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It was the cold silence that spread between you. You did it. Right? You're one step closer to ending this nightmare. You can return to Safe Haven to get things into motion!

.... So.. Why aren't you moving?.. Is there something wrong?

You looked at Molly who still didn't get up. Sitting on the floor. Holding onto something as the memories seem to replay in that empty stare. Not shock. Not anger. But silent mourning. Remembering the good and the bad. Remembering the silent conversations. The feelings. The presence. Everything what they tried to erase. Silently first..Subtly. But then with no mercy. And despite everything the bond survived. They returned to another. Trying to continue where they left off

And then you came. And cut the tie.. All for the thing on your right arm to now feel like a painful reminder of shame than victory. Only to find out that cutting the wires what will free them all were someone's life support. You killed someone. Someone who despite everything was cared about.

Molly was still quiet. Until he moved. Not a sigh. No cry. A pain so quiet and deep that even breathing in that heavy space felt wrong. He slowly got up. Body probanly sore from sitting like this. From making yourself so painfully small just to save the last bit of warmth left.

And now he stood there. Not looming.. But whatever faint light was in this room made Molly look more threatening than he was right now. You considered running away. But you stayed. Holding space. And still.. It felt wrong to even look at him after this.

Molly looked.. numb? ..no.. tired?..Sad..? The expression was unreadable.

So you tried.

You tried to apologize.

Tried breaking the silence.

"I.. I'm sorry -"

It came out rather hoarse. Unsure what to say. What can one say in this situation. Nothing feels right. And let's be honest : you never had to apologize until now. You didn't even feel sorry when Kissy frowned when Poppy brought up your so heroic deed back at Playcare. You never had to apologize for grabbing that box and sending Huggy into an unknown abyss.

"No.. you're not" Molly replied. His voice held something that you don't like. Like he's not taking you serious at all.

"You just couldn't help yourself. Could you? Go ahead! Waltz in here and kick down everything you see!" Truth veiled as accusation. You felt attacked. And that after days of hearing others scream at you , accuse you, chase you or try to kill you. But this felt different. Because this time.. there's no need to run. No way to run away from your actions.

"No we're not doing this right now!" your tone seemed to get more harsher now. "Noone of this was my choice EVER. I WAS ATTACKED FIRST!"

Molly stopped. Turning around. His glowing eyes stabbing your soul making you want to eat your words immediately. "And still.. You came back here.. After all those years of cowering" a direct reminder. Just like the writings in the red smoke induced nightmare. For a moment you wondered if it was his voice who greeted you before Huggy chased you down the hallway of the orphanage right before you awakened.

Then a small laugh. More like a scoff mixed in between. "You're all the same deep down." he begins pacing shortly. "Come in here, just decide to make yourself the new boss and play toys. And the ones that don't comply? Bye. To the box. Or whatever." he stops his pacing.. looking.. No.. Staring down at you.

"You realize you're no better than they ever were.. Do you? You just keep hurting people. Even after you swore of to do so "

The question was heavy. Adding more weight to the faint hum that has been reminding you of your deed ever since you managed to end the fight. You found your voice.

"Well neither are you! Out of all people you could have EVER become friends with. WHY HIM?! " there's an edge to your question. Maybe this will hurt enough. Maybe it'll also help.

However Molly wasn't impressed. He only seemed to get more agitated. Maybe you hit the right nerve. Raising his voice "Because maybe I needed someone who didn't just see my hands drawing. I wanted to be seen as ME. and NOONE else ever did that. You don't even know what the others were like. And yet you seem to have some weird thought there going ohh there's this one evil guy. Did you even listen to the voice tapes scattered to obnoxiously around here?! It's not like they stopped when they see people who don't fit in with their point of view. And appearently he didn't. And neither did I"

There you had your explanation. And you remembered. How you listened to Stella, Leith and Eddie scheme. How betrayed Harley sounded to find out he's been back stabbed. And now you wish you listened better.

Molly stopped.. to talk more quietly but in the same tone..laced with exhaustion. Seemingly out to get under your skin.. or hope that you see the flaws in here like he did. Hoped that you are wiser now. You deserved the truth after all

"If you came in here to find someone here who is free of sin..you won't find any. There's nothing good left. So I suggest you knock this off and find a way out.. Or. Whatever you were gonna do... Hope that stupid hand was worth it your little act.."

You didn't go. Not yet. Approaching carefully. Maybe as a peace offering. Reaching out. Asking him to maybe join. Make things right.

Molly backed away. But scowled. "Don't think about that - I'm not gonna buddy up with you after this... Now go... Before I decide otherwise. But let's be crystal clear here. I have one last wisdom for your way"

'... Don't come back when this little rescue mission here goes south. You didn't even question the existence on the other side of the line " Molly gestured to your phone.

You suddenly felt something weird.

A bad gut feelings.

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AN:

Thanks for reading my first attempt at a fanfic! Heres also some sketches I made while drafting my idea out:D Perks if you do multiple things. Let me know btw if I should make this AU/mini rewrite a thing . I finished the entire lore for Chapter 2 already but obv this fic is a small part of the Chapter 4 lore