July 7- Yea, I know I haven’t written in a while.
I know this is very belated, and I owe many pictures and many stories, but honestly, Japanese education is on such a different level that it may be the end of the semester before I get back into this regularly.Â
Some of this is pretty blunt, so if you’re not ready for that, wait til the next episode when I return to cute pictures and adventure times from the past few months. This is honestly more for the people back home in the US than it is anyone else, because it’s a frustrated rant.
I’ve realized a few things on this trip. A) I value education and being a part of that community is what makes me happy, even if I’m frustrated and want to flip a table. B) Not many people get that, at least as far as I know.
Japanese education is very different from what I’m used to back in the states. We have Japanese class daily, with it taking up 6 class periods per week. That means I’m in Japanese-spoken only classes for 9 hours a week, which can be exhausting. I’ve learned a ton of Japanese in this time, but holy cow, it is intense. On top of culture classes, it can be a bit hectic to get through the week.
My culture classes consist of three classes: Japanese Women’s Lit, Pre-Modern History, and Classical Dance. The Lit class is about 50% Lit, 50% contemporary social issues because that’s just what we feel like talking about. It’s actually been a really great insight into culture and how similar Japan is to the things I find scary about America. I hope to take a class with the teacher again next semester, because she’s an amazingly smart person and funny. She’s very outspokenly anti-Chinese politics after leaving behind her Chinese citizenship, which leads to some great discussions.
Pre-Modern History has really affirmed my enjoyment of non-Western history. Though it’s promarily a self-taught class, it’s really been interesting to get more of a perspective of history than ‘Heian’ and ‘Edo’ which is all that I had really gotten any form of lecture on before this semester. I have a lecture tomorrow on Edo Period and the differences between samurai in real life and in fictional stories. I’m pretty excited to give it, even though I was told I shouldn’t make it 20 minutes (the length asked for by the teacher) and that I should not go on about it. I know it wasn’t meant to be harsh in context, but I can’t really help but walk away from that conversation feeling like I’m somehow an inconvenience to class getting out 45 minutes early.
This is sort of where I find myself being the odd person out, which is fine to me, but it’s made me miss a lot of things from back home. I miss the friendship bonds that are so close that you consider each other family and send love and cakes and break-falls on your birthdays. I wanted to make at least one of those bonds here, but that’s just not happening. Friendship here even among the international students seems to be treated as something fleeting and temporary, even if you have similar interests and get along well.Â
There’s little to no support of one another’s ideals and passions, which honestly is the fucking worst of it. Squashing someone else’s dreams and happiness is honestly my worst pet peeve, and feels like it happens all the time here. It’s frustrating as hell and that’s where I start to notice my age. 4+ years is a big enough difference that I’m starting to notice just how much growing up you do after you leave college, no matter what your circumstance. I really don’t fit in with the age group below me, and I’m really starting to be fine with that. I’d rather fund other people’s happiness and receive support in return for it. Maybe that’s why I don’t fit in around here, but oh well. Summer is coming, which means people are going home and I’m staying here for another semester. I’m looking forward to a lighter course load and more time for me and what I enjoy.















