Until the Last Drop
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Y/N had grown to constantly think about her dear father, who was suffering as she breathed. She felt guilt for not doing something about it earlier, before he was exposed. But she also wouldn't have ever found out, if it weren't for Pierre in court.
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Transfiguration with McGonagall was becoming less and less bearable, Y/N couldn't focus on anything. She had grey rings under her swollen, sharp, black eyes and blue lips, her skin had turned somewhat sallow since August.
The girl kept staring at the clock hopelessly, praying that the lesson would end as fast as it started. Nothing made her happy since the term had started, nor did she engage in any more conversations with anyone at all. The bell tolled and Y/N let out a deep breath of relief, slowly packing up her things as the students stormed out of the class, trampling their way through the others.
Professor McGonagall pitied the girl and was somewhat fond of her, despite her being in the house she despised since she became a Quidditch player in her early years.
"L/N, dear...", she started. Y/N turned her head around. "I wish to convey a message, before you leave. From the headmaster.", she mumbled and looked at her shoes.
Y/N knit her eyebrows up and let her neck relax, in a sorrowful expression. "Do tell, professor.", she muttered as quietly as possible. Minerva swallowed hard and sighed. "Professor Dumbledore wishes you well, in regards to your father... And he hopes you will find your guiding light."
Her guiding light? This man truly spoke in riddles. But then it clicked. Y/N closed her eyes and nodded, throwing her white satchel over her shoulder and dragging herself to the Potions classroom, a lesson she once enjoyed with all her heart.
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Nothing cheerful crossed Y/Ns mind as she pushed the heavy door open, arriving early as always. "Early again, L/N?", Snape spoke smoothly. The girl had no interest in responding.
She took a moment to process the rhetoric question, and nodded weakly. Y/N looked so drained of life, even Snape was concerned. Sure, he was bitter and downright cruel at times, but he was still a teacher. And he cared about this specific pupil a great deal. Though we all know he'd rather Avada Kedavra himself than admit that.
The rest of the lesson went terribly silent as usual, with the Slytherin girl burying her head in her arms as soon as she was done with a task, which was usually earlier than the other students. Draco nudged her ribcage with his elbow and whispered.
"You alright, L/N?"
"I'm okay, Malfoy. Your antidote needs a tad more billywig stings," Y/N pointed at Draco's incomplete simmering cauldron of Antidote to Uncommon Poisons. Draco gave a hasty nod and carried on with finishing his brewing concoction. Severus snuck a few worried glances at Y/N every now and then, checking up on her. He didn't want to seem sympathetic in front of the others, but maybe he should say something later. It didn't seem healthy, the state she was in, especially for a thirteen-year-old girl.
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The busy day carried on for the third years, passing agonizingly slow. Y/N could hear the trio talking to each other, but she didn't care about that at the time. Whatever mischief or tomfoolery they were plotting, were currently less than worthy of her time.
She went ahead and made herself some mint tea in the Slytherin commmon room, not bothering to add honey or sugar. She needed to cool down, not sweeten up. As Y/N sipped the tea, she couldn't help but pass time by thinking of her mother, too.
She had payed even less attention to her, since Y/N had a close bond with her father. She was pretty sure her own biological mother detested her by now, but was it her fault? Y/N didn't know, she couldn't โ๐๐ฃ๐ known. Why is it this always happens to her? As the girl thought and thought, tears threatened to spill from the rim of her black eyes, and she was none the wiser to give in. She couldn't hold it in any more, and she was alone at the time. Why in Merlin's name not?
Watery beads of sorrow wettened Y/Ns eyelashes and cheeks, streaming down the sides of her face like a flowing river. She held the porcelain, painted cup of tea in both of her shaky hands, while standing in front of the crackling fireplace, contemplating her existence. That is, until, she was rudely disrupted.
"Hey, L/N, I've be- ...L/N?" Draco's eyebrows knit together and his lips furrowed.
Y/N exhaled and looked at him blankly with puffy, red eyes. "Y/N, are you crying? Don't cry.", he spoke in a very unusual, sympathetic tone. Her voice cracked slightly at the hint of empathy being shown. "Don't concern yourself about me, Draco. Go back to sleep." She whispered and swallowed the lump in her throat.
Draco smiled weakly and offered a fist bump. Y/N sniffled and smiled back in her own sad manner, bumping her knuckles against his. Malfoy took one last glance at the student before he proceeded back to the male dormitories.
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Y/N, however, didn't feel like sleeping. Not that she often could, she stared at the ceiling 90% of the times. So she did what any person with philosophical thoughts would, head to gaze at the night sky.
Y/N tried her best to not be heard by Filch, the old dog, and scurried up the medieval stairs of the astronomy tower.
She adjusted the sleeves and low-cut neckline of her blouse, fiddling with the thin silver chain that hung on her collar bones. It felt like that small chain was crushing her chest, but she couldn't take it off. It was a present from her dear father, for her 12th birthday.
Y/N cursed herself in her thoughts for crying earlier, her eyes were still swollen and puffy, and her lashes were wet. Her elbows rested on the freezing steel railing of the tower, observing the starry sky, with dots for stars. She wondered if those stars had difficult lives like hers, too.
Living up there, for hundreds of years, it must be slow and boring. And painful, at that. Y/N sighed heavily and let her elbows support her weight, grumbling as she heard someone open the door and head up the stairs of the tower.
Severus Snape, of course. He stood still for a moment, letting his black cloak and robes fly in the light, cold breeze.
