somewhere in the shadows

no, I totally get it. I adore my fans. love being on stage and living my dreams out loud. but sometimes I stare at my day planner with a blank expression, hoping I can will a proper vacation for myself. one that's at least two weeks minimum. maybe if we gang up on this exhaustion we'll win.

I'm definitely used to it, I'm just sort of bitching to bitch, if that makes a wink of sense. A holiday would eat right about now, I'm not going to lie to you. I just want to be able to sleep for at least 38 hours straight. That would be the dream.

10? wow that is a lot of different places to go in in such a short amount of time. do you at least get to see some of the slights of this places or is it all work and no play?

I got to go hang out at the beach in Puerto Rico, and it was my first time there so I was actually pretty jazzed about the whole thing! But I love the beach, so it's no shock that I was there.

That's pretty much what happens. Ten countries in a few months? You need to slow down. And yes, this is coming from someone who also stacks projects like it’s a sport, but burnout is real, and it sneaks up on you exactly like this. When was the last time you actually rested and didn’t just call it rest while still answering emails or doing ten other things? Because that doesn’t count. Start small. One day, when you’re not 'on' for anyone. Just exist. Eat something good, sleep more than you think you need, and go off the grid for a bit.

I've told my manager that I needed a break, so I think I'm clearing my schedule up just a little bit. But I love meeting fans so I try to be accommodating as much asI'm able to.

mate, i have no idea how you travel as much as you do, since i'm pretty sure just traveling to a few places will have me wanting a ten year nap. on the plus side though, lots of sights to see and food to try. and coffee, a lot of that. do you want me to send you a coffee iv? i feel like that'd be helpful. though i don't know why birmingham isn't on your list when you're traveling so much, why you haven't come to see me!

charlie, when i tell you i am consistently exhausted... i mean it. but i'll do it for the fans, they're a riot, mate. they're just so kind and crazy and delightful all at the same time. i might need the coffee drip. shall i drive the two hours to you in order to get it? is this how i'm bribed?

been there and unfortunately have done that. from lagos to london to new york and back again with a few more cities in between. I'm exhausted!! I just want to crash into a marshmallow shaped bed and never leave. maybe drink a few electrolytes also.

don't get me wrong, i'm having a blast visiting so many fans and goin' to these fan conventions, but i am fully drained. i get about a week and some change of a break before i have to book it to finland, and then to hong kong, then i think germany? bloody hell, i am ready for a proper nap.