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I don't think there will ever be a character I relate too as much as Richard Papen. I can't stop thinking about him.

reblog if you love chubby/fat trans men. I’m doing research,,,

the more i read the secret history the more i find myself relating to richard. the line where he compared himself to a chameleon remaining a distinct entity from the leaf upon which it sits no matter how similarly it replicated its color?? i don’t think i’ve ever read something more relatable than that in my life

richard taking the time to mention henry’s large hands and francis’ delicate, long hands…lowkey who’s here for richard’s hand fixation and a choking kink

richard’s dad once shattered his wrist during a particularly violent argument they had when he was fourteen/fifteen and so now when he writes there’s occasionally an audible click when he rolls his wrist

i think about richards childhood every day

ily papenburn ily ily ily i love you