u make me feel // heartcode
by Jihaad Ayoyemi Malik aka YEMII/Y3M11 (fka K!LLYEMI)
you make me feel hugeâ like, supernova big. like I could flip a planet or win a fight against my own brain.
you make this whole dying world kinda worth it, if you're in it, standing next to me.
i've seen hellâ (shhh... they called it growing up) & i donât want that pain touching you the way it scarred me.
but even with all your heartbreaks, you still look at me like iâm invincibleâ like iâm not just a glitchy, trembling boy clutching the last piece of his heart, too scared to show it to anyone.
i didnât have much to give. so you gave me a piece of yours. just like that. like i was worth it.
now iâm on protect mode. hyper-aware. scared of the silence when youâre not around.
trauma plays reruns in my head like dial-up static. what if you donât come back? what if love ghosts me again?
iâve missed the songbirdâs call for what feels like lifetimes.
now, my body warms at the thought of you. i glitch when we touchâ logic gone, heart full send.
why is it so easy to drop the world just to give you the galaxy?
why do the demons always whisper pop-up lies? âsheâll leave,â âyouâre too much,â âyou donât deserve this.â
stillâ i toss my love into the air like a desperate soft prayer, hoping youâll catch it and hold it close.
and maybe, just maybeâ youâll never let it drop.














