Does Anybody Hear Her?

I love being told I suck at something I thought I was good at.

My self harm urges have been through the roof. My anxiety has been at such a high level it’s insane. Things are crazy. I feel like I can’t contain myself any longer.

Tentative stability is scary because then when one thing throws you off and you feel so many things all at once, you get scared that it’s all over and overall you become so fearful of any strong emotion you may feel.

Okay so the week and a half between leaving your old therapist and meeting your new therapist is so unsettling because it’s like what do you mean I’m on my own for 7+ days?

Ugh I had to coach call for the first time in months. I’m so ashamed.

God I’m just so ready for a new start.

I hate when I think I’m okay and I’ve moved past certain things and then I realize haha jk you were never okay to begin with.

So I haven’t self harmed in 3 months.

lol and now I wanna fall apart.