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ANONYMOUS  ASKED  :   Come here, young child. You've been hurt, haven't you? /Snoke ?

nobody knew  .  .  .  nobody understood  .  the constant eyes that watched his every move  .  the voices that whispered behind closed doors thinking he could not hear  .  they all reminded him that something about him was different  .  .  .  something deeper was strange and nobody knew how to help him except keep him at a distance  .  

even master luke did not allow him the privilege to venture out  .  to truly tap into his powers  .  he was holding him back and for what    !!!    it set ben’s teeth on edge and so he sought out the only one that would listen  .  the only being that would understand his frustrations  . 

dark brows furrow at the inquiry presented to her, one she’s yet to hear from another. how can it be learned…was that even close to being a possibility ? it was an ability she was created with, bestowed to her at the very beginning of existence. to be learned - that was impossible.

❝     well, it’s not exactly - you can’t learn it. it’s not an ability that can be taught to someone.    ❞

an ability that cannot simply be taught but rather inherited    ---------    a pity really  .  he had begun to believe the impossible    ;    freeing himself of the shackles around his wrists and ridding himself of the one that he called master  .  such an answer nearly discourages him but a new thought arises  .  .  .

               𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐨𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐫𝐚𝐠𝐞 just as much as he could feel her unspoken nerves and pain. It was a moment that felt so HELPLESS, how was there any hope left in that cold cell that held her? it’s something she’d been taught from Leia and all of her friends. There would always be hope, for if that FLAME burned out, there’d be nothing worth fighting for. Even if her life force was swept away in these moments, that hope would still remain because the resistance were still standing, no amount of darkness would be enough to demolish them whole. ❛ I made my choice when agreeing to work with you, PLEASE DON’T FOR A SECOND BLAME YOURSELF. ❜ Rey silently pleaded with him.

That RAWNESS could be felt, and as much as it hurt her, it only gave her more motivation to fight and get away while she still could. She knew what would happen if she was left without a plan for too long, Ben wouldn’t just come for her, but TOTAL CHAOS would break loose. The image of an enraged man, red saber unstable and violently lit, ripping his way through the men and women on his ship, simply to shield her from harm’s way. She couldn’t let that happen, for if it did, they would both be done for. It’s not that she didn’t trust him, but rather she didn’t trust the men who surrounded him and flew alongside his army. REY TRUSTED BEN WITH HER LIFE, she understood he kept his promises, so when she heard those words, she quickly sat up in a slight panic.

❛ I PROMISE. YOU KNOW I WILL. ❜ she vowed right back, looking around frantically. Sweat dripped from every pore, her heart frantically pounding, she could hear it in her ears. The time really running against her now, she knew she had to get out of these cuffs before anything was done. ❝ Hel-.. ❞ Her voice is BROKEN, and she coughs slightly in attempt to clear her throat and allow herself to be much louder than she was, ❝ Help! ❞ She shouts, knowing the halls were being heavily monitored now that she was on the ship; his fleets wouldn’t have been stupid enough to make the same mistakes as last time. ❝ Help! ❞ She cried out again, making sure it sounded gut-wrenching and unavoidable. Before she could open her mouth again to scream, a trooper holding his gun close to himself approached her containment cell, ❝ Quit your crying, REBEL SCUM. ❞ the man spoke, his voice condescending and almost unnatural due to his helmet. ❝ No, your leader is transporting me elsewhere.. IF I’M DEAD, they’ll know your ID number, they’ll know it’s your fault. I need help, I need a FastFlesh medpac, now. ❞ She boldly instructed, knowing they’d have NO CHOICE but to assist her.

it is almost unnatural the way his body moves towards her direction when he can sense her pleading cries for help  .  they cannot be physically heard    ( as she is stationed far from his position )    but they manifest in a crest of emotions  .  slamming down upon him and causing his body to tremor  .  fists ball at his sides as he finds himself rooting feet to ground    ;    willing his body to stay still  . 

though he wishes to answer those calls he cannot    ---------    will not  ,  go to her aide  .  not yet  ,  at least  .  a mental timer is ticking down seconds  .  she will be allowed the time to figure out a plan but if even a second ticks past he would abandon his cover and liberate her from her cell  .

‘     you’re running out of time  .  .  .     ‘  voice but a whisper within the force  .  her sense of dire need calming for but a moment and he can sense a shift  .  a comm over his helmet crackles as a voice requests backup within her containment cell  .  another answer comes forth and with it acknowledgement that the prisoner was in need of assistance to her wound  . 

two minutes have come to pass in that time frame and ren takes note of the time needed to reach her cell  .  another two minutes would pass before she would receive any aide and his mind begins to assess the next steps she could take  . 

she could feel her heart breaking into tiny pieces. this had been a dream that he had had over and over and for countless nights, she was there to comfort him. it didn’t make it easier though when she had to open up and tell him the truth. his mother had died giving him her life so that her son, ben, could live. wrapping her cloak around her frame, she took a few steps into his room and towards the bed. 

rey did everything that she could to keep her emotions in check and keep the tears from falling down her face. taking another step, she sat down on the edge of the bed, smoothing over the fabric in front her her; her eyes still unable to meet his own. that was pain that she wasn’t quite ready to feel but she knew it would happen sooner rather than later. a few seconds of silence was all it took before she shifted her gaze and looked into his eyes; both dull and lifeless. 

biting down on her lip, she shook her head, a single tear now running down her cheek. “ben, love, your mothers gone. she’s been gone for some time now – you were having a nightmare. please, just talk to me and let me help you. I hate seeing you like this. what can I do?”

and so he remains to be haunted    ;    stuck in this perpetual loop of suffering with no end but his own in sight  .  each night draws him back into the darkness only to be pulled from the depths by    her    hand  .  rey’s gentle touch smothers him for a moment and he takes that second to revel in her warmth  .  to allow himself this sense of reality before he dives back into the endless pit of shadows  .  his form leaning against hers with a heavy sigh from listless lungs  . 

❝     tell me  .  .  .     ❞  voice is hoarse from lack of use  .  he barely had words to spare her after the battle upon exegol  .  it was taking him more time that he expected to figure out what his place was now    ;    where he belonged  .  what he did know was clear  .  .  .  wherever she went he would follow  .

she was the only reason he stuck to this plane of existence  .  clinging to the bond that somehow forged them together and following in her footsteps like a protective shade  . 

here he found themselves upon a planet nearly desolate of life  .  somewhere in the outer rim he was sure of    ;    but his sense of direction is distorted  .  being pulled in different directions  .  .  .  a place where he wandered for a bit before being brought back to the living and watching the last remnants of a war signal its end upon the sith planet  . 

OFZORII​  ASKED  :   “You terrify me”

he    ;    a demon personified  .  one that walks the very waking world and terrifies the galaxy by the very mention of his name  .  a beast chained to his master and abiding by his rule  .  ❝     ---------    good   ,  then you will give me what i want  .     ❞  voice contorted sizzles past modulator  .  dark features hovering just inches from her own before hand reaches forward and forces her to her feet by use of powerful will  .