𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐮𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐢𝐦𝐢

❀ : fluff┊➹ : smut┊✧: angst

“you want to be loved, don't you?”

characters: yandere! shalnark

warnings: slight non-con, suggestive

notes: im so delighted to be writing for shalnark again, he's most definitely been moved up to my #1 spot for sure ♡

you had simply been caught with your guard down. never had you imagined falling into a spider web such as his; and, try as you may, there was no getting out of it

shalnark had taken a liking to you ever since you had crossed paths on a mission. naturally, you were on opposite sides of the conflict; that didn't stop him from purposely tripping you over to fall right at his feet

in that moment, you gave him an all but welcoming glare, brushing yourself up in a hurry as you were called by a voice from afar. but he only needed those few seconds, eyes locking momentarily, to be convinced that you were the one

gifts for my beloved

characters: hisoka morrow ; illumi zoldyck ; chrollo lucilfer

warnings: none

notes: one of the cutest love languages. if any of these guys didn’t accept it, id simply have to throw hands with them tbh

! HISOKA

presents are for special occasions, that's how hisoka sees it at least. truth be told, he has rarely ever received presents, be it his birthday or any other day of celebration. he never builds bonds strong enough to be involved in the act of gifting.

so you're definitely a change for him. when you first starting seeing each other, he would be surprised whenever you'd show up with a small flower or token that you had picked up along the way

trying to make them jealous

characters: hisoka morrow ; illumi zoldyck ; chrollo lucilfer

warnings: none

notes: half of these were written ages ago, so it's quite fun to see what I had thought up back in 2020. nevertheless, I do hope you like this response nonnie, if you're still here ! ♡

! HISOKA

just know, from the start, that this won’t play out in your favour

the two of you had had an argument that same morning about something you couldn’t even remember, but you had stormed out of the house in an instant, leaving hisoka behind 

as you walked through the city, you happened to come across one of your friends, a male friend at that. hisoka had never truly liked him, but you couldn’t care less about that right now, he was the least of your worries

your friend offered to go and have a drink in a café he quite enjoyed, and you happily agreed. you needed someone to talk to, get your mind off of the stress that you had caused yourself just a few hours earlier

adult trio with a shy s/o who dislikes violence

hisoka

hisoka just won’t get it. he just won’t

how do you have such a strong nen ability and hate violence? how else were you gong to put it into use? the answer was beyond him, and he really couldn’t understand it

all along he had known that you were a shy person, too innocent for this world. it was one of the reasons he had initially taken interest in you, so he wasn’t surprised when it turned out you were that way

however, he had expected you to have another side to you, a more open side that wasn’t afraid to fight if you needed to. he had been oh so very wrong about this

when you showed him your nen ability, his first reaction was to ask if you would accompany him on the next job he had. your response had been a quick one, yet it hit him like an arrow to the chest

you didn’t like violence, and thus, weren’t going to engage in any kind of fights

hisoka would bombard you with questions, trying to pry you out of your fear. but it all proved useless, you weren’t gong to be moved by his words

he would eventually get over it, accepting the fact that he wouldn’t have a fighting partner 

it didn’t annoy him, but he did wonder if some day you would change your mind. the answer was a clear no, but he had his hopes up 

whenever he would return from a job he would comment the fact that it would have gone much better had you been there with him

to which he would receive a soft chuckle from you, assuring him that he was more than capable of taking care of his rivals without your help

you were much more comfortable on the sidelines. you were aware of your abilities, but you weren’t wiling to put them into use if it meant hurting others

though, not using them hurt hisoka more than he would like it to

illumi

the amount of times you would be dragged out into the middle of nowhere and be forced to use your abilities was just astronomical

illumi didn’t want good skills to go to waste, so as soon as he knew about yours, he will immediately try and change your mind about the whole “not using my abilities because I don't want to hurt people”

it was simply ridiculous to him

of course, you will cave in and use them if you happened to be taken out to a deserted area 

