Our Life As A DID System

thinking about how my trauma started so early it didnt change me it literally shaped me and im so angry

emotional self-harm exists and is fucking horrible

going back to an ex you KNOW will hurt you? consuming media you KNOW that triggers you? isolating yourself when you KNOW you need help? that’s a form of self-harm and needs to be acknowledged first to get help.

someone: ‘are you angry with me’  me, dissociated as h*ck: ‘no. well. part of me is angry with you, but then another part of me just feels sad but then I’m not really feeling anything at all and another part kind of feels guilty but then no honestly I’m fine but really I just- no, I don’t know’ 

thinking about a thing: okay but did this actually happen, did I dream it happened, did I think about doing it but didn’t do it or did I only hear someone talking about it in the headspace??