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hi thinking about stillwater jayce… ohmu god…. his muscle mass all gone, hollowed cheeks and knobby ankles rustling against the floor as he paces in delirious circles in his cell. harms himself with anything he can find bc the regret is just too hard to bear. he has scars all over his face, the other prisoners slicing him bc of his "pretty face" that used to get him anything he wanted at the beginning of his stay, like the council in the canon universe who used his looks as a commercial train for hextech. he grows his hair long at first, but quickly learns how easy it is for other prisoners to pull him by the hair into their cells as he walks by to beat the shit out of him. shaves his head and still gets beat up. he snaps one day and gravely injures another inmate, just to prove to himself that he can, like when he killed salo knowing viktor was watching. he tries to be on his best behavior, he really does, but the reality of stillwater doesn’t allow for any goodness. he’s still kind at heart, emotional and soft, but the second someone puts their hands on him he’s lunging in with teeth. when a nurse hastily and boringly stitches his wounds, he sobs because someone took care of him. he scribble symbols and equations that he used for his hextech research into his skin, either with a pen or a knife, just like viktor did to himself, to remind himself to never think this wasn’t his fault. to never forget that he put himself here. that he was never meant to be anyway. im going crazy

any björk and arcane fans here?…… björk preaches combining technology and nature/instincts in her music and arcane mixes magic with science. it works so well guys. Is anybody with me. Hello

last night i had a dream where i was sitting in class and it was my 1st day and Jayce Talis was sitting besides me. he was typing on a PC. he was wearing a dark red hoodie. and i remember thinking …. Wow….. he is so beautiful up close ….. cute nose….. then i heard the sounds of a cane tapping the floor and when i looked up i saw viktor walking in the hallway with his back to me. when i looked back at jayce he had a look of deep sadness and yearning and want in his eyes. and i thought oh ok i see how it is

yuri jayvik with viktor being viktoria and jayce being jessica. Taps mic is this thing on

jayce and viktor r so the type of med students u see everywhere that r like Yeah i havent slept in 9 days anytime i close my eyes i see badly printed graphics of the inner workings of a heart and my pee is blue because of energy drinks. except for them it’s about hextech. they use reusable plastic cups in the lab that can’t shatter in case they fall asleep and drop them. they have 10 packs of wet wipes hiding somewhere because showering takes too much time off the research. they have their notes taped to the walls of the bathroom so they can read when they’re doing their business. they laugh at a pen dropping then start crying all bc of sleep deprivation. jayce has a bruise on his cheek from viktor not being quick enough to keep his head from hitting the table when he fell asleep. they’re like "this week was so hard i cant wait for the weekend" then they look at the calendar and its tuesday

in ur world viktor might smoke shimmer everyday and curse a lot and go to nightclubs n own some revealing clothes so he could have a "secret sexy side" (which i think is sexy and cool) but in my world viktor goes to bed at 10pm. or 6am there’s no in btw. but not bc he goes out to drink and dance no he’s just reading books about lizards and likes how lonely he is during the night. he makes tea for his friends and throws some bread for the pigeons on his way back from the library. a baby smiles up at him and he starts tearing up. jayce gets too drunk at a gala and viktor is like Oh my god we just get you some water and toast immediately dear. he’s a little grandpa to me

my brother has undiagnosed adhd. at the end of a 2 hours grocery store trip he will let out the most blood curling scream once we’re in the elevator because he "feels like he’s going to explode". leading up to that scream he gets irritated n loses his train of thought very easily but after the scream he’s back to normal and i feel like that’s so Jayce. like after a long day of council meetings and polite talks and talking with sponsors, as soon as he gets back to the lab with viktor, he screams so loud his voice cracks and he’s out of breath after and then viktor is like. Hm. You could have screamed better than that. and after jayce got everything out his system he falls asleep on the desk

i went in for an appt this morning with a woman called vanessa. the guy at the counter called her and said "V ! miss __ is here". as i was waiting for her to come down two women walked in and one had a cane. she said "my cane is making so much noise im so embarrassed" and her friend said "its okay i dont mind the noise u have to walk either way!" and Oh my god. jayce calling viktor V. comforting him his cane isn’t making too much noise when the room is quiet. they are everywhere