Why lies?

Does everything you said to me are real?

Or is it just lies to make me feel less hurt and keep your reputation?

You have been contradicting yourself way too much.

If im useless just straight out tell me that.

Don’t give me any hint of hope when you obviously know there isn’t.

You thought I’ll forgot about you when time goes by?

I won’t forget anyone who take my trust and break it.

If you want me to hate you.

Congratulations you may have done it.

It’s been 2 month plus... im still getting hurt hearing you being close with other guys. I’ve finally accepted the fact that we broke up, but I couldn’t accept that you found someone so fast. I know it might not be true my sources about you might be false because I believe everything you said. That’s why it hurt when i heard about it. Im so hurt im devastated everyone tolds me negative things about you, but i still believes you are not that kind of person.

Is our relationship true?

Is our break up reason true?

Is everything about you true?

I don’t know. I guess I don’t know much about you after all.

What are expectation’s for?

Good or bad who knows.

You expected things to go in your way.But it doesn’t

You expected someone to respect you.But they don’t

You expected to score well for test. But you didn’t

As Time goes i have slowly starting to regret on decisions i have made so far.

I should had took o level back then.

I shouldn’t had sign for sponsorship.

I should had chosen a course i might actually like.

I shouldn’t had choose a school because of cca.

I shouldn’t had go to places that worried someone.

I shouldn’t had talk to certain people that worried someone.

I should had listened to that someone.

I shouldn’t had taken up that relationship.

I should had keep our friendship.

Because of all these. I’ve changed. Or im still changing. Changing into something that’s not what im used to be.

Positive,cheerful,carefree,optimistic

Negative,dull,anxious,pessimistic

Fuck your personality

Fuck your attitude

Fuck your mindset

Fuck your existence

If you don’t respect your siblings okay fuck you

At least fucking respect your parents oh wait you’re fucked up being you failed at that as well.