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"How did you even get in here?" You asked Jinhwan after you had almost devoured the bowl of noodles, you hadn't even realized how hungry you actually were, feeling much better now with a full stomach.  

His cheeks suddenly took on a much darker shade and he laughed sheepishly. "Your neighbor was so annoyed with me that she let me get into your balcony from hers."  

"You mean that grumpy girl from next door?" You couldn't hold back your laughter, "She never talks with me and gives me these sullen glares! I thought she hated everyone!"  

"Well, I didn't say she liked it -- Or me -- Or that she invited me to come over. She was just really.....mad and I somehow ended up in her balcony..."  

It was so amusing seeing him getting all embarrassed, you were almost crying from laughter. It was so hilarious imagining the scene in your head. You couldn't believe Jinhwan got her to do this for him.

"What was I supposed to do? I was so upset and worried about you! You didn't even answer to my calls and I'm pretty scared of heights, you know?" Jinhwan grumbled, "And after all this I can't be even mad at you...I'm so glad you're okay."

You let out a deep sigh, just now you realized that he was hurting just as much. "I'm sorry." Was all you could say, feeling a burden of guilt on your chest. "And thank you, Jinhwan. Really." You timidly took his hand into yours and interlocked every single finger with each other. They were pretty. You never knew how reassuring it could be just to hold someone, it suddenly made you feel all tired from the past days.

"Let's watch a movie or something." You suppressed a yawn before you put the dishes into the sink. You still wanted to spend some time with him even if that meant you had to give away some of your sleep.  

"Aren't you tired? I will stay until you fall asleep if that's what you're worried about. I won't leave just yet." It was funny how he had seen you about 4 days ago and already knew you so well. On second thought, he was your soulmate, so what did you even expect.  

You let out a relieved sigh when you felt his arms around your slim waist and turned around to meet the probably most beautiful eyes you had ever looked at. They were shining as bright as the stars in the sky. Just that they were prettier.  

"I didn't mean it when I said I never wanted to meet you. I wanted to but I was just so scared," Jinhwan rested his head against your own and you could feel his tender heartbeat against your fingertips. It was comforting. Soft and serene like his voice. "I..."  

"You don't need to say anymore. I understand." Your hands found their way around his neck and they fit so perfectly there, as if they were only made for him. Your lips connected with each other and just like the first time he had kissed you, your entire body reacted and you felt lightheaded; somewhat drunk from the connection.  

This kiss was so different though, it was more fierce and passionate, more... sad.  

"If we don't stop now, I don't think I can control myself any longer." Jinhwan breathed heavily. "It's okay..." it's not like we have that much time.

"No, it's not. I won't do anything just because of our circumstances. I don't want you to feel like you have no other choice."

Before you knew it, he had already pulled away, much to your disappointment. Although you knew he was right.

"Okay mom." You took his hand when Jinhwan squeezed it lightly before leading you to the bedroom he had found you earlier. It was funny what a mess you were just a few hours ago and now you felt like a different person, all thanks to Jinhwan.

"Thank you." I love you. You mumbled against his chest. The sound of his heartbeat resounded in your ears and like a beautiful lullaby, it put you to sleep.

"Thank you for letting me find you." Jinhwan whispered and if you weren't so close to sleep in that moment, you would have noticed the tear that finally left the corner of his eye.  

The doorbell rang the next morning which pulled you out of your sweet dreams. A little grumpy on your feet you opened the door to meet Jinhwan and your face immediately lit up.  

"You sleepy head," he greeted you with a kiss on the cheek, "What do you wanna do today?"  

"Don't you have to work?" You scratched your head, yawning as you looked at the clock. It was already 12. This was the longest you had slept in a while.  

"I took a few days off." Jinhwan replied softly. There was something sad hinting in the back of his voice and you didn't really want to ask until when he didn't have to work. Instead you put your arms around his neck and pulled him closer, burying your face into the crook of his neck and inhaling his alluring scent.

"I'm glad you're here."  

Jinhwan embraced you just as tightly for a few seconds before he pulled away with a wide grin marking his mellow cheeks. "If you weren't I would have punched you with this," he held up a bag which had the logo of his cafe on it. "I brought breakfast." Jinhwan hummed and you thought that this day couldn't get any better.  

"You know what?" You said after washing the dishes. "All we did until now was eating."  

"And kissing" Jinhwan added and couldn't help but chuckle mischievously when he noticed the blush on your face. "Yeah," You cleared your throat, "I thought we could do something... like things I always wanted to do with my soulmate. I actually have a list but... I don't know if..." we can make it.  

