I loved her at hello

Every day I hurt.  In choosing this life, I lost my 2 best friends.  I was the one who left them.  To most they are only dogs, but to me, they were my world.  My sanity, my love and my life.  He takes care of them so well, and right now it’s not possible for me to do, so in that I abandoned them.

Stella is the “hangry” name my girlfriend has given me.  I mean who doesn’t change when they get super hungry right?  Here is a little about me...  I live in Pittsburgh, Pa and am 37 years old.  I have been intersted in women since I have been about 30.  At least that is when I acted on it.  And I loved it.  Have met the wrong women here and there while still being in a relationship with a man.  I know allot will not agree with this, but towards the end...7 years later...I actually ask him if he is ok with it and he was.  Little did he know that was probably the beginning of the end.  It was inevitable.  He doesn’t blame her.  he blames himself, which I have tried over and over again to get him to not do.  He’s moved on.... It’s only been 3 weeks since I have moved out onto my own.  I left behind my 2 dogs and cat.  That breaks my heart the most.  So day by day I push ahead.  Happier than I have been...In love with a married woman.  How silly does that sound?

How this happened, i will never know.  But the story that we(my female partner and I) have to tell over the past 5 months is funny, romantic, smart and kind, and so much more we needed to share it with everyone.   So the name says it all...... I met the woman of my dreams, while engaged to a man, the moment I laid eyes on her.  Seems impossible right... I always thought so too.  Until now.  It seems crazy, we both acknowledge that trust me.  But what we have together is something so special, it blows our minds every day.   The hardest thing I have ever had to do was tell my entire family, fiance included, I am in love with a woman.  The point of this blog is for both of us to get our feelings out.