walking, talking wreck

It seems that four of my fav fics were deleted from AO3 and i don’t remember the author’s name or the fic titles but they were all Wayleska AUs. 

1. Miah was a blind college student that Bruce fell for

2. Miah was Bruce’s reclusive next door neighbor

3. Bruce was studying at the cafe where Miah was the barista

4. A take on “Strangers on a Train” where Miah kills Bruce’s girlfriend

The fics are by someone named ‘waleskas’ and are:

A City of Black and White

Coffee Notes

A Coyote Mouse Love Story

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I also no longer have some of my own AO3 fics written under this same name, rowenaaine. I had deleted my AO3 account due to my job. The longer ones are the ones I specifically miss:

How’s It Gonna Be (a post-season finale fic - I have ch 25 but nothing earlier)

Paying for It (an OswaldxJeremiah bdsm fic - I have the first 20 chapters but not the next 20 or so…)

Poison in the Blood GOT THIS ONE BACK !! I might republish.

I was able to use the Wayback Machine for my oldest fic and a couple shorter ones, but these are seemingly gone. Any chance someone has previously downloaded them for offline reading?

What’s weird is that I never have considered pursuing that avenue? Not before now, at least! It’s probably because I see Bruce as a lot more terrifying if he makes the choice to flip his moral compass without benefit of mind-alteration. Atually, Jeremiah had the potential to be even scarier if he’d never been hit with the gas, too; I mean, we know he was at least halfway there anyway at a baseline. Granted, even if they’re scarier without the gas, not having that happen leaves the option for also choosing to exercise self control. Jerome was probably more apprehensive than he let on at any point in his brief canonical interactions with his brother. You can’t get the upper hand on someone like Jeremiah unless you weaken him with an attachment (i.e. Bruce). It cost Jerome everything, but he knew he was both setting Jeremiah up to wreak havoc and also setting him up with a weakness that leads to guaranteed failure. It’s terrifyingly intelligent on Jerome’s part. It’s no wonder I end up doing everything I can to keep Jerome alive in my sprawling projects (well, that and I love how cranky it makes everybody if he’s still around).

This becomes a fascinating exercise, though, if I think about what that precise set of circumstances would look like. It wouldn’t be hard at all to pull “The Talk” out of context and do a stand-alone AU case study on it. Playing for Keeps would have turned out so differently if I’d done that to begin with; the city would never have recovered. Things would never have gone back to a weird, tense state of normal in Gotham post-reunification that you see in PfK as it stands. I’m pretty sure Bruce and Jeremiah both would’ve ended up dead, because if there’s no capacity to put the brakes on each other, or at least capacity for one to put brakes on the other, it leads to ruin. Granted, I rarely call it the end of the world if both my lovers get to die. It’s one surviving when the other doesn’t that puts me in a bad way; that’s the worst kind of ending there is.

WHOA, I just learned that The Pursued and the Pursuing is a nominee in the Adult Historical category of the Goodreads #ReadsRainbowAwards! People can vote at the link above, and voting ends December 7th. If you're reading this and have a moment to fill out a Google form to vote, I'd be grateful!

CAMERON MONAGHAN as CHRIS