"Get the list, we will do everything on it no matter if we have to lose sleep for it!" Jinhwan clapped into his hands as you got up excitedly and fished out the piece of paper you had written on a few years back, feeling the excitement to the bones of your fingertips.  

There were some things crossed out and some things you had added over the time. It was something that had always put you at ease when you were feeling low, like a happy pill and now where Jinhwan was indeed there to do all these things with you, your heart felt at peace.  

Jinhwan laughed as he went through the list and yeah, some things may have been a little bit weird but it were just ideas slapped together.  

"A parenting class Y/N, seriously?"  

You just shrugged in response. "What? I mean it could be fun. I could just pretend to be pregnant you know? I thought it'd be kinda funny when you're not really expecting a baby."  

"You weirdo," Jinhwan ruffled your hair, "but I like this one, going to the zoo sounds like a good idea."  

"Yeah! And near that is a forest which is supposed to be hunted! We could sleep there tonight, then we have 2 things to check off!"  

"A hunted forest?" His face immediately darkened, "Do you really wanna do that?"  

"Yeah!" You bounced excitingly, "I mean unless you're scared.."  

"No! Let's do it" Jinhwan didn't sound as excited, yet it wouldn't stop you from doing it. You wanted to do everything that you had written on the piece of paper, at least like that, you wouldn't have any regrets.

☑ Go to the zoo and become friends with the pandas <3

“He looks like you,” You giggled, pointing at a baby monkey who was desperately trying to get the banana from a tree. He was so smol.

“I’m not that small! Look I could actually reach that tree!” Jinhwan huffed.

“Yeah, because basically anyone could reach it.” You patted his head but stopped when you received a glare from the side. “Okay, you’re not thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat small. I admit.”

“I am not!” Jinhwan protested.

You couldn’t hold your laughter anymore, “That’s what I said!” And before you knew it, there was no smol cute Jinhwan beside you anymore. Okay, maybe you did exaggerate; but just a tiny bit.

After sharing some of your ice cream with him, he seemed to be in a better mood again but you didn’t dare to make any fun of him, not yet.

You couldn’t help squealing when you spotted the pandas on the high bamboos trees. “Aren’t they adorable?” You watched in awe while taking a hundred pictures of them. They were so big and cuddly.

“The only think they do is sleep and eat, just like you.”

“Wrong!” You glared at him, “I eat, sleep and then I eat again.”

Jinhwan chuckled before kissing the top of your head, “That’s my girl.”

☑ Sleep in the hunted forest and start a conversation with a ghost 

“Y/N, are you really sure you wanna do this?” Jinhwan uttered with round eyes, not getting out of the car just yet. You gave him a sweet, toothy smile, “Yeah, I’m pretty sure. Unless someone is too scared–”

“No! I’m not s-scared!” He stammered nervously before you asked him to make a fireplace while you pulled the car seats down to make a place to sleep on. With all the blankets it rather seemed like a cozy sleepover, not a night in a hunted forest.

“I still think it would have been cooler if we slept outside in the tent but I guess someone is too scared that he’ll get devoured by some hungry demons.”

“Pshhh! Don’t say that out loud!” Jinhwan looked around, sweating nervously, “What? De–” He covered your mouth with his hands and you thought you’d suffocate any second when he finally let go.

You couldn’t help your laughter, actually scared Jinhwan was much more fun than seeing anything paranormal going on in here. So far it just seemed like a normal forest, it was full of… trees.

In fact it was pretty calming when you listening to the crackling of the fire and soft rustling of the trees. Nothing weird going on. At some point you lied down and Jinhwan seemed to relax a bit more, too, hovering over you.

“So, are you scared?” You asked in a low voice.

“If you stop talking like that, then no, I don’t think so.”

You giggled. “Okay. I wanted to sound a bit seducing, didn’t know it would scare you.”

“You’re pretty,” Jinhwan unexpectedly whispered while sticking a strand of hair behind your ear. You suddenly felt really hot, maybe the fire wasn’t such a good idea after all.

His face came closer and your heart beat louder; you closed your eyes as soon as you felt his breath on your plump lips, anticipation building up in your tummy.

And then he started to screamed.

You rapidly opened your eyes when you met a distressed Jinhwan, waving his hands around. You automatically started to scream too. “What?! What happened???”

