Give me a bitter glory.

PARK JIMIN BTS - Normal (Explicit ver.), 2026

DIOR Global Ambassador JIMIN, attending Dior Men's Summer 27 show at Paris Fashion Week.

(Spoilers below)

The whole drama was great. I loved the performances of the main leads, loved the plot and support characters, the script, camera etc. I am a fan of projects that are subtle and leave the viewer to decide what is happening based on their own expereinces/fantasy. It is what an art should be doing in my humble opinion. And in that case I wasn't disappointed.

However, I had to look up the definition of BL after watching it. Based on Wikipedia it "focuses on romantic or intimate relationships between male characters". And meanwhile I am fully on board with filling up the lines, this show simply doesn't do it for me in that sense.

All of 8 episodes I felt the love the characters had for each other. But love has so many shapes and I totally agree with the OP that it was kinda vibe of friendly/familial type of love than romantic or intimate. If I really wanted to get into the romance, well, I think I would need season 2 where they dive into either romance or intimacy. Because this season feels like a foreplay if we want to go by the BL marketing. The potential is there but feels incredibly weak.

I'm never the best friend,

I'm never the one someone falls in love with,

I'm never the best at school, college, university,

I'm never the funniest person,

I'm never the most entertaining person,

I'm never the person someone tells a story first,

I'm never the one who gets prioritized first,

I'm always the person who you can found in corner in every party,

That kind of loneliness cuts deep. It’s not just being alone, it’s feeling unloved. Feeling like there isn’t anyone who would be affected if you disappeared, like your presence doesn’t really change anything. When those thoughts settle in, they can make everything feel heavy and distant, like you are watching the world from far away without really belonging in it.

You might start wondering what’s wrong with you. Why it seems so easy for others to be cared for, while you feel overlooked. Why no one seems to choose you, notice you, or hold onto you. It can make your chest ache in a quiet way, like you are carrying this invisible hurt that no one else sees.

If you are feeling this right now, I’m really sorry it hurts this much. Feeling unloved is one of the heaviest feelings to sit with. It can make you want to withdraw even more, to stop trying, to stop hoping, just to protect yourself from the disappointment.

But even in that loneliness, your need for love is still there, soft and human. Wanting to be cared for doesn’t make you needy. Wanting someone to notice you doesn’t make you weak. It just means you are someone who longs for connection, warmth, and reassurance, things everyone deserves.

For now, be gentle with yourself in this space. You don’t have to force yourself to believe anything different right away. Just let yourself be held by quiet, small comforts: a blanket, a calm moment, something steady. Even if it feels like no one else is holding you, you can still give yourself that softness.

I also want to give a shoutout to those who have lost their mother/mother figure. Loss is hard and it can be traumatic and if Mother’s Day brings up bad feelings for you, you are so valid.