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"Miss L/N, i advise you to return to the dormitories, it is past curfew.", he gathered the courage to speak, though he knew it would be less use than staying silent.
The girl whom he was talking to didn't turn around, she stood still and silent. Severus sighed. "I am aware of the circumstances you are in, L/N, but it is not healthy to stay up past hours so often."
Was Snape truly behind her? Was that โ๐๐ talking? Nevermind, Y/N had gained the will to answer to him. "How'd you know, sir?"Snape stood silent and grumbled, "Nevermind..."He walked up next to her and stood beside her, but stayed in place. The wizard leaned over a bit to see Y/Ns face. A look of deep thought, anguish and sorrow painted her once lively and sardonic face. And her eyes... "You've wept.", her Potions Master stated. Y/N raised an eyebrow and blinked. "Indeed."
"When?"
The teenager rolled her wrist and exhaled through her nose. "A few minutes ago."
Severus furrowed his bushy eyebrows together, making his forehead and eyebrows crease. "I'm concerned, L/N. Surely you know none of these which you are doing are near healthy, yes?"
"What other choices do i have at my disposal, professor?", Y/N bit back and rubbed her temples.
"...", Snape couldn't answer yet again. Why did this girl always manage to make him speechless? "Things come and go, including my family. But it was too early, don't you think?", Y/N whispered shakily and closed her eyes melancholically.
"An early loss indeed, Miss L/N. Dumbledore has said that you mustn't force yourself in lessons, he is aware of how heavy the burden is on your back at the time." , Snape conveyed and looked away from her. He couldn't bring himself to look at her.
"My studies are one thing, my personal life a seperate. I wish to continue pushing my limits , despite everything.", Y/N croaked and fidgeted with her cold hands. Her eyebrows pointed upwards in a tragic expression. "He was a good man at heart, he didn't know what he got himself into."
The girl mentioned and let out a single quiet sob, and a tear fell from her already glossy eyes. Snape was in utter shock. She would let herself cry in front of him? He widened his eyes and looked down from the tower. "He had less of a clue what he was doing, did he?", he commented back and sighed. "Good men do bad things, L/N. That doesn't make them bad people at heart. It is the rotten souls who act pure and innocent.", he offered a piece of wisdom to her.
"I know, professor. I think every night of a plan i could have made to make him avoid his path. Each more unlikely to succeed than the other.", she trembled and held her face in anguish and agony.
"I know he won't survive in there, whatever he dies of. The last thing he mentioned before he was escorted was ๐๐, and i shunned him away in our last moments together. I was blinded by wrath, i acted as a fool would."
Y/N sobbed in her own arms , and Snape suddenly placed his rough and calloused hand on Y/N's back. "Miss L/N, listen to me." He cleared his throat firmly. "This loss will be a great challenge to overcome, i am sure of it, as it happened to me. Do not blame yourself for what happened, you were not a fool. You are human, not a mannequin. And if you ever need someone to turn to, i am at your disposal. The Ministry has sown confusion, anguish and sorrow in you, and i am willing to repair it."Y/N cried even harder and wiped her eyes, smiling weakly.
"Thank you, professor."
"Don't- oh whatever...'
Snape grumbled.
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Ever since Snape had spoken to her in such an unusual and tender manner, Y/Ns mood lightened up. The moment where he placed his hand on her back and gave her advice, that's when she knew he cared about her.
More than the other students, and that boosted her confidence and will to live. As she strode through the castle and to her History of Magic lesson again, she couldn't oversee Hagrid wiping his eyes and sniffling in the corner of the courtyard.
Y/N rushed to him and held her robes up so she wouldn't trip, looking up at him. "Hagrid! What happened?''
"Buckbeak, Y/N.. They're gon' kill 'em."
Y/Ns heart sank. Her hand lowered and she gasped. She was bitter and indifferent toward humans, but animals? Animals stole her heart everytime she saw them, she couldn't help but adore them. And Buckbeak in specific, was an animal she had fell in love with at first sight. Now, she had to see him die? "No, Hagrid! You can't allow this to happen!"
"They're gon' give 'im a hearing, Wednesday i think.", Hagrid sniffled and Y/N sighed, sitting down next to him. Arriving to professor Binns' class wasn't so important anymore. She reached out her hand and pat the half-giants back tenderly. "Do the others know?"
"The others..?"
"Harry, Ron and Hermione i mean."
Hagrid's voice cracked. "Oh, yeh, they know alrigh'. Told me they'll find a way to get Buckbeak back, the ol' boy."
Y/N tried her best to comfort Hagrid, she was terrible at socializing, let alone calming someone down. She stroked and pat the mountain of a mans' back tenderly, trying her best not to make him uncomfortable. "It's because of Draco, all of this. I'll be sure to discipline him...", Y/N growled to herself and Hagrid smiled weakly. "Jus' don' get yerself in trouble, yeh?", he sniffled and nodded.
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The dark thoughts in Y/Ns mind had subsided for a bit, but returned eventually. She felt like a burden to anyone near her at this point, because she didn't want to cry in anyone's shoulder and seem dependent.
No, she wasn't dependent of anyone. She could stay strong, just for a little while.
Professor Binns class was nothing short of fantastically boring - any remotely interesting topic he'd teach, he'd make absolutely sure that no one would be left with an ounce of will to live throughout his class. Y/N tapped her finger against her laminated desk over and over, as nervous thoughts overcame her mind.
