Thoughts on a page

What sucks even more then this self revelation is that I can't go back in time and prevent my heart from shattering in a millions pieces like it did. Oh well, live and learn.

Hey baby or I guess I need to call you by your name like everyone else now. It's been a year and I know you've moved on and you're happy with her. I'm still working on that but I'm getting there slowly. I just need you to know a few things. Truthfully, you saw me at me lowest and I wish you could see how much better I'm doing. I see you're doing much better to, I love seeing that. I'm sorry for all the chaos in our relationship at last, I was just so lost but I'm not here to make any excuses. All I need you to know for now is that nothings changed. All the things we said out of love, still remain. You will still always be my favourite person in this entire universe. If ever you need help, I am still always one call away even in 10 years; I will walk through heaven and earth just to be there for you. I will still love you forever. There may be plenty other people out there on this beautiful planet but if the world was ending I'd still choose to have you by my side. Lastly, I pray that we get to fall in love again in this journey we call life and get married like we always talked about but if we don't I must believe that our souls will meet again beyond the galaxies and stars. I must go now, I have a few things to do, please just promise me that if you still feel the same way you will never forget.

I've seen dark days and never ending hopelessness, I promise that it can be as simple as that.

So I wait and hurt in silence.

Help! Why am I like this?

How two people can be so deeply in love with eachother and not know how to love one another.

Here I go again.

I see through you.

All I know is I may have ran away from you in hopes to find myself but when I am in a great deal of fear, I think of you. I imagine that you are caressing me and than at last, I find my breath again.