but as soon as he had a target in mind, you would refuse. he would try his best, bribing you and even telling you that there would be a reward, but nothing seemed to work

and he wasn’t going to waste all day trying to get you to do something when it seemed to be absolutely futile 

he would be angry at you for a few days, after telling him about your nen ability 

but it will soon blow over as he saw no point in being frustrated in something he couldn’t change easily

unfortunately, you’ll probably not be able to go out alone much after that as he would consider you as someone much weaker than himself

so expect to spend quite some time inside from now on

every now and then he will try and get you to use your ability, but you wouldn’t budge at his words

he supposed he was okay just with knowing that you weren’t completely helpless. if someone decided to take you hostage, you would be able to fend off the enemies until he arrived

so that was all he needed

you will, however, sometimes use your nen if you happen to be with him whilst he’s training. you don’t mind using it if you know the other person won’t receive injuries because of it

and illumi is more than skilled enough to dodge your hits

but if any of the butlers were nearby, you would keep it at a minimum. they were the ones who were kindest to you in the mansion, after all

chrollo

probably the most understanding one out of the three

the initial reason for the two of you meeting had precisely been your nen ability, so he knew from the start how strong you were

though, when he offered you to join the troupe, he had been surprised with your answer

you knew who the Phantom Troupe were, and you knew what they did. not that you despised them, but you didn’t agree with their violent ways

at first, he thought you were just playing hard to get, but after a while he realised that you were being dead serious. he would need to find another way around to keep you near him

you settled with working with him, but without being involved in any sort of missions that included using your nen power against another person

did he find it strange? a bit. he would have thought that someone with such a power would want to flaunt it, maybe even abuse of it

and yet here you were, the complete opposite of his expectations

every now and then he would ask if you could show him your nen ability, just to make sure you still had it

an obscure request, but he wanted to know that if you were ever caught up in a dangerous situation, you would be able to defend yourself, if nothing else

he will find your dislike for violence almost a weak point of yours. he won’t judge you for it, far from it, but he feared that it might lead you to get involved in more serious situations

since he’s the leader of the troupe, he has quite a few eyes on him, looking to take him out. and if anyone were to find out about you, he wasn’t quite sure what would be the outcome

- hi there bby ! here’s your request, I do hope you like it

pariston with a clumsy s/o

at first, pariston would think that you’re awkward behaviour and tendency to get yourself into sticky situations was just to grab his attention 

because, you know, he’s just like that

he will decide to talk to you more often because of this, despite it being your objective. though, you couldn’t complain: the growing crush that you had on him had been buzzing through your mind lately, and you couldn’t quite get it to go away

once he gets to know you, he will realised that your clumsiness was far from a mechanism to receive attention. it seemed you were just a bit clumsy at times

a trait of yours he quickly learnt to love

it was no surprise that he felt his own feelings towards you grow, up until the moment he ambitiously asked you out for dinner one night

you two hit it off well, and despite pariston’s need for keeping up a perfect image of himself, he won’t even be slightly annoyed whenever your clumsiness was shown out in public

he would help you, in those cases. you thought it was maybe just so he would look like a considerate person in front of the hundreds of eyes that watched him, every minute of every day

but it was truly just him helping you out the best he could 

would he mock you? sometimes, yes. but he never means it in a harmful way, it comes out more as a playful comment more than an insult that one may take the wrong way

you had gotten more than used to his pettiness and his double-sided comments by now anyway

he wouldn’t allow anybody to make fun of you, though. if even a small laugh came out from someone when you knock something over by accident, he will be quick to give them a lecture about how he didn’t find it amusing to mock small mistakes like that

the person that would most get these talks though would be none other than ging, no doubt. he actually got along with you quite well, but pariston always shot him a double-edged comment whenever he would smile at your clumsiness

his signature smile will never falter, though 

all in all, you can be sure that you are in good hands with this man

sure, he may sometimes give out a little sigh if you really mess up, but he will never get angry. he understands that it’s just simply how you are, and he accepted it

shalnark and kortopi reacting to their s/o meeting kurapika

shalnark

after the fiasco in yorknew, shalnark figured that he wouldn’t come across the chain user again: he got his revenge, so why else would he continue his hunt for the troupe?