"๐ด๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐๐ฃ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ก๐ข๐๐ ๐ก๐, ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ก ๐ฆ๐๐ข๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐.", she remembered Snape's words three nights ago. Could she, though? Was that just an act of false sympathy to make himself seem better, or honest empathy? She felt pathetic for not being able to discern between the two options, she felt it should be clear but she didn't know regardless.
Thank heavens they had Potions after History of Magic, that way, her soul would be put at ease for a tad. As Snape revised Wiggenweld Potion with the rest of the class, Y/Ns eyes lit up.
That was solely because her teachers eyes were on her, not anyone else. He spoke in his usual bitter and rude tone, but what made the difference is that he was looking at her, he ๐๐๐ก๐๐๐๐ her. After the class got to work, Snape sat down at his desk and graded the left over assignments from various students. Y/N sat right in front of him, so it wouldn't be hard to keep an eye on her. Her simmering cauldron emit fumes and steam, a vibrant green colour stirring in her cauldron. Severus curled his lip, proud that he had managed to lighten up Y/Ns mood, even if it was in the slightest. Her eyes weren't puffy and swollen anymore, good.
She hadn't been crying since they spoke that night. Once his favourite student noticed that Neville Longbottom's cauldron was starting to turn white and bubble, she rushed over to him and added a few drops of Honeywater, making the concoction turn a lighter green colour.
"Did you add the mint sprig, and the Mandrake? It's the most essential part, never forget it, Longbottom.", she pat his shoulder and returned to her cauldron. Longbottom just stared as Y/N poured a portion of the cauldron's contents into a vial, and labelled it '๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ค๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐/๐ ๐ฟ/๐' in a cursive handwriting, then placed it on Snape's desk.
The Potions Master curled the corners of his upper lip and took it in his hand, examining the liquid through the vial. Y/N started packing her things together, placing her book and quill neatly inbetween a pile of parchment and books , snapping the golden, serpent-shaped buckle of her white satchel shut and throwing it over her shoulder. With a courteous nod , Y/N exited the Potions classroom. She quickly strode to the Defence against the Dark Arts lesson, in a hurried pace.
She was eager to see what Professor Lupin was like. After having seen 2 excuses of professors in DADA, she hoped this one would be more.. Competent than Quirinus or Gilderoy.
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Remus Lupin welcomed the handful of students with a hearty, warm smile, fidgeting with his patched coat and shuffling his feet. "Welcome, welcome! To your first lesson of Defence against the Dark Arts with me. My name is Professor Lupin, and i shall introduce you to our new subject today. Can anyone tell me what a Boggart looks like?"
Hermione jumped, her hand flew up while Y/N raised her hand slowly. "Ms. Granger?"
"A boggart is a shapeshifter, which takes on the shape of whatever you fear the most. That's what makes them so.." The clever girl trailed off. "Very good, Ms. Granger. Five points to Gryffindor."
Y/N crossed her arms at the points being given to her rival house. "Now, a boggarts worst fear, is laughter. It completely finishes them. Repeat after me: ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ข๐๐ข๐ ."
The class spoke after Lupin, and Malfoy scoffed while clutching his bandaged arm. "This class is ridiculous."
Lupin instructed the class to point their wands at the closet, and say Riddikulus, while thinking of something comical. "Longbottom, step up.", the teacher called up Neville with a smile. With buckling knees, Neville Longbottom stepped in front of the covered closet. "What is your worst fear, Neville?", Lupin inquired and clasped his hands.
"Professor Snape..", the boy whispered.
"Say? I couldn't quite hear you, apologies."
"Professor Snape.", Neville mumbled a bit louder and swallowed : the entire class laughed. Lupin chuckled. "Well, he does seem.. Rather dark, yes. Now, let us begin."
Remus took off the cloak that covered the closet, and Snape stepped out of it. Y/N smiled at the thought of Neville being scared of Snape, her favourite teacher. The gloomy Potions Master strode toward Neville in a menacing manner, and Longbottoms teeth clattered. He held up his wand. "Nice and loud - ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ข๐๐ข๐ .", Lupin reminded him.
"Riddikulus!", Neville sputtered out, and it so seemed that the Head of Slytherin had gained Longbottom's grandmother's stylish garments. Y/N clutched her mouth and grimaced positively, a faint cackling sound escaping the confines of her mouth. The class erupted with laughter, and Remus wasn't hesitant to cackle along heartily.
A bit ๐ก๐๐ hearty, for Y/Ns liking. Something was fishy, no? The professor called up students after the other with a waving hand and cheerful expression. Parvatis' was a snake, Hermione's was McGonagall telling her she failed all her final exams, and Seamus' was a banshee. When the moment came where Remus called for Y/N, the class stopped laughing. Did she even have a fear? Possibly not, but what made them silent is the curiosity of what her boggart would be. Professor Lupin took the cloak off cautiously, and her ๐๐๐กโ๐๐ came out.
The class held their breath.
Her father was different. He didn't walk, he crawled and sprawled across the floor, gasping and wheezing for air. He had chains holding his limbs back and restrained him from moving normally. His face was gaunt, sallow and deformed, scars and wounds adorned all across his face. He had gashes and cuts on his scalp, elbows and wrists, where the chains would tug at his skin. An expression of agony contorted his face, making it hard to look at him. Before the man could come any closer,
Y/N raised her wand wearily. "Riddikulus.", she whispered and instead of something comical happening, the man's chains latched tighter onto his wrists, ankles and knees, earning a deafening shriek from him, and ultimately pulling him back in the closet with a yank, the doors slammed shut.
