i think i can live forever

"i liked this more when i thought you didnt like me"

i crossed over the ridge and wound my way back down towards the border, slowing only once i saw a car pulled over, waving hands high in the air. boldly human.

i tried continuing, but once i saw the 18-wheeler stuck in this gross, foamy bog sliding toward me, i knew i was fucked.

with four hours added to my drive, i was not well. but i made it regardless, and at least enjoyed a newfound taste of some kind of petty determination.

current reads.

camus: existentialist philosophy of absurdism which discusses the absurdity of the universe, and how looking for meaning in a universe that is entirely random is also absurd. pretty edgy, but i like the latter half of the book where camus goes 'make shit up as you go, live with revolt, freedom, and passion'. obviously paraphrasing so read it for urself

egan: a non-linear story of a bunch of broken people and their tangled and chaotic web. read this my, like, sophomore year of high school and remember it being good. reading it again with some insight and it's even better. has a lot of ties to the SF Bay Area which makes me like it even more