silly girl content mill

i don't have female friends because they can tell from my incel demeanor that id certainly try to rape them

bruh not only am i too stupid to play music i can't even enjoy it right i can't bob my head right or dance on beat i get excited and rush and bounce around just like when i was a retarded little kid who all my teachers gave up on im so fucking worthless i genuinely don't know what things in life are supposed to make me happy when i can't even groove to music correctly

what if the bpd girlfriend was inside you the whole time sweetie

my life isn't ever going to get better because it's always going to be me running the show

if im just going to keep making my life worse and hurting people i want it to end

running up that hill to impress god trade

so fucking tired of thinking about "how" to transition. ways to remove hair, how to do this right, etc, blah, blah, i want to continue doing as little as possible and have it work out. im seriously never going to make it like this huh.

im so frustrated with never getting better at anything and being too lazy and stupid to change that

gay cameron winter be like "im getting killed by a pretty boy i like"

i really have more to be happy about in my life than ever before but i feel closer to wanting to give up on all of it than i have in a very long time

im not a passing transfemme I'm a trans-passing femme

im kind of an american psycho style figure

heavy is the cock that wears the cage

i don't blame myself i just think i could have done something to prevent it and it's all my fault

after recovering from the trauma of never being able to hear bc,nr ants from up there live, getting into the band right when ever hearing any of it live in quite the same way became impossible, i found a local band to obsess over and what do you fucking know it, as soon as i fall in love with their album the bassist leaves the band and im left unable to hear the music in quite the same way live ever again. at least i got to see them literally two times total, that's two more than i saw bc,nr with isaac. feels insane to me how much i hate that i got sick and missed the bassist's final performance. crazy lesson in getting out to shows and doing things you love before you can't.