Remus was speechless, needless to say the whole class. No one was laughing, not the littlest trace of a smile could be detected on anyones face that was in the room. Y/Ns eyes and mouth went dry, and she stepped away from the floor, allowing Harry to come forth. She retreated to the corner of the room, crossing her arms under her chest and shifting her weight onto one hip.
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No one talked to her, or sat with her at dinner.
Y/N hesitantly brought the spoonful of soup to her lips and drank it silently, clasping her hands on the table and slumping her shoulders. Her eyelids were drooping as always.
The shadows that cast upon her face, cheekbones and eye sockets made her look even more menacing than she already was known for.
Blood trickled from the corner of her lips, and down her chin, nobody noticed.
Y/N didn't bother wipe it off as droplets of crimson stained her robes and green tie. A hint of metal tickled her taste buds and flooded the roof of her mouth and tongue, staining well over a portion of her sharp canines red.
Blood accumulated on her gums and teeth, Y/N swallowed it down. She wiped off the blood that was dripping from her lips and chin with a tissue, folding it neatly and stuffing it in the pocket of her coat. She stood up and rose to her feet, striding away from the Great Hall. She wanted to be in the dormitories - and that being right ๐๐๐ค.
But of course, an obstacle couldn't miss.
"Miss L/N, do you not plan on seating yourself at the table and ๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ for once?", Snapes silky, deep voice echoed in the corridor and Y/Ns chest heaved. She relaxed her sharp, black eyes and raised her upper lip.
"I don't feel hungry at the moment, professor."
Snape scowled. "It is unwise to do so. Why are you so stubborn, L/N?"
Y/N remained silent, pursed her lips and tilted her head. "It's part of my character.", she added with lifted eyebrows.
"One more thing - Why are there ๐ค๐๐๐ stains on your robes?", he muttered and looked down to the blotches of dry wine bฬถlฬถoฬถoฬถdฬถ on Y/Ns shirt.
"No sir - that is my blood."
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After grabbing her by the wrist, he dragged her to a corner in the main corridors and bent slightly down to her level. He didn't have to bend too much, since Y/N was quite tall for her age.
"First and foremost, whatever in Merlin's name happened, L/N?", Snape asked with a hint of disappointment and anger in his dead eyes. Like an upset father. Y/Ns eyes glinted.
"I just bit the flesh of my cheek and cut myself, professor.", she muttered in a quiet yet calm tone and tugged at the thin, silver chain that was wrapped snugly around the base of her neck. "Don't ๐๐๐ to me, Miss L/N."
She cracked her knuckles and exhaled a breath, which she held for what felt like an eternity. "I am nervous often, sir. I do not wish to get too personal, but things aren't going marvelous in my household.", she elaborated shortly and turned her face away from her Potions Master, in shame. Snapes's eyes softened, yet hardened and straightened immediately, stiffening his shoulders.
"I see," he acknowledged dullly and beckoned for Y/N to sit down next to him, on a stone bench inbetween 2 pillars. Y/N plopped down with a pained sigh, she felt her throat stinging from the inside. "You most definitely haven't noticed this, L/N, but I do not wish you harm in any way.", Snape admit in almost a whisper.
Y/N was a tad shocked he'd dare gather the courage to say something so meaningful to a student, but she brushed it off. Fury tainted her eyes. Her, not notice that her Head of House and favourite teacher, doesn't mean any harm? Who did he take her as, a fool?
"Surely you see me as no idiot, yes professor?", she said softly and traced the outline of her 12 inch long wand with her index finger, her shoulders slackened. Severus' upper lip curled, and his eyes focused.
"Only a dunce himself would mistake you for a fool, Miss L/N. Your intelligence outmatches many, and your maturity and patience are surely, anything but ordinary. You must have noticed, since you claim not to be a fool?", he stated factually and silkily, pitching his voice higher at the end of the inquiry. "I never said I am ๐๐๐ก a fool, sir. I only asked you for your opinion on that claim. By the look of it, you don't seem to think it."
Snape gave a curt nod and leaned his head to the left slightly. "Sir-", Y/N started, only now noticing that the clasp of her chain had disconnected from a ring. Snape raised his head, and looked over to her in acknowledgement. "Do you mind? I don't see quite well.", she pointed to the fastener of her jewellery. Snape gave a reluctant nod, reaching for the fastener of her silver chain and pulling his thumb down on the miniature hook, attempting to connect it to the ring.
His rough knuckles brushed and tickled her neck, making Y/N shift. Snape grumbled.
"Don't squirm, I won't see what I'm doing. If you don't mind me asking, where did you acquire this chain?"
L/N was hesitant to reply. "From my father, family heirloom." Severus pushed his chin to his chest in a curious manner and raised a brow. "Is that so? A chain, a family heirloom?", he asked again. "Indeed. I find it strange too, but taking it off would be an insult to my father's memory. Heavens, I should stop talking about him..", Y/N heaved and her eyes sprawled across the dark corridor. Now did she only realize, she was in a dark and secluded area of the castle at night, with Professor Snape fumbling around on her jewellery and sitting extremely close next to her. She swallowed the lump in her throat and Snape fixed the chain at last. "Here you go, and don't thank me.", Severus stated blankly and tucked his robes together. Y/N curled her lips upward in the slightest, and nodded courteously.
