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just a few of the million things I love about song yunhyeong
happy birthday to the most beautiful prince that ever existed. there’s just one thing I wish I could tell him and that would be thank you. thank you for making us smile, thank you for always being so positive and happy about everything, thank you for working so hard for your lovely ikonics, thank you for teaching us the importance of lipbalm and definitely not thank you for going shirtless on stage and killing a million fans lol
thank you song yunhyeong for always putting a smile on our faces.
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Your fic I Will Be There is such a masterpiece oh my god I don't usually like angst but that fic was beyond incredible I loved it so much!!💗 Your blog has the best Ikon fics I swear
ahhhh i am glad you liked it!! you’re the best ^^♡
I hope you come back soon!! I miss you so much:( Your scenarios are the best💗
i know i’m not active as much but i will still post from time to time since i will never stop writing and never ever leave ikon <3 thank you so much sweetheart ily
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i will probably write one scenario for each song in the album for every member and i know i always do hanbin first but i thought this fit him so well haha! next will be probably jerk or don’t forget c:
- moyo
Let me seriously hug you for just 10 seconds.
Mambin [2.48 am]: I’m waiting in front of your apartment.. can u come out for a few seconds?
You thought you read it wrong when you looked at your phone with heavy-lidded sleepy eyes and there was a message from Hanbin. It didn’t really hit you until a few seconds later when you unlocked your phone just to read the same message one more time. It still said the same thing.
With a confused look you gazed at the clock that struck exactly 4 am. You were so sure that he must have been gone by now, yet uneasiness settled in every nerve of your body. Just in case you dialed the only number that you knew by heart. There wasn’t even a beeping sound before he had already picked up.
“Hey.” His deep voice resounded on the other line and for a while it was only silence that unfurled between the both of you. Why was it suddenly so hard to speak to your childhood best friend that you could once tell everything to?
“Hey…I saw your message,” you uttered quietly, “is everything okay? Are you back home now?”
You could only hear his heavy breathing until he spoke again. “I’m.. still here. I’m so cold Y/N…” He whispered.
You got up immediately, grabbed a jacket and ran out the door. It was heavily raining but that didn’t stop you from stepping outside and looking for Hanbin. It wasn’t hard to find him. Even though it was completely dark outside, you saw a small familiar figure standing under a headlight.
His hair was reflecting the light in a golden color as the rain danced quietly in the distance and the stars drowned the night sky in a dim light. If the situation didn’t feel so odd in that moment the view would have been breathtaking.
When you reached him, your heart sank. He was completely wet and shaking. When he spotted you his eyes turned somewhat sad and you didn’t know why it hit you so hard. It felt like someone ran you over with a truck. Just seeing him like that hurt so much.
Without another thought you wrapped the padded jacket around him in hope that it would make him feel better. “Hanbin what are you doing here?? It’s fucking cold and raining!-“
This is how it feels like in your arms, if unrequited love is still love, can my heart be settled.
He interrupted you with a tight hug. For a while you just stood there and you had such strong urge to just pull him closer, yet you pushed him away.
“What are you doing?” It came out as a mere whisper. You really had to concentrate to let proper words leave your mouth. You were so overwhelmed in that moment that you couldn’t actually function properly.
Let me hug you for just 10 seconds. Let me hug you before you go to him.
“Can I just hug you for 10 seconds?” Again, he looked at you with that sorrowful look in his eyes and if hugging you would take away the hopelessness that hid behind all that, you would have let him. However you knew that it wasn’t just that. Deep inside you, you knew there was much more behind his actions and that scared you.
You must have been surprised, I was drunk on late night mood. I was thinking about this and that and came all the way here.
“A-Are you drunk?” You questioned perplexed. You were shaking and you didn’t even know if it was because of the cold or Hanbin.
“No— I mean yeah… a little.” Hanbin murmured.