unless he was simply trying to bring them all down, which was a possibility

it caught him off guard when, during a mission both you and himself had been ordered to take on, he saw a blonde figure flash past him in an instant

had he blinked, he wouldn’t have seen him. luckily, though, he was able to throw one of his controlled vessels in front of the one who was charging towards you at full speed, halting his step as they were taken back by the sudden appearance

kurapika had seen you let down your guard for a split second as you checked on your wounds, and found the perfect moment to strike

however, shalnark wasn’t having any of it

you whipped around to meet a pair of ruby eyes, piercing into yours as the owner realised he had lost a perfect chance of delivering a hit 

you knew who he was. despite not being part of the troupe during the time they had gone against the chain user, you had been told about him a few times now. and here he was, standing right before you

“so you’re...kurapika?”

the blonde straightened up, surprised at the fact that the new member knew his name

he didn’t have enough time to react, though, as he was swiftly hit in the back, hitting the ground in an instance 

“I get you want to get rid of us, but they had nothing to do with the massacre, so I suggest you back off before I string you up with your own chains”

eyes flicking between the one on the ground and your partner, you were unsure of what to do. you were just as shocked to see kurapika, and even more so at the fact that shalnark had lost his signature smile

you had seen him serious before, but the hatred he held in his eyes was unmistakable, almost to the point it was terrifying

kurapika remained silent, noticing that the other members were nowhere to be found. there was no reason to fight if all of the troupe members were there

with a defeated scoff, he lifted himself off the ground, taking his leave 

returning to his usual, positive self, shalnark turned to look at you, looking for any possible attacks received from the escapee

he regretted ever coming out on the mission now. even though he knew he could probably fend him off until you managed to escape, he didn’t want to risk losing you to the one who had left the boss almost helpless

kortopi

in the same situation as shalnark, kortopi will materialise whatever he can to avoid you getting hit by the blonde nen user

he isn’t someone to speak to much, rather he will use his actions to display his discontent towards the sudden attack that was about to be thrown at you

kurapika was familiar with his abilities, but it was still relatively a challenge to try and dodge everything that was thrown at him 

he was beyond angry at the fact that you had almost been attacked by him, despite the fact that you were one of the few that was able to say that you weren’t involved in the reason for kurapika’s rage

it would get to the point that the chain user will realise that were no other members around, except for the two of you, and take his leave

he could attack when you weren’t involved

kortopi will be quick to see if you had received any major injuries, or even a small scratch from the one who had just left

he held just as much hatred as the others towards him, and was ready to take him down if the circumstances allowed it

yandere! adult trio with a dainty darling

hisoka

some days hisoka will love your fragileness, knowing that he was the only one you trusted to protect you

others, he will be tired of your noticeable weakness, finding you getting hurt more than a few times each day

it depends on how he’s feeling, really

but the sense of pride he gets being your “saviours” will prevail over the other, no doubt

you were like glass, almost. even a simple push would throw you to the ground, so it fell upon him to make sure you were never put in such danger

the solution? keeping you inside, of course

locked up in your room that he had been preparing for so long, you would spend your days in complete safeness

whenever he would go out, the four locks on your door would be securely closed, and he would make sure nobody would be able to get in and hurt his darling

you were his prized possession, his achieved goal in his life

if you ever went out, he would never be far behind. he would avoid walking right beside you, as you might become a vulnerable target if someone were to use you against him

but he will watch you from afar

though, outings like that never happened very often. he would tell you that if was far too dangerous to be going out so frequently

