigger, I told myself.
But there were many bumps along this road. Abusive partners that downplayed my abilities and were energy vampires. Family members that weren't very supportive. These dark times required delving inside of myself to secure a solid footing in who I was and what I knew to be true with all of my being. Reconfirming what I was currently capable of and what the future also had in store regarding the evolution of my capabilities. How do I do this without a brick-and-mortar establishment? I'm a SAG-AFTRA actor. I work long hours on sets. I do comedy improv. I model. I'm a poet. A writer. An artist. An American gypsy in this crazy world. Gig work. Etc. Clients may be far away. How do we reach each other? How do I set liveable rates that are also affordable for a divination practice? That, too, was super conflicting. Some would scoff. Even told me I should never charge for a tarot reading. It was a gift to keep on giving. I needed to always be able to help people.
Mind you, all of this I have absolutely reflected on as I moved into taking my tarot skills more seriously and actively advertising this business. I am spiritual, but I am practical. We walk a fine line. Let's just say, I would never turn away a person in need.
Thus, jesslynbluetarot.com was born in September of 2021. Available for: live Zoom readings, emailed pre-recorded video readings, or event bookings. Even without the website, I'm happy to accept bookings via email: [email protected]. The right clients that need me are now able to easily find me. What is meant to be is meant to be... and it will never pass you by.
Like I said, tarot, simply put, is one outlet.
