i have ruined you,

It’s only a small thought but I think Ilya loooooves holding hands during sex. Like even since the hookup days he loves blowing Shane of course but he really loves that when he does it Shane always always grips for his hand. Ilya will stick his hand under Shane’s chest where he’s pressed to the bed to find his hand and squeeze his fingers as he’s coming. He pins Shane’s hands up to either side of Ilya’s head, fingers tangled, palms pressed together and it makes Ilya so dizzy happy. He loved Shane’s thumb rubbing the back of his hand, the way he brings their joint hands to his chest, to kiss the back of Ilya’s hand. Yum. Ilya threading their fingers together at an awkward bend of his arm as he’s getting close because he wants more affection from Shane, to feel closer still somehow 😚