and you would of course listen to him, staying inside whilst you did your own things, alone

one of his favourite things to do was to watch you sleep. your peaceful face as you were oblivious about the outside world, lost in your own dreams

it was when you looked the most precious, and he swore he could watch you for hours on end

illumi

you will be the absolute perfect darling for illumi

this man gets a kick out of being the one with all the power, all the strength in the relationship, so he will be more than pleased to know that you are so weak

from the moment he stole you away from the rest of the world, he knew how fragile you were, and was more than prepared to take care of you

of course, he may not always be there to protect you, as he would still have to take up his job as an assassin

but he will be quick to return home after any jobs, already anticipating your welcoming eyes as he came back to you

you were like a doll. he would take you everywhere he went, and would make sure you were always happy and healthy. it was actually quite concerning how caring he would become once he took you in

it was pure obsession, and he didn’t have any intentions of controlling it, especially since it was with you

he would keep you away even from his family members, so going out was out of the question

you might get to roam the hallways if he knew his family was out, but other than that, you were confined in the space of your shared room

but don’t worry, he had bought enough dresses and entertainment means for you, so you won’t get bored

if he ever wanted to go out on a ‘date’ with you, he would do so at night. yes, it may be more dangerous to roam the streets during this time of the day, but we’re talking about illumi here

most people feared him, and if not, they knew how powerful he was

not someone one wants to get involved with on the wrong hook

if you ever happen to get yourself hurt, he will be quick to be at your side and comfort you with sickly-sweet words, hoping you will be “fixed up” in no time

he didn’t like the idea of having a broken doll, so you had to always be in a perfect state

chrollo

as a man who stands as one of the most powerful amongst criminals, having someone such as yourself at his disposal will be the icing to his perfect reality 

he adored how you relied on him, how your scared eyes would look for him whenever you were caught up in a threatening situation. to you, he was the one that hid you away from the scary world, protecting you at all costs

it was a nice contrast from the members of his troupe: you were a like a precious treasure he needed to store away, away from prying eyes, and he was willing to do so

though you would never leave the comfort of your room, unless circumstances obligated you to do so, you would have a closet full of dresses

dainty dresses that complimented your fragile nature perfectly. chrollo loved to see you in the whenever he returned, and would frequently bring you new ones

it was the only contact you really had with the outside world, things that he would bring for you

it was far too dangerous outside, even more so since he was a wanted man on the run, so there would be no need for you to go outside 

many would know about your existence, though, which proved a disadvantage for him

they would try and look for you, with the objective of keeping you captive and using you against him

however, chrollo wasn’t an idiot. he knew how to keep his prized possession in a safe place, unable to be reached by anyone

because he knew you would be defenceless against any kind of attack 

and it goes without saying that you will be spoiled: if you ask him for even the smallest of things, you can be sure to receive it in mere hours or even minutes

- here you go bby, i hope you like your request !

adult trio when someone is trying to convince their s/o to leave them

hisoka

whoever it is trying to get you away from his is going to immediately regret their decision, without a second doubt

it was lucky that the guy had actually found you on your own: he’s rarely very far from you, and will only be so if he was on a job 

so the moment he saw the scum speak to you, he was already walking up to him, his signature attitude never leaving as he approached the two of you 

“what do we have here? did i accidentally hear that I’m too...dangerous for them?"

