FOR YOU ARE NOT BESIDE BUT WITHIN ME

Maybe I wasn’t made for anyone.

I always felt like I saw things differently. Saw things other people didn’t.

I love you… Pero frankly wala akong pake. You’re just another void… Soon you’ll be irrelevant.

It’s not about letting go or moving on because they never really leave. They leave a void and you carry that void with you, always. It’s a matter of growing up; you just become a bigger person until that void doesn’t feel as big.”

I love to smoke. Smoking a cigarette is like forgetting. When I hit rock bottom it’s all I have. Light up, smoke up, shut the fuck up. It hides the shit. The smoke hides the shit. There’s menthol and vanilla. Some people like ‘em. Menthol cigarette. Vanilla cigarette. Chocolate cigarette. Cigarette cigarette. Cigarettes clearly keep me from going crazy. Keeps me alive. It keeps me alive until I die.