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for it will never be your arms i want to lie in

im happy we did not hold hands

for yours are not as soft or cunning

im happy we did not make love

for your dick is good (and big) enough

i wish you lasted longer

and really just fuck me out of my mind

i miss not giving a fuck about you

and now that you are not there

i still dont give a fuck about you

except now i dont even have to.

with you lying next to me

i felt strangely safe

i felt like you would not fall in love with me

i felt i did not have to show you any part of me

that i did not wish to

and i did not wish to show you anything at all

i loved that you were okay with it

i am glad we met

and i am glad you let me not give a fuck

i wanted to fuck you again

because you have a big dick

and even though you cannot last over two minutes

i did not mind it, i hoped youd last longer next time

for its not like one finds someone like you everyday

i miss the random trip i went on with you

i miss you checking out other girls

when you were with me

i miss that i could check out other boys too

i miss how boring you are

and i miss feeling like i had someone next to me

yet i did not feel intensely towards them

and neither did they

you were just out here, hating on your environment

longing for the familiar, for what you have always known

you could not fathom this way of life

youd mock it, youd despise it

yet you lived in it

you heard good music and you were shy

you barely had a pleasant personality

but you were there with me

I’m now in