who was this guy to start telling you that he would be better for you? for crying out loud, hisoka was sure that you would have done something if that had been the case, you weren’t a fragile little flower that couldn’t speak up for themselves

and honestly, how the man thought he was better than him was beyond belief 

some people are just a bit too delusional, it seemed

whatever were the case, he didn’t want to have to look at this guy any longer, so he was quick to leave him in a state of shock as a card flew past his face, cutting his skin ever so slightly

as a warning, of course. he wasn’t in the mood to fight someone that would just be a waste of his time

he found it amusing, though, seeing someone try and take you away from him. the excuse of him being a criminal had been used too many times against you by now, and yet you still remained by his side

you had told him that you knew about him before you had even met, so you had known what you were getting into from the start

you were smarter than one would assume, another quality of yours that he absolutely loved

illumi

a joke. this must be some kind of prank, surely

he hates pranks, but he hoped, for the well-being of the other guy, that it was a simple joke that was being pulled on you. perhaps he was a friend of yours

because if it were to be any other way, he can be sure to wake up missing the hand he was caressing your face with missing the next morning

illumi would watch from afar, waiting for you to laugh and tell him to stop. however, all you did as a response to the stranger’s actions were shake him away and try and walk away

that was it

a black figure flashed passed you, towards the bothersome man, and a quick slash sent his right arm flying 

he had heard the whole conversation, and now knowing that the guy had been serious, he was even more pissed off towards him

did he truly think you deserved a scum like himself? now that was a joke and a half 

you would be stunned by the sudden, probably unnecessarily vicious, attack towards the man, but you were thankful that illumi had arrived

you had become used to people tell you that he wasn't the right person for you, that he was dangerous and not to trust

but, you were a grown adult, you were pretty sure you could make your own, rational decisions

yes, he was an assassin, but you wouldn’t have been with him if you felt as if you were in danger

illumi, before taking his leave, would warn the guy to stay away from you, unless he wanted to lose his other arm

it was bad enough that the guy was talking down about him, so the fact he was borderline harassing you had his anger boiling inside of him to another extreme

chrollo

oh please. this again?

chrollo would watch as you were approached by a drunkard during one of the meetings he was attending. criminal business, you know

he wouldn’t do anything, even when the guy started talking to you just a little too close to you. he knew you could fend for yourself, so he let it play out for a bit

besides, it was quite funny to listen to someone call him names whilst not knowing that he could hear each word quite clearly

he would give a few more minutes, until he decided that it was getting a bit too much. placing down his champagne glass down on a nearby table, he would walk towards the two of you

“I see you’ve met my partner? You seem to be getting along quite well, however...I’d like you to know that I don’t appreciate lowlifes like yourself to speak to them as friendly as you are”

you would remain silent as your eyes switched from chrollo to the guy who had been trying to convince you to be with him

it seemed the man had been left without words. he had been all talk until the one he was speaking about stood in front of him, chrollo’s aura being anything but welcoming

he would quickly excuse himself, as well as he could in his intoxicated state, and leave you be

“so, what did he have to say about me? surely nothing I haven’t heard”

“pretty much. you’re apparently some ‘cowardly scumbag assassin’”

“I suppose he got one thing right”

for the rest of the evening, you were accompanied by him closely

- hi there nonnie ! here are the soft feitan hcs you requested, i do hope you like them ♡

feitan with a stronger s/o

feitan wouldnt have really believed that you were that strong when you first joined the troupe. how was anyone supposed to know if you hadn’t even shown off your skills?

he would watch from afar as you had managed to pin down one of the members, debating whether or not he had been right to judge so quickly

your strength will undoubtedly be the reason that he approaches you, teasingly joking about how you were a show off

the two of you would build a friendly bond bit by bit, and eventually blossom into something more. you had been the one to confess, knowing that he was never going to make a move if you let time pass

he was petty like that

everyone knew that feitan was far from weak, but when he stood beside you, with the knowledge that you were the runner up for being the strongest in the troupe, the others couldn’t help but let out a snicker

he, for one, didn’t really take the difference in strength into account. yes, you were good at what you did. quite good. but that didn’t mean that he was anything less than you

being in a relationship meant that you were equals, as far as he knew

though, if you ever happened to get him out of a tricky situation, he may be a little ticked off about it. he could fend for himself, you know !

but he would appreciate your concerns over him, all things put aside

feitan may not rely on you, but he will definitely boast about your skills whenever you two are on a mission

