life

“People scare me. They change their minds so quick. One moment it’s “I love you” and “you make me happy” and the next it’s “I’m not sure anymore” and “this isn’t what I want””

“But I could have sworn there were galaxies in her eyes.”

“I believe that we are who we choose to be. Nobody’s going to come and save you, you’ve got to save yourself. Nobody’s going to give you anything. You’ve got to go out and fight for it. Nobody knows what you want except for you. And nobody will be as sorry as you if you don’t get it. So don’t give up on your dreams.”

“You think nobody cares, but if you let me, I would spend a lifetime kissing your scars.”

“It always comes at night Your hands on me Holding me tight I can only dream about us, right? And it pains me It hurts Why did you treat me like dirt? I only knew how to love But I never knew how to be loved by you So many bitches out there got you But I never had my own chapter You were always the writer And you chose to kill us everytime I started to somehow…feel alive You killed every piece of me Like I am the poetry and you are the poet but it’s the other way around And you never knew how to put your words on the paper, but instead in the ground I am not glad that you are not around I am not happy that you are gone It makes me feel lost and under no control Because three years were monotone circle of fake love And now I don’t know how to be on my own I don’t know what future brings me I just know you are not here with me and it stings Not being able to know myself is worse than not being able to know you But let me tell you the truth Time heals and I will be alright This is just yet another lost fight And without you I will find the way of life Life without you will bring me joy I will be able to replace you with self love Because so many seconds I wasted on your bullshit And so many hours trying to figure you out But everyone around me was right You are just another brick in the wall, just a piece of shit person all in all. It’s you again, it’s always about you. Thoughts before midnight.”