J.K

One of the major signs that let me know I'm about to fall into a manic/depressive episode is my brain tricking me into thinking food isn't real. I see the food, and I'm so hungry that people in the next town over can hear my stomach growl in pain, but I can't eat it. It's styrofoam. When I put it in my mouth, the texture is like biting and chewing styrofoam, at a bunch of different temperatures. I know it isn't really styrofoam, but it has no flavor and feels like I'm eating air. It's so frustrating because I've never had a healthy relationship with food, so I don't know if this is a real problem or like a symptom of an eating disorder. Either way I'm hungry and not sleepy at all🤷🏻‍♀️