“if you think this is bad, wait until you see my dear partner”

finishing up a job with you always gave him an immense sense of pride. sure, when he worked with the other members it was a nice feeling, but he just got a kick out of doing it with you

he had never been a man of physical affection. however, whenever you laid your hand against his face, he couldn’t help but let his guard down, feeling safe in your presence and knowing you would never hurt him

- indeed i can bby ! ♡

nobunaga, morel and kite with a platonic partner

nobunaga

being close with nobunaga means that there will be times when the two of you will bicker relentlessly, and others where you will be comforting each other in hard moments

it really just depends

though, spending a lot of time with him will also mean that you will get a lot of information that he may not share with the others. nothing crucial for missions, but it will be little things, like what he saw when he was away

he’s a man that enjoys culture, in my opinion, so he when he comes back from a trip in a foreign region, he will immediately tell you about everything he had seen and heard about from the people there

he may even come back with small souvenirs. he would tell you that they reminded him of you, the person he enjoyed discovering places with the most 

some nights, the two of you would be talking for hours, in front of a fire or even just away from the others. this would undoubtedly spark up dating suspicions amongst the other members

however, you were really only speaking about topics that you felt like you could only really discuss with him. he’s someone who can talk for hours about one simple things, delving into details and coming up with some extraordinary theories 

nobunaga spends a lot of time thinking, so it’s no wonder that these discussions go on for hours

and he knows you’re the only person that will listen. not just listen, but also give your own insights on the subject, encourage the conversation to continue for however long it needed to

a big brain duo. that’s what you two were

and he wouldn’t have wanted it any other way

morel

this man’s second name is jolly. granted, he may sometimes be just a little bit pretentious, but all in all, his intentions are never bad. just somewhat obnoxious at times

it’s really no surprise when you hit it off well with him when you met him those many years ago. in fact, the two of you had gotten along so well that you were now part of the hunter team he lead

you had been there when he took on both shoot and knuckle: they were so naive and boisterous, on knuckle’s behalf. you sometimes missed those times when they weren’t pro hunters

the bond between you and morel was purely platonic, but it would sometimes be mistaken as something else. nobody had expected morel to keep someone by his side for so long without having some sort of relationship with them

however, it was really just that. nights spent drinking in a bar as the two of you reminiscence over old times, laughing away and hoping that those moments would last forever, just as any other that you spent with him

of course, it hadn’t always been laughs and smiles. both of you had been hit several times by the consequences of becoming a pro hunter

but you had always been there for each other. you can’t count the times morel has had to fix up your injuries, and the times you have had to give his back a massage because he strained himself on a mission

it was comforting to have someone so close, being concerned over you and yet still knowing how to have a good laugh

on even the toughest missions, you two won’t be seen without the other. not that either of you were incapable of withstanding a fight alone, it was more the case that you had grown accustomed to always battling together

out of pure habit

so when anyone sees morel, they know you won’t be far behind

kite

being kite’s partner has an obvious outcome: you will see the most spectacular places and discover the strangest beasts out in the wild with him

you were someone very special to him, thus the trust he had in you to take you on his expeditions. not even his team went on every trip with him, so you were quite the lucky person

other than travelling with him, the two of you will share a strong bond. this will mean that he won’t hesitate to jump into a fight if your life is in danger

he will go to extremes to make sure you are safe, and of course you would reciprocate these actions

you were an extravagant duo, and anyone who has gone outside has seen the two of you either analysing areas or simply just passing by to get to your next destination

kite would get particularly more “friendly” at night. this means that he will be all ears if you had anything to vent out about, or simply need someone to listen for a bit

during the day it’s quite hard for you to just stop and talk, so you would wait for the quiet night to fall to hold full on conversations with him

it’s a hard job being a travelling hunter: if you happen to make any friends along the way, know that you will have to leave them shortly, never knowing when you are to see them again

but having kite by your side made it easier: you were never really alone

even when he would just sit in silence beside you, admiring the views from your resting spot, you felt at home