“But that’s not the reason I’m doing this. I wish I was actually drunk to use it as an excuse. But I’m so frustrated Y/N… and I’m so cold. I just want to hug you for a few seconds…”
“Hanbin— I— I think you should go home.” You felt tears prickling in your eyes and this wasn’t something you wanted at all. You wanted to hug him too and bring him home and wrap him in a warm blanket and love him for the rest of your life.
But you couldn’t.
It just wasn’t right.
You turned around in hope it would be easier to reject him. Yet you were still standing.
If a conversation is too much then just listen. I’ve been politely holding it in but it’s weighing so heavy on my heart and I’m about to get sick from stress.
You may be his woman but I love, no, I like you a lot.
“You know I love- I mean— I like you more than him. You know that Y/N. So why won’t you give me a chance? Why can’t I even seriously hold you for 10 seconds. Is that too much to ask from you?”
“No!” You yelled, “You can’t Hanbin! This isn’t right…”
“Stop it.” It hit you and you couldn’t bear it any longer. If he didn’t quit then you would seriously let him hug you for more than 10 seconds and in your heart you wanted exactly that to happen. But in your mind everything felt so wrong and complicated.
“I like you” Hanbin whispered, “So much.”
You reacted so quickly that you pulled him into your embrace before you even realized it. And just that felt so satisfying but bad at the same time.
This is how it feels like in your arms, you’re so warm. Maybe it’s because I love you but I can’t have you and you’re still so beautiful.
“I don’t feel cold anymore,” Hanbin replied, “I wish I could make this last forever.”
“Can you?”
“What?” He pulled away and looked you into your eyes.
“Can you make this last forever?”
“But—“
“Just give me an answer.”
“Yeah,” it was just a word but it turned your entire world upside down, “I can…if you let me.”
“I broke up with him months ago Hanbin. But I’m so scared.
I’m scared to love again. I’m scared to love you because what if you leave me, too?”
You could see the pain that disturbed the beauty in his loving brown eyes, this time it wasn’t his misery but yours that reflected in the corner of his eyes.
You’re perfect to me like a dream, like playing in the water in the summer. My life is a draught and you’re like a spring shower story.
“I don’t really know how to take your fears away but if there is one thing that I am completely sure of is that I will never stop loving you. Even when you left me to be in his arms did I stop? I held it in for such a long time… it hurt so much Y/N and back then I wished nothing more than to stop my heart from loving you but I couldn’t. I can’t stop. You’re too beautiful.” He breathed out.
“Just hug me,” You murmured, “but not for only 10 seconds.”
He held you so firmly in his arms, you almost couldn’t breathe. It was so warm suddenly and maybe this was what real love felt like. Even when everything around you screamed piercing darkness, you felt so safe in his embrace. All your worries washed away in a matter of seconds.
Indeed, Hanbin never broke his promise.
The only reason he ever let go was to gaze at you with his loving eyes and tell you something extremely stupid (but sweet at the same time) and then attack you with a bunch of kisses.
He always made sure to keep you safe and happy in his arms.
to early emphasis: dear cloud’s nine has confirmed that she was asked by jonghyun to post his final note before passing to fans. she has also confirmed that she was given the blessing from his family to share it with the world. you can find confirmation of this here. below will be proper triggers for this post as it is not easy to read. i will also leave nine’s comment that she left on her post as it is important in regards to why she was asked to post it. if you feel that i have missed any please do not hesitation message me on my personal blog (jaekyung) and i will add them as quickly as i am able to. also thank you to sonexstella for translating.
