infinity

Your first love; you know who I’m talking about. The only boy you’ve ever really fallen for, and you know that it’s true love. It’s none of the silly, immature love that people claim they do after a couple of weeks; you’ve got honesty and loyalty; you fight and yet you still love because you both know what you want. You both know that you were meant for each other so you wouldn’t want to mess things up. No matter how many times you fight, you know deep down that you could never truly be mad at them. To think that they were out of your life before is just simply amazing how you ever lived before at all. Not a day goes by without you constantly thinking about them and it scares the hell out of you to think “if I’m so in love with this one person, this person that I love with everything I have, how do other people move on and love another?” You’re so emotionally attached to this boy that you’re so scared to love someone else. This boy taught you the real meaning of love and you never thought you had love in you until he came along and showed you. you never knew the meaning of jealousy was until every time he mentioned a girl, it made you want to make sure that you were the best thing he has. Everything you’ve dreamt up of a perfect boy was nothing compared to what this boy has because it made you see that not everything you want is everything you need. You’ll never forget the boy that changed your whole life because he’s your best friend, and the love of your life.

Then I said goodnight and tucked you away inside a place called Nostalgia, where you’ll always remain unspoiled, somewhere between my lungs that used to breathe ocean air, and my belly that fluttered with hope.