"Can you cast a patronus, professor?", she asked out of nowhere. The space between the professors bushy eyebrows decreased and wrinkled. "And pray tell, what makes you ask such a thing, Miss L/N?"
"I'm just curious, I thought it wouldn't be too offensive or personal. I apologize in advan-" , she waved her hands as she was cut off by her Potions Master. "Don't apologize, nor thank me, because i know i won't. Yes, I can produce a Patronus charm."
Y/N pursed her lips, "That was.. Blunt and quick, i liked it."
Half a minute of silence swept upon pupil and professor, before the girl broke the silence. "Do I.. Come off as bothersome, professor? I apol-... I do not want to come off as attention-seeking, that is not my intention. I am merely curious.", she blurted and Severus curled his lip. Hesitantly, he replied with a sigh.
"As much as I regret to admit this, I cannot deny that i find your presence quite gratifying, L/N."
Y/Ns eyes gleamed with happiness. Did she just get ๐กโ๐ professor Severus Snape, of Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry, to confess a tinge of affection? She quickly snapped back to reality and cleared her throat. "I would be lying gravely if I disagreed, professor." she added with a trace of a smile.
"By the way, what is your Patronus? A bat?", she added with a hint of light sarcasm, and Severus grumbled. "Contrary to popular belief, no. My Patronus takes the shape of a doe, Miss L/N."
Y/N was proud of herself for having thought of a cute animal for Snape. It fit him, somehow. "A doe? Quite interesting, i must say. Mine is a thestral."
Professor Snape lifted his eyebrows immediately. "You know how to produce a Patronus charm, L/N?", he asked softly. "Oh, I've only done it once, what do i know.", she downplayed the implied compliment and shock of her Potions Master.
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As for the next day, Y/N was on a much better note all because of last night. It really did go to show how just by talking to someone, you can make their day. She lazily grabbed the handle of the door to the Defence against the Dark Arts classroom. Upon arrival, she saw that her favourite teacher was sitting at the desk. No, not Remus Lupin.
Severus Snape. She sat down without a word and furrowed her lips to the right. "Sir?", she tried to clain his attention. Severus gave a curt nod as he graded assignments with his quill. "How come professor Lupin is absent?"
"Professor Lupin finds himself to be incapable of teaching at the time, L/N. I will be the substitute for today.", he replied monotonously. "Oh, he's ill, right." Y/N mumbled to herself. She had a little of a clue what Lupins sickness would be.
As the class began and all students arrived, Snape pulled down the blinds. Harry interrupted him rudely as he came 10 minutes late, asking him where Lupin was.
"As I was saying before Potter interrupted, Professor Lupin has not left any record of the topics you have covered so far --"
"Please, sir, we've done boggarts, Red Caps, kappas, and grindylows," said Hermione quickly, "and we're just about to start --"
"Be quiet," said Snape coldly. "I did not ask for information. I was merely commenting on Professor Lupin's lack of organization."
"He's the best Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher we've ever had," said Dean Thomas boldly, and there was a murmur of agreement from the rest of the class. Snape looked more menacing than ever. "You are easily satisfied. Lupin is hardly overtaxing you -- I, would expect first years to be able to deal with Red Caps and grindylows. Today we shall discuss --" Harry watched him flick through the textbook, to the very back chapter, which he must know they hadn't covered.
"Werewolves," said Snape. "But, sir," said Hermione, seemingly unable to restrain herself, "we're not supposed to do werewolves yet, we're due to start hinkypunks --"
"Miss Granger," said Snape in a voice of deadly calm, "I was under the impression that I am teaching this lesson, not you. And I am telling you all to turn to page 394." He glanced around again. 'All of you! Now!" With many bitter sidelong looks and some sullen muttering, the class opened their books.
"Which of you can tell me how we distinguish between the werewolf and the true wolf?" said Snape. Everyone sat in motionless silence; everyone except Hermione, whose hand, as it so often did, had shot straight into the air.
Y/N was too busy glaring at Hermione to raise her hand.
"Anyone?" Snape said, ignoring Hermione. His twisted smile was back. "Are you telling me that Professor Lupin hasn't even taught you the basic distinction between --"
"We told you," said Parvati suddenly, "we haven't got as far as werewolves yet, we're still on --"
"Silence!" snarled Snape. "Well, well, well, I never thought I'd meet a third-year class who wouldn't even recognize a werewolf when they saw one. I shall make a point of informing Professor Dumbledore how very behind you all are--"
Y/Ns hand shot up, she turned pink from embarassment because she didn't notice she wasn't raising her hand when she meant to.
Snape raised a bushy eyebrow.
"Oh? I believe we have someone ๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ก in this class. Miss L/N, go ahead.", he commented and gave a nod of his head.
"A Wolf is a carnivorous animal that belongs to the Canidae family. It is considered the largest among wild dogs. Meanwhile, a werewolf is an, otherwise, human affected by lycanthropy, which transforms into a hybrid of a wolf and human once every full moon."
, Y/N explained factually and softly. Snape's eyes glinted. The Gryffindor side of the class were groaning and muttering. "Here goes Snape's pet..", Ron whispered and Hermione shushed him. "Exactly. 10 points to Slytherin."
Y/N shrugged at Hermione as they stared at each other, Snape carried on with the lesson.
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Draco had just done something stupid, which cost them 10 precious House Points.
"You-blundering-fool-you-egotistical-dunce-you-sanctimonious-fool-of-a-child!" Y/N said inbetween smacks on Malfoys head. She panted out and hurled shrilly, prodding the now ashamed boy in the chest.