“Hey if you’re a ghost and trying to possess the body of my boyfriend, I will kick your ass!” You sat up straight, ready to fight whatever was coming.

“No, no! I’m Jinhwan,” he uttered after a few seconds, trying to catch his breath, “there was… a -- spider.” His face looked worse than a fully ripened tomato and you were so relived that you had to hold onto your racing heart beat for a second. “Thank God,” You breathed out.

A few more seconds passed. And then it was you screaming – from laughter.  

“I can't – even with you! I thought a ghost had possessed you or something!" You were almost choking on air, "You're lucky that I love you otherwise the date would have been over by now!"

"Say that again." Jinhwans expression immediately changed and you couldn't quite decode what it was. "You're a loser?"  

"No," He rolled his eyes at you, "the other thing..."  

"You're lucky?"

"Yeah, I'm lucky cause?"

It took you a few seconds until you understood what he was getting at and then you smiled, "I love you." It was much easier to say it out loud than you had thought in the beginning. "Why? Does that surprise you?"

"Yeah. I mean I guess I knew you kind of liked me in a way because obviously we are soulmates and all--"

"Jinhwan," You interrupted him, "I don't kind of like you and no, not because we're soulmates. You're sweet... and caring... and a tiny little bit handsome. You make me forget any pain and worry I'm going through and that absolutely frightens me because this, right now, it's not meant forever. I’m already so used to you that It feels suffocating to be apart from you."  

Everything was completely silent for a second, as if they were all listening to the painful reality that involved the both of you and you wondered why something like this had to happen – out of all people – to you and Jinhwan. It just wasn't fair.

"Me too," Jinhwan whispered before embracing you with his warmth. He felt colder than usual. "me too." He repeated.  

And like that, you listeneded to each other's heartbeat, thankful for every sound it made. It was a sign that you were still together, a sign that your love was still alive. Yeah, still.  

☑ Join a parenting class and pretend to be pregnant 

"I can't believe you convinced me to do this with you..." Jinhwan muttered under his breath when you were sitting in a big room full of people. Well, those people were soon-to-be-parents and you didn't know why you thought it was such a good idea to join a parenting class full of pregnant woman but hey, you got free snacks. "Psh, it's starting!" You hushed him before the instructor in the front started to talk.  

You were all sitting in a big circle and one by one, everyone started to introduce themselves until it was your and Jinhwan's turn. "Hey!" You greeted everyone excitedly, "I'm Y/N and this is -- my husband Jinhwan," you had to hold back your laughter because it felt so weird saying that out loud, "and we're expecting a baby... soon." There was a moment of silence before the instructor started clapping into her hands, "That's amazing! You're in your 12th week, right? I can see that cute belly sticking out."  

Jinhwan suddenly bursted out laughing just to receive a killing glare and a hard punch to his sides. He coughed loudly, "She's actually in her 5th month. That's why I was laughing, I'm so proud of her – for taking such good care of – it."  

"Aww! you're such a good husband. You know, that's the first step when your wife is going through pregnancy, be proud of her! I want you all to take a good example from Jinhwan and give your wife some courageous words, now!"  

"I know I always praise you baby but I'm proud of you for eating the entire pizza all by yourself yesterday!" Jinhwan expressed with over-joy before he kissed you on the cheek. You still hadn't stopped glaring at him; he was such a freaking meanie and the instructor? It was time to smash somebodies face. You put on your sweetest smile before shit was going to get real.  

"Oh my goodness," Jinhwan was still snickering after you were thrown out of the stupid building where the stupid class was in, "You were amazing! I wish I had filmed It!" It had been already 20 minutes. After he had asked you with concern if everything was okay, whereat you just nodded, he started holding his stomach and laughing like there was no tomorrow.  

"That's my girl," He hugged you after calming down, "and I love your belly, so don't mind what that woman was saying."  

"Stupid woman, if I may correct you."  

"Yeah, yeah. Stupid."

00 years 00 months 00 days 08 hours 23 minutes

It was already dark when you got home, silver moonlight glowing through the cracks of the curtain, making it seem like one of those beautiful nights. Tonight was sad. It was a night of goodbye but somehow you were thankful that at least from the outside, it looked like a perfectly beautiful lie.  

As soon as you entered your room, you pressed your small body against Jinhwan's and gave him a taste of all the feelings that lingered inside of you. He held you tightly, making you feel like you were safe in his embrace – as if he had the power to change the horrible fate that wounded you two.

