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Maybe I feel like I'm only worthy if I am wanted and the easiest way to be wanted is for someone to lust after me and I find safety in this exchange even though it ultimately leaves me disappointed and hurt.

I was exposed to explicit media and then had various traumatizing events take place between the ages of 5 and 13. I was never good at making friends and that could be the dysregulated home I came from, the suspected audhd and definitely the bipolar disorder.

I've gone through therapy on and off, I worked on the cptsd with EMDR which was the most helpful in tackling some of the chronic shame from CSA. I'm sure I could use more and it would be more helpful than venting on the Internet but finding a good therapist within the realms of insurance has been difficult.

Fluctuating between chronic shame and self awareness I suspect the problem maybe within me and mind and how I relate or dont relate to others.

It seems like a red flag to advertise "Hey, I'm looking to make friends that arent solely interested in the chance of pursuing s-xual relationships" because I imagine, for most people, that isn't a problem and comes naturally.

Okay so you see the problem with the plate on the right is I started the middle by painting in the hills and then drew the lady crotch up right? But then I ran out of room for her head because I have bad visual planning skills and now shes just like that

My best friend's birthday card by me

Dream lunt rotation