"What were you ๐กโ๐๐๐๐๐๐, you meek excuse of a boy?! I can smell Weasley's grin from three miles away!"
Malfoy simply lowered his chin and his cheeks flared pink in embarassment. "Calm down, L/N, it's not that ba-"
"NOT THAT BAD? DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF!", Y/N howled. She may have been over reacting, but she always took loss and triumph of house points seriously. She always had to win, whatever competition it was.
The girl kept scolding the shorter, and smaller, blonde boy repetitively, and stopped after somewhile. She exhaled deeply and muttered something under her breath.
"I'll be in the library.", she stormed off and headed to the home of books. The girl wondered why Hermione hadn't come to Charms class. Well, she did also simply walk out of Divination with Professor Trelawney. Something was up with Granger, but she couldn't put her finger on what it was. Surely she'd want to apologize to Flitwick and Trelawney?
As she made her way to the grand library, Y/N couldn't help but notice the wide-open office door that belonged to none other than Professor Lupin. But that wasn't what caught her attention. She saw the drawer labelled '๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ก๐๐' open, and saw a plain map poking out of it. It seemed like a blank sheet of parchment, what could be so dangerous about it?
Regretfully, she snuck in Remus' office and snatched the empty map out of the drawer, tucking a blank sheet of parchment back in to make it seem like she took nothing. Y/N felt guilty for taking something that didn't belong to her, but she'd take any risk for her curiosity to be satisfied. She tucked the map inbetween her robes and strode to her desired destination.
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Y/N was seated at a secluded corner inbetween the many shelves of ancient books that contained centuries of shared wisdom. Carefully, she took out the map from her green and gray robes, and tapped her wand with it. One time, two times, three times, four times, one after the other. But none worked.
She looked around and flipped the map over, to see if there were any hidden clues on how to open it. Or was this just a Zonko product? Before the curious girl knew it, she had spent all night trying to unravel the secrets of the map.
This was hopeless, she thought. But she remembered eavesdropping on the Weasley twins and Harry, when he wasn't allowed to go to Hogsmeade because of his permission form. The three had a little chat.. Something about Mischief and Up to no good.
Then it clicked in Y/Ns brain. Yes!
"I solemnly swear that i am up to no good," the girl whispered and the map started to form a red blotch in the centre. The title started to form words and letters, and there was the castle to be seen on the main page. ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ฆ, ๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ก ๐กโ๐ ๐๐ด๐ ๐ด๐๐ท๐ธ๐ ๐ ๐๐ด๐, it read. Y/N was astonished at this curious piece of magic. She opened the parchment, and gasped.
A map of the entire layout of Hogwarts was painted in ink, and black little footsteps were moving, fading and appearing. A grin graced the thirteen year old's face, like a child finding a piece of candy. There were names written above the footsteps. For example, Hermione Jean Granger and Ronald Bilius Weasley. Harry James Potter was next to them, and Draco Lucius Malfoy was sat in the dungeons. Of course, she recognised all of them. This map showed everyone, everywhere in Hogwarts, and where they were moving.
Extraordinary indeed!
As her eyes travelled to the Whomping Willow, her heart sank.
Sirius Black, was sitting in the Whomping Willow.
The mass murderer was in the outskirts of Hogwarts. Should she alert the staff? Wait, who was that next to Ron? Peter Oliver Pettigrew? Y/N had no clue who that man was, by the name.
The lit candle's hot flame flickered, and Y/N turned her black eyes over to her own name. F/N M/N L/N, sat in the library. she crossed her legs and looked over the map intently. Minerva McGonagall and Filius Flitwick were in the staffroom. Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore was sat in the Headmaster's office, and Pomona Sprout was in the Greenhouses.
Severus Snape skulked around the dungeons, pacing back and forth in his personal stores. Y/N smiled.
Though her smile faded just as quickly as it appeared, as she spotted Hermione, Ron and Harry advancing rapidly toward the Whomping Willow on the map.
She jumped out of her seat and dashed like a leopard out of the library with significant urgency in her eyes, her long hair tossed and flew wildly in the breeze of her urgent sprint. Though it was too late.
As she crawled inside the whomping willow with cuts and gashes on her face, because of the tree's moving branches, it was too late.
She found herself face-to-face with Lupin, Black, Ron, Hermione and Harry. Y/N froze and her chest rose and fell.
Ron squealed breathily. "Y/N?"
"Y/N!", Hermione gasped and took her wrist, pulling her beside her.
"Who is this girl?", snarled Black and Lupin staggered. "My student. Well well, L/N, how in heavens name did you find us here?", he bit back and Y/N growled, taking stance. "The map, you know which. I demand to know what is going on."
, she barked and pushed the trio behind her. Lupin continued explaining the backstory of Black and him, while keeping the trio safe behind her back. She leaned her head forward and kept a vicious, menacing glare at the two men.
As Lupin continued to elaborate, Harry made a tiny noise of comprehension. "So that's why Snape doesn't like you," said Harry slowly, "because he thought you were in on the joke?"
"That's right," sneered a cold voice from the wall behind Lupin. Severus Snape was pulling off the Invisibility Cloak, his wand pointing directly at Lupin. Hermione screamed. Black leapt to his feet.
Y/N felt as though she'd received a huge electric shock. "I found this at the base of the Whomping Willow," said Snape, throwing the cloak aside, careful to keep this wand pointing directly at Lupin's chest.
"Very useful, Potter, I thank you...."