His hands were soft, they connected with your cold body. His kisses were gentle, sweet just like himself. His heartbeat calmed you in a way no one else could. He made it seem like everything was going to be a okay – and just for minute – no, for a second – you believed him. You believed in the curing illusion of your mind and Jinhwan's tender kisses.  

It was only Jinhwan's mellow breath mixed with your soft whimpers resounding through the depth of the night, neglecting the fact that you wouldn't be able to do any of this in a matter of a few hours. There wasn't much time left and you hated the fact that you always remembered this. As much as neither of you actually spoke it out, you knew that he was thinking about it as much as you did.  

"Y/N..." Jinhwan was the first one to break the comforting silence, it almost made you cry when the warmth of him disappeared. "I don't wanna talk, not now...please." You nearly begged him, already feeling the anxiety crawling up your throat. He gave you another kiss, making you sigh in relief (they just seemed to blow every pain away).

"I just wanted you to know that I love you, sincerely, In every life, even if we are not soulmates. I would always choose you, no matter which fate we have to go through and may it be as tragic as this one." You had promised yourself to not shed one tear on your last day, it was hard enough the way it was.

 However, when a tears left Jinhwan's eye, the wall of lies you had built up so well in the past weeks, just shattered down. The worst thing about it was that you were the reason and that you couldn't do one thing about it. 

You couldn't really respond, you were trying too hard not to start crying. Instead, you pulled him even closer, holding onto his bare chest and letting your mind wander to all the beautiful and unforgettable moments you had spent with him.  

All you felt was pure joy and yeah, a little bit of heartbreak but it was a sweet one because after all Jinhwan loved you, although he knew you couldn't give him any more. You couldn't give him anything at all, except for the love you had for him. So instead of wasting any time, you kissed him so hard and so long until you thought you'd suffocate just from loving him and oh, how definite that actually was.  

You felt him on every part of your body and soul; he brought things to life no one else could. You could only give him love, wasn't it ironic that the only reason this horrible fate sealed you two was exactly because of that? Because you loved him? And yet, you couldn't stop. If that was your last day, you would give him exactly that.

00 years 00 months 00 days 2 hours 21 minutes.

You fell asleep to the sound of his tender heartbeat, not even noticing the fact that it would be the last time. There weren't any regrets left, maybe it was a good time to say goodbye. Maybe it was even perfect. Parting like that seemed better than if it was any differently; parting when you had the climax of loving someone before it could decrease.

And truly, you loved him, with your entire being and heart.  

"Hey now, it's time to sleep!" Your mom shooed you to bed before pulling the blanket over you with a gentle kiss on your forehead. It was only 8 pm but the only thing that made you listen to her were her heavenly goodnight-stories.  

"Mommy, tell me about the prince and his soulmate! You didn't even tell me the story last time!" You whined loudly until she let out a deep sigh, knowing that was her final signal of giving in. "Okay, okay, but if I hear one more peep out of you after I finished--"

"I won't, I promise!" You shut your mouth immediately and waited for your mom to begin.  

"A long time ago, there was a prince who ruled over a small kingdom far away from here. After his father had selfishly betrayed his people and was blinded by greed and power, the prince had decided to do the exact opposite of the kings' wishes. He had a very kind heart and was rather selfless, he took his folk seriously and cherished deep concern for every person that lived in their kingdom.  

On the day he obtained the power of ruling over the land, the first thing he did was giving the poor a piece of warm bread along with a valuable item of his castle. Every single one of them could choose an item of their choice. Crowds of people gathered that day, including the ones who were as greedy as the king once used to be, so the prince had one condition.  

For every item, there had to be a good reason. The rich and selfish people would lie and make up odd stories while the poor would be honest about it.  

One day there was a girl who didn't take anything but the bread. The prince was surprised, requesting a reason for her actions. And then she answered, ‘Seeing your kindness with the people is the most valuable for me, so I don't need any more than this, your highness.’ The prince instantly fell in love and asked her to marry him. It turned out that the prince and the girl were soulmates.  

He thought he was the happiest and richest person on earth for having such a wife. She was gorgeous; her eyes shined brighter than every star on earth, her smile was as colorful as the flowers that bloomed in spring and her pure heart mended the bitter ones on earth. There was only one thing, the lifespan on the princess' wrist didn't even seem half as long as the one of her husband's. It wasn't even roughly the same. Which meant that the prince didn't have as long to live anymore.  

