still standing

it turns out that making big positive changes in your life is great but it also forces you to reckon with the years you spent not really living and makes you feel like you're carrying the corpse of a 20 year old girl on your back

The truth is I just want more financial freedom so I can buy high quality skincare, buy quality pieces and form a classic capsule wardrobe, travel and see the world, spoil my friends and family, gain access to any hobby i want ever, never rely on anyone ever, nourish myself with good food, buy all the books i want ever, and do anything I want forever

you are allowed to outgrow the version of yourself everyone else got comfortable with

I love the moments when I realize that I am handling the situation better than a previous version of myself would have.