Snape was slightly breathless, but his face was full of suppressed triumph. "You're wondering, perhaps, how I knew you were here?" he said, his eyes glittering.
"I've just been to your office, Lupin. You forgot to take your potion tonight, so I took a gobletful along. And very lucky I did... lucky for me, I mean. Lying on your desk was a certain map. One glance at it told me all I needed to know. I saw you running along this passageway and out of sight."
"Severus --" Lupin began, but Snape overrode him. "I've told the headmaster again and again that you're helping your old friend Black into the castle, Lupin, and here's the proof. Not even I dreamed you would have the nerve to use this old place as your hideout--"
"Severus, you're making a mistake," said Lupin urgently. "You haven't heard everything -- I can explain -- Sirius is not here to kill Harry--"
"Two more for Azkaban tonight," said Snape, his eyes now gleaming fanatically. "I shall be interested to see how Dumbledore takes this.... He was quite convinced you were harmless, you know, Lupin... a tame werewolf --"
"You fool," said Lupin softly. "Is a schoolboy grudge worth putting an innocent man back inside Azkaban?"
BANG! Thin, snakelike cords burst from the end of Snape's wand and twisted themselves around Lupin's mouth, wrists, and ankles; he overbalanced and fell to the floor, unable to move. With a roar of rage, Black started toward Snape, but Snape pointed his wand straight between Black's eyes. "Give me a reason," he whispered. "Give me a reason to do it, and I swear I will."
Black stopped dead. It would have been impossible to say which face showed more hatred. Y/N and Harry stood there, paralyzed, not knowing what to do or whom to believe. They glanced around at Ron and Hermione. Ron looked just as confused as he did, still fighting to keep hold on the struggling Scabbers.
Hermione, however, took an uncertain step toward Snape and said, in a very breathless voice, "Professor Snape -- it it wouldn't hurt to hear what they've got to say, w -- would it?" "Miss Granger, you are already facing suspension from this school," Snape spat.
"You, Potter, L/N and Weasley are out-of-bounds, in the company of a convicted murderer and a werewolf. For once in your life, hold your tongue."
Hermione fell silent.
"Vengeance is very sweet," Snape breathed at Black. "How I hoped I would be the one to catch you...."
"The joke's on you again, Severus," Black snarled. "As long as this boy brings his rat up to the castle" -- he jerked his head at Ron -- "I'll come quietly...."
"Up to the castle?" said Snape silkily. "I don't think we need to go that far. All I have to do is call the dementors once we get out of the Willow. They'll be very pleased to see you, Black... pleased enough to give you a little kiss, I daresay... I --"
What little color there was in Blacks face left it.
"You -you've got to hear me out," he croaked.
"The rat -- look at the rat --" But there was a mad glint in Snape's eyes that Harry had never seen before. He seemed beyond reason. "Come on, all of you," he said. He clicked his fingers, and the ends of the cords that bound Lupin flew to his hands.
"I'll drag the werewolf. Perhaps the dementors will have a kiss for him too --"Before he knew what he was doing, Harry had crossed the room in three strides and blocked the door. "Get out of the way, Potter, you're in enough trouble already," snarled Snape. "If I hadn't been here to save your skin --"
"Professor Lupin could have killed me about a hundred times this year," Harry said. "I've been alone with him loads of times, having defense lessons against the dementors. If he was helping Black, why didn't he just finish me off then?"
"Don't ask me to fathom the way a werewolf's mind works," hissed Snape. "Get out of the way, Potter."
"YOURE PATHETIC!" Harry yelled. "JUST BECAUSE THEY MADE A FOOL OF YOU AT SCHOOL YOU WON'T EVEN LISTEN --"
"SILENCE! I WILL NOT BE SPOKEN TO LIKE THAT!" Snape shrieked, looking madder than ever.
"Like father, like son, Potter! I have just saved your neck; you should be thanking me on bended knee! You would have been well served if he'd killed you! You'd have died like your father, too arrogant to believe you might be mistaken in Black -- now get out of the way, or I will make you. GET OUT OF THE WAY, POTTER!"
Harry made up his mind in a split second. Before Snape could take even one step toward him, he had raised his wand. "Expelliarmus!" he yelled -- except that his wasn't the only voice that shouted.
There was a blast that made the door rattle on its hinges; Snape was lifted off his feet and slammed into the wall, then slid down it to the floor, a trickle of blood oozing from under his hair. He had been knocked out. Harry looked around. Both Ron and Hermione had tried to disarm Snape at exactly the same moment. Snape's wand soared in a high arc and landed on the bed next to Crookshanks.
"YOU BLUNDERING FOOLS! To the devil with this, i am OUT!", roared Y/N and threw Snape's lifeless body over her firm shoulder with a grunt and a groan. Harry tried to stun her, but Y/N narrowly escaped by crawling out of the hole.
"Y/N!", Hermione cried out. Ron shook his head and clung to Hermione. Y/N didn't rush to the infirmary, instead, she rumbled in between her robes.
She was always very anxious, so she'd always have a vial of properly-brewed Wiggenweld tucked in. She slipped the bottle out and huffed, a bead of sweat dripped down her forehead as the gashes bled and trickled down her face like a river of smudged crimson. She layed Snape down and poured the contents of the green vial down his throat, after parting his lips. She wriggled around his robes after remembering he had said he got a vial of Wolfsbane he hadn't given Lupin yet.
