I'M NOT JOKING I MIGHT FUCKING KILL MYSELF, TRY. 9TH ATTEMPT AND I FEAR IT'S NOT GONNA WORK AGAIN I CAN'T LIVE ON THIS WORLD ANYMORE I FEEL LIKE AVERYTHING IS PLOTTING AGAINST ME AND EVERYONE HATS ME AND I CAN'T KEEP BEATING MYSELF ALL NIGHT AGAIN IF I PULL MY HAIR ONE MORE TIME I MIGHT GET FUCKING BALD I CAN'T FUCKING SQUAT TO GET THINGS ON THE FLOOR BC MY TIGHTS HURT OF HOW MUCH I CUT IT K FUCKING WANNA DIE I CAN'T KEEP LIVING LIKE THIS EVERYTHING MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A ASS. I TOLD MY FRIEND YEARS OF ABUSE, GROOMING SHIT, UNSUPERVISED INTERNET AS A KID, I GOT A A MESSAGE SAYING HE'S UNCOMFORTABLE WITH ME BC I USE PROSHIP TO COPE LIKE I FUCKING SHOVED IT ON HIS FACE EVERYTHING MAKES ME WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE I WANNA HANG MYSELFI WANT TO CUT SO DEEP I CAN SEE MY BONES I WANT TO TAKE ALL MY MOMS MEDS I HATE MY EX FRIENDS I HATE MYSELF MORE I HATE EVERYTHING I HATE IT ALL I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH I'M NOT EVEN JOKING I HATE MYSELF I DESERVE IT ALL BC I'M CRINGE CORNY AND EMBARRASSING NY FRIENDS MUST HATE ME BC I'M LIKE THAT I DON'T DESERVE THEIR KINDNESS I DON'T DESERVE ANYTHING GOOD. THEY PROBABLY POT ME I FEEL OUT ON EVERY GROUP I DON'T BELONG ANYWHERE IF MY STUPID DAD TRY TO CALL ME AGAIN I MIGHT FUCKING JUMP. I DON'T MATTER THAT MUCH, WHAT WOULD CHANGE IN THE WORLD IF I JUST FUCKING DIED????? HUH WHAT WOULD HAPPEN EH??? RIGHT?? NOTHING.