He was ready to say goodbye and told his wife that he'd meet her again after she left this world as well. However on their last night, she sacrificed herself for him. Which means that she loved him so much that she exchanged her lifetime with his. The prince woke up the next day, finding her dead. There was a note from the princess which said that he had to keep ruling the kingdom and make it into an even greater one.  

He did as he got told and turned out to be the greatest and fairest who ever reigned.”

Pleasant rays of sunlight kissed your eyes awake as you met the white ceiling of your room the next day. It felt like a dream when you turned to the side, meeting the love of your life, your soulmate, Jinhwan. He was beautiful; he looked so pure sleeping like that, it made your heart jump. For a second you thought that maybe you were wrong, maybe it was all just a horrible nightmare and you and Jinhwan got the time you had deserved.  

However, when your hand connected with his skin to wake him, he was ice cold. He wasn't moving at all. You screamed his name, one time, three times, ten times, until you were a crying mess. On your wrist was your usual tattoo but there was something different. The lifetime, Jinhwan's lifespan.

00 years 00 months 00 days 00 minutes 00 seconds

It took you a few minutes to realize what had happened and you didn't even have to check his wrist to know that your fears turned out to be reality.  

"Jinhwan please!" you begged, shaking him with all the power you had. "You need to wake up, please, please, please!" Everything was a blur, your heart throbbing in your ears and the pain covering every inch of your body. This was not what you had ever wanted, it was worse than the fate which you had thought was supposed to happen.  

You lied down on Jinhwan's chest, holding tightly onto his cold hands with the hope that your warmth would flow into his body. Maybe it was just your imagination but somehow the sound of his heart was resounding somewhere far away. Because you knew it already by heart.  

Time passed. 

Season's changed. 

The marks on your wrist disappeared. 

And you lived happily ever after with your prince.  

"And the prince, he was not alone because after sacrificing herself, she got rewarded with her life. The only way to break their horrible fate was to sacrifice yourself; that's what true love is like: sacrifices you make for one another and shall you be rewarded for it. The lifespan's on both of their wrists disappeared for eternity and they lived happily ever after."  

The End.

Wait, not quite. 

"I wanna visit the hunted forest again!" You squeaked excitedly as you and Jinhwan lied on the couch. "Oh please Y/N, are you crazy? I'm not gonna set one foot into that ever again!" He snorted while pushing you away.  

"Oh pleaseeeee," this time you pouted, knowing that he could never say no to that. "I just love seeing you scream like that, not even I can make you do that. It gives me the feeling of power--" Jinhwan interrupted you with a kiss, "If you say one more word, I will make you scream so high until the neighbor's will knock at our door."  

"Okay, officer." You uttered faintly before Jinhwan got a hold of body and carried you to the bedroom, "I guess I have no choice, you wanted it to end like this."  

The End. Forreal this time.

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Things i wanna do with my soulmate when i grow up 

□ Go to Disneyland together

Note: We couldn’t make it because everything was sold out. I will never watch micky mouse ever again! 

☑ Couple clothes shopping

Note: I made him wear those ugly but somehow cute animal overalls. He looked quite adorable as a smol monkey. 

☑ Make a pillow fort 

Note: It ended up quite differently than it should have but oh wellz :-D

☑ Watch a horror movie together 

Note: Never forget, Jinhwan woke the grumpy girl from next door LMAO

☑ Paint his nails and make him wear it for a week 

Note: That was the best idea i ever had

☑ Sneak into a movie without the tickets

Note: We got thrown out thanks to all the wailing mr. i’m-too-good-for-this-because-i’m-a-mommy’s-boy did

☑ Make a pillow fight

Note: Also, ended up quite... differently. Not that i liked it, no, not at all. Definitely do this again. 

☑ Harry Potter movie marathon

Note: mr.i-can-be-awake-all-night fell asleep after the 2nd movie

☑ Watch the stars

Note: Kind of, i just had to look into his eyes (why am i so cheesy ashakjdsh) 

☑ Make him coffee in the morning

Note: Don’t do this again, he threw up (it wasn’t that bad ???? i think...)

□ Go swimming at midnight when it’s cold 

Note: Someone knows no fun 

☑ Eat as many pizzas as you can

Note: No, don’t ever do this again. Someone called me pregnant. 

☑ Make him food

Note: I don’t think this was such a good idea too... he threw up again. Poor bby. 

□ Share cotton candy like in romantic movies

Note: I just couldn’t share, it’s mine, mine, mine. It was so good though. No regrets.

☑ Marry him