i aspire to be loved.

"They get weird."

  ❝Lung thing? Oh, do tell. It could be a virgin thing. We cling together until the sexual attention comes around at the right time. When you do figure it out make sure it doesn’t hit you in the face!❞

     ❝ lung cancer, my bad, i forget people don't just –– know. thank you for that advice, i'll be sure to keep it with me all my virgin life. ❞

         "it's just that –––– i can tell that you feel guilty. a lot of people do when they're around me. i just don't like it when people are guilty because of me." his voice is quiet, perhaps because he hates admitting these things. he's quiet for a minute, letting himself truly calm down. "if i ever –– y'know, die, i don't really have anyone else but you, so you can take all my stuff. like my drawing and writings and stuff.. they're all yours when i die."

     ”as it should. no i did not!    god, you’re being difficult,     you know that? no, stupid,    i meant regular people with    regular people fetishes. and    yes, sex you up. you know    that’s what you want.”

"i know i'm being difficult, it's kind of in my nature. do regular people fetishes even exist, man? okay, so, maybe i do want someone to sex me up. in my defense, i am a hormonal teenage boy with wants and needs."

  "i only knew it because my friends before i came in here used to party and have sex every weekend. but, u-um.. j-just forget about it. i-uh.. i gotta go.” 

he doesn't even continue their conversation. he's had his eyes glued to her lips the entire time she spoke. simpling pressing his lips against her own in the heat of the moment.

"well, if anything happens and you don't end up getting 'em, i've got a whole bunch of fancy artist colored pencils in my room that you can use." he states, nodding his head slightly.

  " well that’s what i’m here for.”

    "i – yeah, that makes sense. anyway, how are things and such?"

         ”i’m sure that isn’t true i mean, satan can’t possess nice people, thats not good.” she retorts with a nod of her head, a grin on her face, a blush devouring at the girls cheeks. “and i’ve never had someone draw me before !!”

         "you never know. satan comes in all types of forms. i think, i don't really know. i only ever half paid attention in church." he shrugs, laughing slightly. "there's a first for everything !!"

  "yes well that’s no excuse, i can’t even walk around your room it’s so dirty. you won’t cheat on mcdonalds but you’ll cheat on me with your roomie, i got you.”

"the nurses say the same thing. i mean, maybe i should start cleaning sometime soon. okay, i don't even have a roommate to cheat on you with, dork."

            ❛ it’s really me, i .. oh my gosh, otto .. you’re .. you’re here ? ❜

          "w–wow, i can't believe this. uh, yeah.. my lungs suck.           i mean, i'm here –– because i have lung cancer... yeah."

  ❝I can see where you’re coming from! If you’re really having problems you should find someone quick. I’m sure it will be easy!❞

      ❝ contrary to popular belief, it's rather hard for me to get anybody remotely willing to have sex with me. maybe it's the lung thing, maybe it's the virgin thing. i have yet to figure it out. ❞

              ❛ try me. i get more things                  than people think. ❜

❛ i really do not think you'd undertand my      culinary art.. ❜

      "it's really okay. i don't want you to feel guilty because of my disease." he says quietly, a sigh plummeting from his petals. he'll gently grab her forearm, calloused digits gently tapping upon the smooth skin. "can we just –––– can we just sit here for a minute?"

     ”i’ll try not to let the arrogance get    to my head too much. but that doesn’t    change much, really. sure, you might    turn off some people with that but hey,    i don’t know one seventeen year old    guy who’s a sex master. don’t be so    negative, i’m sure plenty of people     want to sex you up.”

"that warms my very heart to hear that, noah. some people, did you actually mean the entire human race with the exception of weird human beings with weird fetishes? sex me up? i – i don't know how to feel about that."

  " not this one. ”

"how kind of you, emma, to say what you actually          mean to say."

  "see, i’ve heard it sucks unless it’s with someone you really  care about. so, i’ve kind of  been waiting until i found that person, and i think i  might have and he’s  standing right in front  of me. i’m up for it if you are.” 

"see, i didn't hear that part. i'm only told one half of the information about anything. wait ––––––– is tha –––– wh – i'm so confused..."