it’s okay if you feel like your spark for God has gone out. it’s okay if prayer or reading your bible or worshiping don’t make you feel anything. it’s okay if the church service feels boring or sunday school feels tedious. it’s okay. you’re okay.
because you can only know the absence of God if They were once very present in your heart. you can only miss something if you once had it.
psalm 13, a psalm of david, goes like this:
“How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and day after day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?
Look on me and answer, Lord my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death,
and my enemy will say, ‘I have overcome him,’
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.
But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.
I will sing the Lord’s praise,
for he has been good to me.”
even david - a man after God’s own heart - experienced times when he felt that God had hidden Themself! but, even though he doesn’t feel God’s presence, he still commits to trusting in God’s love and salvation.
because, at the end of the day, even when our own hearts seem to betray us, we have that all-encompassing promise of Their love. that’s never going away, i can promise you.
so keep your heart up, my friends. soon the clouds will pass, that wall will come down, and light will shine all across you as Their face comes into view again. i love you. They love you.