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trigger warning(s): death tw, depression tw, suicide ideation tw, suicide tw
nine: i said my final goodbye with jonghyunnie. even after seeing his smiling portrait of the deceased, it still feels like jonghyunnie will come to me and smile as if all of this was a dream.
starting from awhile back, jonghyunnie told me his dark and deep internal stories. i think each day was very difficult for him. i kept having uneasy thoughts so i made it known to his family and tried my hardest to capture his heart but it only ended up postponing time and i could not block his last (action).
i still cannot believe he is not in this world and it’s so painful. i’m still afraid, not knowing if it’s the right thing to upload these words but jonghyun himself asked me to please upload these words if he disappeared from this world. i wished this day would never come …
after discussing with his family i am uploading his final note, according to his last wishes. i think that there must be a reason why he left this up to me. i worry that there will be controversy. however, i think that he predicted this and asked me, so i decided that i will do the one last thing i can do for jonghyunnie.
i hope everyone knows now that jonghyun was not alone and that he worked hard … that he did really well … please thank him for withstanding well …
beautiful jonghyun, i really love you a lot. going forward, i will love you a lot. in that place, please don’t be in pain and i hope you will be peaceful …
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i am broken from the inside. depression that slowly ate away at me ended up swallowing me. i couldn’t beat it. i hated myself. i held onto memories that have died out and, even though i shouted to snap out of it, there was no response. if suffocating breaths will not open up it’s better instead to stop.
i asked who can take responsibility for myself. it’s you. i was completely alone. it’s easy to say you’ll end it. it’s hard to end it. i lived up to now admist that difficulty. you said i wanted to run away. that’s right. i wanted to run away. from myself. from you.
i asked who was there. i said it was me. again, it was me. and once again, it was me. i asked why i kept losing memories. it’s my personality. i see. in the end, it’s all my fault.
i hoped someone would notice, but no one knew. never met me, so of course, no one knew i was there. i asked why i was living. just. just. everyone just lives. if i asked why someone would die, you would say you’re exhausted. i suffered from concern. i never learned how to change tiresome pains into joy. pain is just pain.
i urged myself not to be like that. why? why can’t i end it according to my own will? i tried to find out why i was in pain. i knew too well. i am in pain because of myself. it’s all because it’s my fault and because i’m foolish.
teacher, did you want to hear these words? no. i did nothing wrong. when he blamed my personality with a quiet voice i thought it was so easy to be a doctor.
it’s fascinating to see why i’m in this much pain. people who have more hardships than i do live well. people who are weaker than me live well. maybe that’s not it. of people who are alive, there is no one who has more hardships than i do, and who is weaker than i am.
despite this, i was told to live. i asked why this is the case a hundred times, and it’s never for me. it’s for you. i wanted it to be for me. please don’t say things you don’t know. find out why it’s difficult. i told you many times why it’s difficult for me. with that, is it not possible for it to be this difficult? does there need to be more concrete drama? are you wanting more of a story? i already told you. did you not pay attention? what i can overcome doesn’t leave a scar.
colliding with the world must not have been my fate. being known to the world must not have been my life. that’s why everything was difficult. colliding, and being known was difficult. why did i chose that. it’s a funny incident.
it’s commendable that i was able to withstand up to this point. what more can i say? just tell me i worked hard. that i did a good job. that i went through a lot. even if you can’t smile, please don’t send me off in blame.
you worked hard. you went through a lot. goodbye.
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I remember the day about 6 years ago when i was in school and all of my classmates were making fun of me, whenever they saw me they would say something stupid and then laugh and giggle because i was that kind of loser to them. i remember when they threw bottles at me and pulled my hair and called me ugly.
i remember how i would sit alone in the classroom, taking my ipod out and listening to shinee music. i remember how i smiled. i remember how every morning when i would wake up, i would think of another excuse to not go to that hell place called school but i also remember listening to jonghyun’s, taemin’s, onew’s, key’s, minho’s voices on my way to school and that strength i felt again. like i could breathe. like i could do this.
i remember watching their videos and feeling happy all over again.
no one will understand what shinee and jonghyun meant to me. for them, “””he’s only a singer””” “””why are you so sad”””” “”””he killed himself it was his choice”””””
for me kim jonghyun was a light in the darkness that i was going through.
it’s sad that the people with the kindest hearts, with the brightest light always have it the hardest in this world.
my dear jonghyun, you’re not at fault. you did well. you helped so many people, so many shawols.