- hi there baby ! this request is absolutely okay, i changed killua’s s/o to a friend, as it’s just more comfortable for me to write, but don’t worry, only small things will differ ♡

killua, chrollo and feitan with an easily stressed s/o if put on the spot

killua

killua will be quick to notice your anxiousness the moment you were asked a rather tricky question whilst the two of you were hanging out one day

it had come from a curious reporter that happened to spot the young zoldyck son, and was eager to know how you had become his friend seeing as his brothers were much against friendships

he would see is as unnecessary, and would try and avoid the reporter at first. however, they didn’t seem to let up, so you were practically cornered by them

he answered the questions directed at him, but he wasn’t quick enough to pull you away from the situation when one landed on you

unable to answer, you looked around in hopes of finding a way to dismiss them without sounding extremely rude

but it seemed you were on your own, and you could feel your heart starting to race and your voice being caught up in your throat

deciding that he had had enough of the situation, killua quickly grabbed onto your arm and, with a quick excuse that he had somewhere to be, sprinted off away from the reporter

just by the way you slightly struggled to control your feet as he took off suddenly, he knew what had happened

once you got somewhere away from prying eyes, he would ask if you were alright

he was extremely sorry that he had put you through that just then, and he assured you that he would avoid letting that happen again

oh, and as a way of asking for forgiveness, he will for sure take you to eat some ice cream, offering to pay for as many bowls as you’d like !

chrollo

being in a relationship with chrollo meant that you were either going to have to always stay inside, or take part in the troupe’s activities, so as to not be seen as a vulnerable target

you opted for the second one, as you actually quite enjoyed being with the other members. however, being involved with them implied getting into certain situations 

situations that were far outside your comfort zone

most of the times others would speak in your place, but there had been others that you were left by your self to negotiate with other criminals

which would lead you to enter an anxious state, so severe that it would get to the point where you would be unable to speak 

you hated it, but knew that it was what you had to do if you didn’t want to spend the rest of your time stowed away in your shared room

chrollo will be notified about this by one of the troupe members, and he will quickly make sure that you are never put in such a situation again

he wasn’t able to be there during certain missions, so he put his trust upon the other members to avoid you having to endure being put on the spot

of course, if you’re with him, you won’t have to worry about becoming anxious. he knows how you feel, so he will take the lead if you were caught up in a tricky situation whenever you two were together

if you come home feeling stressed after a mission, chrollo won’t waste a second to get you into a warm bath and prepare you a meal

though he had never experienced such stress, he could only imagine how hard it must be for you, so he would try his best, once you got home, to calm you down

but again, you don’t have to worry too much about being put on the spot

you’re dating one of the most powerful men in the criminal world, so you’ll be looked out for whenever you go out 

so not to worry 

feitan

with feitan, things may go a little different. the times you would be put on the spot would be during meetings with the rest of the troupe, so it was a regular situation for you

he didn’t quite grasp the reason behind your stuttering and fumbling around whenever you were asked directly a questions regarding any information that was needed in that moment

you found it hard to speak, to breathe, and you would just hope someone would speak for you instead of having to be under the stress you felt

unfortunately, sometimes you had no other option

feitan would ask you, at some point, why you acted such a way. you couldn’t possibly be nervous in front of people you had been working with for quite some time now 

he just didn’t understand it

when you told it that it was because whenever someone would abruptly ask you something directly, your mind would go blank and you’d get lost. this lead to an increased sense of stress, and everything was just downhill from there

even after your explanation he would find it a bit strange, but he would understand. he was someone who couldn't care less if he was in front of you or a thousand people, he wouldn’t really get nervous or anxious over speaking towards others

but knowing that it made you uncomfortable to answer sudden questions, he would start to answer with any information he had

he though that that way he might give you a base to start off from, and from there you could catch onto the response