Merp

So my cousin. Is a very happy bubbly blond. Has been all her life. You look up the definition of visco girl and here name will come up. Me. I’m dark. Pretty authentic egirl. Dark hair dark clothes. You get it. I’m all for people changing their appearance and doing their thing. But for some reason this just. Sent me over the edge. She dyed her hair black and I mean real black and is calling herself an egirl and a badass dark hairs bitch. Like. Bitch. Why. Your a blond. Stop acting like a dark egirl and like you have and inch of edge on you when you would cry over a fly being killed. Your personality doesn’t fit the vibe your trying to give off. Don’t be a poser.

My small brother made a mean comment on my Instagram art page about me finally posting. I told him to take it down but he didn’t. So I deleted it and blocked him expecting him to say sorry and he didn’t mean it and I would unblock him. He said my art wasn’t that good anyway.......this is why o DONT post things that often about my art because I don’t feel like it’s good enough but then I do something I’m proud of and get the courage to post it and something like this happens and I want to crawl into a hole and cry.

I quit my shitty job. My last day is April 13. I have a new job lined up that has better hours and something I’ve always wanted to do. Hello graphics design and marketing. Here I come.

I have an interview at a new job. Fingers crossed I get it because this one fucking SUCKS.

I would rather feel nothing then feel hurt. Like I would rather not feel anything and turn into a little robot then be hurt all the time. Anyone else want to be a robot ??

That is all.

Screaming into the void till frustrated tears run down my face and my voice disappears

You know when your day is going pretty good. You woke up on time. You ate breakfast. Listen to your favorite music. But then all of a sudden you get hit with the sads and you don’t know why

Who else wants to just stay home play some video games or read a boo drink some tea or hot chocolate and just be happy.

*cue more random dancing but with jazz hands*

Why are we all forced to be social. Like is it really that bad that I want to stay at home play video games and not want or feel the need to talk to anyone.

Can I just be a full time streamer now like please 😭