Y/N was out of breath, exhausted and injured as she crawled back up the burrow of the Willow and gasped out. "Give it to Lupin, now! The potion- must be administered before- full moon!", she wheezed shrilly and threw the vial of Wolfsbane over to Harry. Harry, in a wave of shock, staggered over to the almost transformed Lupin, which had already lost part of his sanity. He bit Harry's hand gravely, and Harry yelled out, dropping the vial from his hands.
Hermione stumbled and grabbed the vial, tipping the cap over and pouring - rather throwing - more than half of it into Lupin's half transformed, large mouth. The hybrid roared and clawed at Hermione, which made her fall back and shriek in pain. Ron, who was behind her at the moment, groaned in pain as the girl fell square on his chest, making a cracking sound. Y/N cringed and shivered, grabbing Hermione, Ron, Harry and Sirius' wrists.
"Out, you four! OUT!", she bellowed and dragged them outside of the Shrieking Shack. The four of them plummeted to the ground, bloodied and bruised. Hermione rose to her feet and grabbed ahold of Ronalds wrist, who were both badly injured.
"Y/N, are you going to come with us? To the infirmary? Bring Snape if you will,", she wheezed and coughed. Y/N shook her head fiercely, sitting beside Snape cross-legged. "I'll be waiting until he wakes up, i gave him Wiggenweld. You two go."
She watched as Hermione nodded, and the two of them scurried back to the castle, limping. Harry and Sirius were wandering off to talk to eachother, while Y/N was left alone with Snape.
She sat under the moon light, face tainted with blood and cuts. Shrieks and howls could be heard from the Shack, it was Lupin. Y/N clutched her heart in pain, knowing what poor Lupin had to go through. The girl grabbed a handkerchief and bandages, pressing the handkerchief under his hair, where his gash would be oozing blood. Snape stirred, and he coughed. Y/N was startled slightly, but kept cleaning the gash.
"Professor, you're awake."
"Where are the others? Weasley, Black? Granger, Lupin, Potter?", Severus breathed out and sat up. Y/N clicked her tongue and shook her head.
"Stop moving, sir, i can't see where the cut is. Granger and Weasley are headed for the infirmary, and Black and Harry are having a little chat. Lupin's in the shack, if you hear."
Remus' screams and animalistic howls were echoing from under the Whomping Willow, and Snape stood still.
"Why are you-- What are you doing, L/N?", he coughed and Y/N sighed.
"Assisting and tending to your wounds.", she said gently while wrapping a bandage under Snape's hair. "You have worse injuries, don't worry about--"
Y/N cut him off with a scolding glare, and Snape looked away from her, allowing her to tend to his cut.
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About two weeks later, the injuries that Y/N had suffered, gave her a scar across her left eye and bottom lip.
She was heading to the Great Hall for the End-Of-Year feast, dressed in a white tank top with baroque font. ๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐ โ๐๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐ was written across her chest. Her forehead and wrists were bandaged, making her hair look more voluminous as it was wrapped under her hairline.
Y/Ns tank top had the sleeves cut off, so you could see her lean and toned arms and defined, firm shoulders quite well. Her boots clicked on the floor as she strode, swinging her bare arms from side to side.
The outer corner of her eyes were discolored, making them look sharper and more intimidating.
With a loud bang, the doors of the Great Hall opened, and several students mumbled and marveled at the figure. Y/Ns scars and arms attracted many students' and staffs' attention.
Fred Weasley leaned over to whisper something to Lee Jordan, that made Ginny smack him across his head. Y/N coolly sat down next to a bewildered Malfoy at the greentable and grunted.
"Pardon my tardiness, what have i missed?"
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The summer vacations were going as usual for Snape. He was sat in his sofa in Spinner's End, reading a book and sipping his warm tea. But, the boring silence was disrupted when he saw a red-tailed hawk fly by and skid to a halt at Snape's window.
That's weird, Snape thought. He had never gotten a letter that wasn't Hogwarts-related. He knew so, because Dumbledore never sent a hawk before.
The bird held an envelope in its vibrant, yellow, clawed talons and nudged its head for Severus to take it. He slipped out the letter from the birds talon, and the animal clattered its sharp beak in response. Within a matter of seconds, it flapped its large wings and took off like a rocket. Snape sat back down and looked at the back of the letter.
๐น๐๐๐:
๐บ๐๐๐๐๐'๐ ๐ป๐๐๐๐๐ค, ๐๐. 7
๐น/๐ ๐/๐ ๐ฟ/๐
๐ด๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐ก๐:
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐'๐ ๐ธ๐๐, ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ค๐๐๐กโ
๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐๐๐๐
He tore the envelope open with curled lips. He didn't know how Y/N had managed to find out where his childhood home was, but he was curious as to why she wrote to him.
๐บ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฟ/๐,
๐ผ โ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐คโ๐๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐, ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐โ๐๐ข๐โ ๐๐๐ค ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐๐๐๐ค ๐๐ ๐ค๐๐๐, ๐ ๐ ๐กโ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ผ ๐ค๐๐ โ ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐ค๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ฆ. ๐ป๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐ฃ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ฃ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ค๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐, ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ก. ๐ผ โ๐๐๐ ๐ค๐ ๐ค๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐กโ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐.
๐ต๐๐ ๐ก ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ , ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐๐๐๐.
Was written in an eloquent handwriting. Of course, it was Y/N.
Severus smirked and took the two vials of green liquid out of the envelope, placing them with great care on a shelf. No one had cared this much about him, aside from Lily Evans. He liked this student.
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