So to be totally honest I am *thrilled* to get rid of 2018⌠But I figure itâs time to honor the few major highlights and the people (the ones I can tag on here at least) that helped me survive the hell yearâŚ
So without further ado-some highlights of my 2018:
January: Coming to terms with being bisexual and consequently my first couple times coming out. It wasnât the first time Iâd considered my sexuality but it was the time I finally decided to accept it despite what it meant in regards to my family and how I was raised
February: Joining a kpop dance group at my college (after refusing my friends for about a full year) that has helped me form some of the closest friendships I now have and teaching me to be more self confident and brave
March: I underwent so much turmoil this month⌠from leaving a group that took up a majority of my life for a while and the resulting losing a plethora of people I once considered to be friends⌠to hearing terrifying news that would traumatize me to this day⌠It was a hell month. BUT it gave me a chance to overcome these things. I worked to move on from my toxic friends⌠I worked on overcoming that trauma and push past it⌠Iâm not perfect with either but Iâm damn proud of how strong Iâve become
May: My college friends threw me a surprise birthday party and honestly that meant the world to me
June-August: The hell months that were nothing but absolute misery⌠But like March I cannot help but be insanely proud that I overcame them
September: Things started to look up as I went back to school and I secured closer friendships and started taking more time for myself
October: I got to see BTS in concert⌠My friends all said it was well deserved because of all the ordeals I had suffered that summer but I know that from now on itâs a memory Iâll carry with me that I can use the next time I have a panic attack or feel overwhelmed or like things wonât be ok. I breathed the same air as BTS. I heard them sing two of my favorite songs live and I got to hear the song that brought me into the fandom in the first place. One of the best days of my entire life. I also taught my first dance piece for the korean org and it went AMAZING!
November-December: I made my first film and itâs actually pretty good! Jungkook would be proud!!! But overall, I worked hard and I dealt with stress and I made myself proud. And maybe thatâs all that matters. My biggest takeaway from this year is that Iâve struggled like I never have before but I made myself proud because I perservered.
Of course I couldnât have made it through without my incredible friends who helped me every step of the way~
@alianovnaplisetsky wow your url never gets easier⌠Youâre my little sis and I couldnât live my life without you⌠I canât wait to see what amazing things you do in 2019 and I am so excited to be able to watch you grow into someone incredible
@jjksmanggaettok hey you⌠tbh idk what to say other than I love you⌠youâre always there for me and I donât know that I could have done ANYTHING this year without your constant support. Youâre the best. My seoulmate.
@donottouchmeyoumuggle yooooooo mel idk what to say to you either lmao⌠youâre always there for me to vent to, the reason I smile goofily at my phone, and one day I hope we actually get to hug and eat jalapeĂąo chips⌠letâs make this happen in 2019???
@lucrew987 letâs keep getting closer and bothering mel haha youâre so much fun to talk to and ily lots too!
@supermassiveaccio WE DONT TALK A LOT AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH! But per normal youâre one of my fav ppl and I love you a lot (also Iâm caught up on the SNK manga so we NEED TO TALK)
@riplizz we donât talk a lot and that makes me sad but I love you and Iâm always watching from a far (that sounds creepy Iâm sorry lmao)
@kpopluvwriter I reached out to you at a really low point and you helped me through it and now Iâd like to think weâre friends. Iâm always here if you need and youâre the sweetest for always being so kind to me!
@golddustphan Honestly our conversations never fail to make me smile. Youâre teaching me so much and one of the kindest people I know.
@listen-away we donât talk a lot right now but you were a huge part of my 2018 and ily a lot!
@i-justanothergirl-blog LIL SIS honestly if you read my year summary youâll understand why we became so close-but even beyond the tickets youâre someone I really appreciate having in my life⌠youâre a huge cheerleader and the sweetest person⌠you also have a talent for tagging me in a Jungkook post just when I need it most
@ishqiya thanks for being patient with me but we do also have a lotta fun haha our conversations are never boring
And of course to my lovely purple heart anon who put a smile on my face at some of my toughest moments
Iâm sure there are some people I forgot-and I am sorry-just dm me to yell at my dumb self lol
Happy new year my lovely friends! Hereâs to hoping Iâm less of a wreck this year and that we can have more fun!!!