you were in pain. you were hurting. you were in pain and hurting and upset and lonely and sad and many other things as you passed on. you were also an amazing singer, talented songwriter, an outstanding human being, an integral president in the shinee world, and a father to the sweetest little ‘roo’. although you are no longer on this earth, your legacy, your love for people who needed help, your love for music, your overall essence, will remain long after. you, kim jonghyun, gave shawols, sm, your family and everyone in this world a piece of your heart through your talented body and we can never repay you for your selfless services, even if it did cost you your own happiness in return. the sweet voice that enchanted many will forever play on, and the songs you wrote are eternal. we say goodbye to your physical presence, kim jonghyun, but never to your soul, your heart, your very being. you were in pain. you were hurting, and now you’re free. so i say goodbye to you, kim jonghyun; insole wearing, puppy-pokemon hybrid look-a-like, crybaby, always-so-extra, kim jonghyun. may we meet again.
Oooh you are back ! I love you so so much ♡♡ I'm so happy ! I hope you will love me even if i'm a bit strange (don't worry, I don't eat humans) ! - The maknae anon (maybe?)
omggg hello ♡♡♡ why would I think you’re strange??? I love you too, cutest anon!! thanks for passing by :“))
I’ve been okay!! thanks for asking, I hope you too ♡ I really missed being active on here as well and talking to you guys but it’s nice to see people still messaging us after a while :“)
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in which you can see red strings that connect each person with their soulmate and fate decides to play a little game with you.
one of your typical moyo fanfics, soulmate au, coffee shop, angst n fluff, be prepared
w/c: 1400
a/n: hey. it’s been a while. thanks for reading. ily.
- moyo ❤️
Bobby. His arms were wrapped around a slim waist while his face was drawing closer to a girl with long black hair that were almost reaching her hips. You had only seen the back of her head and known that she must have been gorgeous. He was kissing her so passionately as If they were the only people on this entire planet. Their bodies were connected by a thin red string.
You shook your head in hope the picture that had already burned into your head so terribly; would just disappear. You were walking down the street, the ground was smacking with each foot that leaved a mark on the white earth, ruining the beauty of hundreds and hundreds of snowflakes that made the world look like a better place. Tender and cozy when in reality it was just cold and fragile.
It had been months since the incident with Bobby and you still didn’t seem to snap out of it. If loving someone could be so painful then why even trying in the first place? His pretty smile flashed up in your head this time and your heart was aching a bit, not because you were hurt about his actions, rather the feeling of missing him, missing the way he smiled at you like that.
Honestly, you had no right to be mad at him. It was you who had been lying to him. A red string of fate that not even you could see; one that didn’t even exist in the first place. Too bad that he had believed you when you had entrusted him that there definitely would be one. Maybe this once… there was an error. At least that was what you had thought back then just to realize that there was already someone else who belonged to him. And that someone wasn’t you.
You sighed deeply. It was really time to move on.
You entered the shop where you best friend Yunhyeong worked at and the smell of freshly brewed coffee already welcomed you. It left a warm feeling in your guts which made you feel safe. It was just how Yunhyeong always smelled like and that instantly made you feel better. One of the reasons you seemed to spend a lot of time in here lately.
“I was already wondering where you were,” Yunhyeong chuckled before shuffling through the cupboards and preparing the usual drink he’d always mix. You never really liked coffee that much unless Yunhyeong made it. You had no idea how or what he did but his hands really worked wonders.
“I had to work overtime again,” You lied hoping that he wouldn't ask any further.
“Here you go,” Yunhyeong placed a big mug in front of you, the hot steam dancing on top. He took a seat right in front of you and you were thankful that there weren’t any costumers at the moment. “Tell me about your day.” He said softly with eager eyes.
There was a red string.
One that went from you to Yunhyeong.
You had noticed this just before you and Bobby had gotten together and ever since; you had been ignoring it. It must have been an error…
You let out a long sigh. There wasn't much to tell except for the long walks and useless thoughts that turned into your usual routine. You took a sip of your coffee letting the familiar taste flood your mouth. It left a small satisfying smile on Yunhyeong’s lips. “This is good.” You whispered, ignoring his question, just like the shiny red string that connected the both of you.
