sad happy

i feel so anxious everyone’s coming at me left and right today and it’s only 12,

im heart broken, sebastian. the amount of plans we had made are out the window bc one person decided to speed and cut time short. i miss you and i don’t think i can even be in your house without wondering when you’re coming out of the room, open arms and ready to be each other’s company. i wish i pushed you more to come over but now your voice is lost even though i hear it everyday replaying everything you said to be hours before. i’m in pain and i need you here. all i want is to be able to call you and tell you i’m on the way. i miss you and i don’t i’ll ever stop feeling that pls know that i love you and i always will youre my baby brother no one else can steal that title. the purest and most genuine of souls

if i have no reaction from men i don’t value myself and i feel like i’m on the brink but no one knows and i have to pretend i’m okay but here i am alone again with no one

i’m fucking depressed

it’s no where but in my head

im in a bad place

i know so many people but i don’t have friends …. no one i can share my feelings with … no one to talk me out of a bad day ..