lukey

trying to figure out what neurotypical "normal" men's obsession w the r word is, even the ones who are otherwise so left leaning. it genuinely makes zero sense to me. i was hanging out w two of my coworkers the other day and they both said it within like two minutes of each other. i was slightly taken aback and mentioned politely "oh yeah that word is a pretty big deal over here in ireland" (they're both from abroad) to which one of the dudes said "oh shit really? i didn't realise" somewhat regretfully before suddenly following up with a bashful "i don't care tho im just gonna say it" and it just kinda boggled my mind. tbf i didn't say anything about it in response but he said it as if he just assumed id agree w him completely on that. this is a dude who ive spoken to in great detail about politics to learn we're on the same page about virtually everything. this is a dude ive openly referred to people as they/them to and he's matched that when referring to them afterwards. i don't know. it just irks me so bad man. for a word that's generally known to be taboo it's treated as remarkably un-taboo. but i just don't get how that's become so widely accepted. i cannot have had that unique an experience of that word very specifically being weaponised against me but if i ever imply discomfort towards it in the slightest im suddenly a fucking wimp. it's utterly bizarre

tfw u just want to tear your brain open and remove all the stupid fucking nonsense that's fucking up your life but at what point do you stop and what of you remains thereafter

i need to post on this godforsaken app more and i need to repost on it less. miss when i just used this as a journal and not just a funny posts app