i prefer to distance myself whenever i’m in a bad mood because i’ll become the most heartless person you’ll ever meet.

one of my symptoms I hate most is that I “want” to hurt. I “want” to be in the worst situations possible. I “want” to sabotage myself. That means it’s in my impulsive plans, when I’m actually in the situation it’s not something I want at all. but I desire it as if it’s something good. and I don’t get why I have that.

i don’t think people understand how much self hate someone has to feel to deny a basic human need as eating

cute date idea: i come over to your place and we watch all your favorite movies that i’ve never seen before. we snuggle under your favorite blanket, time kinda stops for a while. i feel so surrounded by everything that is you. things are good.

going from “today is a good day” to “i hate my life” takes me approximately 2.6 seconds

it’s like i always say: fuck

I absolutely hate not being able to tell if something is a genuine sign of rejection or just my Shit Brain™ banging pots and pans together and screaming ‘IT’S OVER THEY HATE YOU’

The thought of getting hurt again terrifies me

Concept: Rain falls outside of our window. I am deep in your embrace and we have nothing to do. I am warm, you are warm, we are happy.

yes I overthink but I also over-love