Wish I could fly away with you

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so this is going to be long and I apologize for that.

In the time I have been missing from tumblr, I have had the flu, found out I have bipolar, had med issues that make me incredibly sick, and found out I have neuropathy.

My grandpas birthday snd death anniversary were a day apart. So I had that. I've had to take my dad to many doctors appointments including the cardiologist.

Ive been taking care of him and my grandma who has dementia. She's incredibly mean now and is the reason. I canceled my first vacation in six years.

I currently have a uti and I found out i have acid reflux. Probably from stress with the latter.

My dog is having a procedure this month and my aunt wants to cook Thanksgiving for under 100 dollars. My brain may melt.

Today my dad tested positive for covid. So I will have to take care of him, the dogs and grandma. All while taking care of myself and managing the bills. It's fine. I'm not like upset or anything. It's just a lot. Plus I'm always aching thanks to my autoimmune disorder.

In all honestly Raythe was lost for words, but hope wasn’t lost. He knew what he wanted but now was the question of what he would do to keep what he wanted. “Well, what do you want to do Aria? I don’t want to force you to make a choice you don’t want to do.” He spoke calmly as his body shifted towards her, reaching for her hands. “If that’s the only choice we have, then yes.” He felt a light smile tug at the corner of his lips as he gave her a light nod. “I would run with you everywhere and anywhere, as long as I’m with you.”

@forgivingtouches​ gets a random Taylor Swift starter || I’m Only Me When I’m With You

“Aria.” His words were soft as he reached out for her hands. He felt terrible, breaking up with her. He shouldn’t have, and Steve had explained it to him. But Winn was still terrified of what was happening and what was going to happen with his father having someone come after him. But Aria? She was everything to her. “I’m sorry. I know I don’t deserve you, and you have every right to tell me to go to hell. But I just need you to know, that I’m only myself when I’m around you. And I miss being around you.” 

forgivingtouches asked: our muses reunite after receiver thought sender was dead. ( barry and aria )

He was sure that she’d died. He’d seen it happen, not being fast enough to save her. That was his destiny, was it not? To watch everyone that he loved and cared for die because HE wasn’t there to save them or fast enough to save them? It had been a few long days, days where Barry had barely gotten out of bed and showed up to work, days where he had gotten to STAR Labs but couldn’t bare to look his friends in their faces. He didn’t want it to be real, but it was and his heart ACHED.  How many times had he gone back in time to save someone he loved only to have everything turn out horribly wrong when he ran back to the present? Too many to count, if he was being completely transparent with himself. God, he hated it, he hated the feeling in the pit of his stomach as he stepped out of his door. If he hadn’t have looked up, he would have missed her standing there but he had and now he was staring at the ghost of his now deceased girlfriend. “I’m so sorry that I couldn’t save you.” Tears rolled down his cheeks, unable to move his feet. He felt like he was stuck, body in shock from the vision in front of him. It couldn’t really be her.  “If this is another speed force vision - - -.” He didn’t finish that threat, he was exhausted. “Just leave me alone, can’t you just leave me ALONE? This is not comforting! She just died, I JUST lost her and you’re here trying to teach me a damn lesson?” He screamed. “Has it ever occurred to you that someone might need some TIME to process something as horrific as that? No, because you’re not even real, you don’t have feelings. You’re not a living thing, you’re just a stupid - - - .” A choked sob escaped his throat and his knees gave out, sending him up against the wall before he slid down and threw his head into his hands. 

   She wasn't quite sure what had happened or why. But she had somehow made her way back to Barry's. Aria hadn't been able to hear much about what had happened. All she remembered was one minute being at his apartment and the next she was walking back there. A lot of blank time that she couldn't quit fill in with memories.

    He looked awful when he opened the door and her brows furrowed at the comment. Couldn't save her? But she was right here. Her eyes trailed over him for a moment taking in his appearance. His eyes looked so red like he'd spent too long crying. Had he thought that she was dead all this time? How long was all this time, really. She took a moment to gain her composure as he screamed.

    She had never been a fan of yelling ever since she had been young. Her father had done it every chance that he had gotten. She'd only snapped out of it when he'd slid on the floor as he sobbed. "Barry." Aria moved to settle next to him on the floor.