“You know Y/N, how about we do one of our sleepovers today?”
You rolled your eyes, “We haven’t done that since we were kids, Yunhyeong.”
“Who cares?” He shrugged his shoulders. You knew he was just doing that because it was obvious that you were completely miserable and that you hadn’t slept really well in the past few days or weeks— you didn’t even remember.
“I miss those times actually.” Fractures of memories lit up in your head. A warm feeling spreading out in your guts, so innocent and carefree. Back then nothing seemed to bother you as long as you were together.
“Then why not? Let’s go get some ice cream and watch a movie at my place.”
It wasn’t a good idea to agree to that. Because after all, your best friend since you could practically walk was supposed to be your soulmate and you didn’t have the guts to tell him or believe this. The more you would spend time with him, the stronger your bond would get. However you were selfish in that moment, too tired to care. As soon as you heard ice cream you knew there was no way you would reject that offer. “I’m in.”
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After your little stop at the supermarket you came back with one bag full of ice cream and no— that wasn’t even enough. You could have picked 10 more flavors but the lady at the counter seemed a little impatient, so you had satisfy yourself with cookie dough and various kinds of chocolate ice cream.
“I haven’t been here in a while…” You looked around Yunhyeong’s apartment and didn’t really see any difference. It had been months since the last time you were here, although you had spend almost every day in his apartment before you had hooked up with Bobby.
“Well, it was the hardest for Mimi.” Yunhyeong threw the little teddy bear which you had given him back in kindergarten, one of your favorite ones by the way, because you had thought you wouldn’t see him again… until you had turned out to be in the same school as well. You couldn’t help but smile. “I missed Mimi too.” You chuckled.
“Are you up for a horror movie? There is one on Netflix right now which I really wanna watch—“
“Y/N… no— I'm no. We didn’t buy all this ice cream to spend our time screaming and pouring half of it on the floor!”
“Oh come one, you’re just scared!” You rolled your eyes at him. He was such a baby sometimes.
“Besides… I wanna talk to you about something.” His tone turned serious and you really really really didn’t like the direction this conversation was going to. He took a seat beside you, his eyes looking directly into yours. They looked a little sad.
“I know maybe it’s too early to be asking this but… I was just wondering how it is possible that Bobby just left… I don’t understand, I thought you were soulmates.” Yunhyeong asked slowly and you felt something sting in your insides.
He deserved the truth, yet you just didn’t seem to be ready to tell him about it. You were too ashamed of it. Too scared. Your eyes wandered to the string that connected the both of you and it didn’t help the situation at all.
“I… I don’t know.” You looked away. “Maybe I made a mistake.”
“But isn’t there a string or something connecting you two? Doesn't this mean that this whole soulmate thing could be just wrong and it doesn’t matter if there is a string or not?”
“Yunhyeong…” You said slowly, “there was never a string between me and Bobby.” Tears gathered in the corner of your eyes and you held back a sob. “I lied.”
There was a silence that took away any possible oxygen in the air. It felt like you couldn’t breathe. Now where you said it out loud, it was real and that made you feel even more ashamed of the entire situation. It was all your fault for lying in the first place.
Yunhyeong wrapped his arms around you. “It’s okay, Y/N.”
“I’m not crying, you idiot…” You whispered into his shirt as tears rolled down your cheeks.
“It just means that there’s still someone who belongs to you…”
“No. My soulmate doesn’t love me in that way because i’ve already met him.”
He just held you tighter. Oh, if he just knew. You were sure of it that he didn’t feel the same way, so there was really no point in telling him.
That night you didn’t watch any movie. You just cried your heart out while eating ice cream, all while Yunhyeong comforted you. The weight that lied so heavily on your chest seemed to get a little lighter and just this once, you pushed everything away and stopped thinking about Bobby. It was more Yunhyeong and the fact that he was your soulmate. Something that you would never tell him, you promised.
