being lazy kind of gay like why as a man are you gagging on that lolly

the more important something is to me the less i talk about it

ive also been having some issues with eating which caused severe pain in my digestive tract around my ribs, my manager also told me that whenever she has something wrong happening she thinks of me to know that i have it worse to make herself feel better. if it isnt the saddest shit

i have osteoporosis; cant wait to get back to dating to be asked "if i look like a man" and ill say no and theyll say "good", i need a good repeat of my last relationship with the person who didnt want to hold my hand in public lest he looked like a faggot. on the other hand i had to do psychiatric tests recently and the psych kept looking around for me and couldnt find me because she was looking for a woman and i was the only person in the hallway. this shit cannot be described as anything other than stupid at this point and its mostly my fault. cant really explain to my work friends why i cant date for fun or at all, when i spoke to my manager about it once she said something adjacent to "you always have to make this conversation so disgusting" but is it not in the end?

if im ever caught venting actual frustrations i have to anyone i know irl please just do the polish equivalent of swatting me. would grom even show uop if you called them