“My biggest regrets in life are being too damn nice, apologizing when I didn’t do anything wrong, and making unworthy people a priority in my life.”

“I am going to make everything around me beautiful - that will be my life.”

“allow the pieces to fall apart no matter how rough it feels, allow what doesn’t want to stick to crumble away beautifully, allow what has no desire to stay to find a home elsewhere, allow the energy of everything shifting from you to create space for everything that you need.”

When I go to the doctor, they hand me paperwork with a chart to locate my pain. I can’t pinpoint it. I “X” my whole body. My entire life.

““When you are a young person, you are like a young creek, and you meet many rocks, many obstacles and difficulties on your way. You hurry to get past these obstacles and get to the ocean. But as the creek moves down through the fields, it becomes larges and calmer and it can enjoy the reflection of the sky. It’s wonderful. You will arrive at the sea anyway so enjoy the journey. Enjoy the sunshine, the sunset, the moon, the birds, the trees, and the many beauties along the way. Taste every moment of your daily life.””

the course of life

“From a young age her life has been abnormal, she knows that. But so much is covered over in time now, the way leaves fall and cover a piece of earth, and eventually mingle with the soil. Things that happened to her then are buried in the earth of her body.”

I believe that I am taken care of.

“My heart is a sky embalmed and bright.”

“I drag my body around lovingly but / it still won’t let me go”